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Every poem I write has a story behind so does this

I want to feel loved for once

and not the same time.

I wanna trust people again

but don't the same time.

I wanna smile like carefree

but heart feels ached.

I wanna feel safe

but I can't trust.

I try to let go off

but it repeats again and again.

There's something in my heart

a painful feeling of mine

inexpressible

that hurts me all time

and I act like I don't care

but only I know how I feel

maybe this is how it feels

when once you loved someone

deeply and you were hurt in every way.

AQUA BEACH

I love the breeze, Love walking on the beach.

Making castles of wet sand . Leaves fluttering like my heart ❤ Watching the glittery waves.

Hearing the birds chirp and fly in the violet blue red sky .

Tribe putting up the fire 🔥 by the side,

I walk by Thinking to join them .

Can smell the salty water and steak .

Found a shell under my toe So, Grey and yellow.

Looking at the sunset. I knew it was the best thing 😌 That evening.

Staying friends

Nothing really matters

now that I have learned

not to be ever an option

of anybody.

After so long I liked a guy.

A wrong guy

and I know it in my senses,

knowing we don't hold a future

but what do I do?

He makes me smile, blush,

my heart flutter like no one ever did

I like the way he puts his words

together.

Though he says,

he wants to give this a try.

I know he is a fuckboy,

so, I don't want to.

I know I will be wounded further more.

So holding on as friends

which I will let go off soon

because for him it's just my body

Saying 'NO' to dates

'NO' a response to start something new.

Fear of past repeating

or my wounds worsening

How do I tell him?

This is the best was we can live.

EXISTENCE

Sorry, for my ex

my friends who turned into snakes

and family who was never mine

they lost the good me

who would always give a helping hand.

Thank you

for the anxiety attacks

pain, trust issues,

depression and overthinking

that I deal with everyday

just to keep my existence.

Insecurities & Imperfection:

Truth is I'm too imperfect

it includes both from within and without.

May not be beautiful for everyone's sight

but, whoever sees

what's inside, will surely adore it

even if from far.

Truth is I'm insecure of many things

don't just choose to show

in fear of being bullied when they know.

I keep me so private

even from the one whom

I am closest to.

I don't want to die of that same pain again,

don't want to fall in the same pit twice.

They once pushed me.

They are not humans I say.

They are more of monsters!

that makes you feel so insecure

and down.

They speak things so mean.

Brown and blacks are not liked

for when it's skin tone,

but I don't understand

they still carry

red blood.

Then where's the difference?

aren't we all the same inside?

Laughed at, for acne marks

no matter

friend, relative, or a complete stranger.

All they care about is breaking hearts

and making me feel not good enough.

These monsters have a common goal,

they all just want to look down at me

and make me feel crushed.

Maybe all they want is to feel superior?

for their own insecurities.

Could they not just make fun?

or not give that look as if I am the monster?

“some people won’t see you regardless of how clear a picture of yourself you paint, because their idea of you won’t allow them to see you as anything else than what makes them comfortable. their misunderstandings of you are not your responsibility to manage.”

— iambrillyant

Finally

I can think of the past

Without reliving the pain

Look back on my toughest moments

And smile

Even laugh

Because I'm so proud of my former self

For the strength she had

She endured the worst so that we could finally

Feel alive

TED Talks for the New Year

Here are TED Talks that will give you a guide to a successful year

How to learn anything

Power food for the brain

Secret to self-control

Don't be a jerk to yourself

Building your identity capital

Improving your body language

What your future self wants

Saying Yes

Habits of original thinkers

Become the person you can't imagine

Designing the life you want

Be your own life coach

How to talk so that people listen

Curiosity over ambition

Life is your biggest project

How to achieve your most ambitious goals

our mom's would have had a better life if they weren't married so early to people they'd try to love all their life and fail miserably

Yes I saw no one hold me and I was alone so got up, growing and glowing 😊

And when the pain became too much

She let go of everything she was holding onto so dearly

Patiently waiting to see what, if anything, would hold onto her

Rain of pain

Perfect lines during the rain,

the rain is all about the pain,

pain from that someone who once said would never leave,

left me in the darkness and roaring screams.

I find myself in darkness now,

where do I go now?

tell me

tell me

oKAY so I was actually reading poems of another writer and I ended up writing this on her comment section so copy pasted edited and here you go new poem!

My One Only Sister

See, that gal She my beautiful sister.

Apart by distance, Always connected and close to my heart ❤.

She seems to be quiet? but I know how naughty she is.

Known her for five years now and she already my family.

I don't call her my best friend because there's no end .

Slaps me at my mistakes, Hugs me at my achievement

Gal you got a golden heart💛 Wish I met you earlier but no regrets Only love.

She seems to know What's wrongly right And rightly wrong .

Picks-me-up up at every fall. You got my back my gal.

If I die tonight Would wish to see you In my next life, As my sister again.

Broke Me Again

I saw you with another girl that evening.

I saw you with no signs of missing me.

I couldn't stand the sight the way you looked at her... that way. I thought it was only for me.

Felt like my world was shattering, pieces that were rolling to unknown places.

Never thought you would do this to me... Did you? Did you? Did you know this? How hard it was for me? How hard it was to trust another human being? It ended up being you. You again? another mistake?

Mistake of loving the wrong one, Trusting blindly? You did not deserve it.

You just broke me ... just broke me apart and I did not deserve it!

I absolutely love this piece of writing!

Stay

Its been 4 days, you havent yet walked out the door. My mind shows me different ways, I would end up broken hearted and on the floor.

I hated you so much, didn't like the way you acted around me. But now that I've felt your touch, I wonder if you miss being free.

I don't know what to do or what to say, you bring me joy, I cause you pain. Now that you're here, I hope you will stay, I don't want to play, if I lose the game.

~

©that-poetic-disaster

I JUST WANNA WRITE

I have a hidden identity

No one knew

but this was a wish of mine,

wish of being a writer

For a long time now...

I wanted to deliver messages,

messages that make one smile

And am smiling telling this to you:

'I am not in search for perfect lines

I just wanna write and keep going '.

It's okay it's not good today

But I wanna write better tomorrow.

There's always a message

I am sending through these works

And hope you keep smiling.

This was the first poem I published back then to introduce myself and tell for why I am writing.

Welcome here!

Hello everyone,

This is Cynthia Seven a writer of poems, short stories and elements that help you lead the life you want to. I also have built a website of my own "Worms Of New Era". I am here to explore, deliver content and find myself with more creativeness.

I am new here so if reading or writing poem or stories interests you, how about get to know each other.?