I'm So Tired,

I'm so tired,

So fucking tired.

I want a reason to change

Because I can't change myself.

I loathe myself.

And refuse to treat it better.

I've never known to do anything,

But self destruct.

So give me a reason to change,

For the better.

Please!

Without hurting anyone in the process.

I don't understand what you're doing. You claim that you care about me but your behaviour says otherwise. Just cut me out of your life or don't fucking treat me like this.

I’m a hypocrite

I’m a hypocrite for telling people not to harm themselves while my self destruction habbits have reached a warning point

I’m a hypocrite for encouraging people to stay alive and live for another day while I don’t know whether or not I’ll wake up tomorrow

I’m a hypocrite for telling people to keep hoping for things to change while I’ve given up and lost hope

I’m a hypocrite for pushing everyone away and isolating myself from people while I desperately crave for company

I’m a hypocrite for telling people I’m fine while I’m feeling numb and my feelings are dead

I’m a hypocrite for showing everyone that nothing bothers me or hurts me while I’m sitting and overthinking about every single little thing that made me feel like shit

I’m a hypocrite for so many reasons but thats just me

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im never okay but at this point im as tired of talking about it as everyone else is lol 

All those compliments from all these people don't mean anything anymore when you dismissed me like that. It's scary how much impact you have on me.