Welcome Stays

welcome stays

bang chan

lee minho

seo changbin

hwang hyunjin

han jisung

lee felix

kim seungmin

yang jeongin

welcome deobis

lee sangyeon

bae jacob

kim younghoon

lee hyunjae

my last love oneshot, dad!au, fluff [ dating lee jaehyun was the best thing that ever happened to the both of you but when things don't work it, everything falls apart. what happens when years later, he shows up in your life again successful with his career, which is the main reason to your breakup, but still in love with you? ]

lee juyeon

moon kevin

choi chanhee

ji changmin

ju haknyeon

kim sunwoo

sohn eric

☆☆ m.list

the boyz tomorrow x together

enhypen stray kids (nothing yet)

☆☆ about me

hello! here’s a little about me.. we can become friends!

☆ part one

name: jaehwa (i go by jae) pronouns: she/her year: ‘04 liner zodiac: gemini mbti: isfj-a languages: english, japanese, korean lover of: fashion, tea, macarons, babybreaths, oversized hoodies, sushi, xxtra hot cheetos, butterflies, strawberry shortcake, silver accessories, rain, dance, nail designs

☆ part two

currently listening: dear sputnik by txt, unforgiven by le sserafim, alone by jimin, ganadara by iu & yea that dude, haegeum by agust d, super by seventeen

currently watching:

currently rewatching: what's wrong with secretary kim, extraordinary you, kaichou wa maid sama

currently doing: studying for final exams and also crying.. not really. listening to music and watching tv shows. but studying is true.

☆ part three

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☆ part four

the boyz ⇥ sunwoo: i swear i consider this man the love of my life. if someone told me to only choose one idol out of all idols to marry realistically, i would say him. he is literally just my type. the way he smiles and plays around with his members is so cute but on the contrast, his raps are way too cool. it's so sad.. if only there were men like him in this world.. but also like he's so smart. his wit has helped him get out of so many things; most of them that start from chanhee's anger/frustration. on second thought, do i like a bully? IM JK HES NOT A BULLY. ⇥ eric: now this man is the literal opposite. he is literally so annoying and is so loud. but why am i attracted him? like i swear to god. he is so hot when he isn’t annoying the hell out of me. he gives me la boy vibes with the backward snapbacks and the sleeveless shirts. ew.. one of my friends also went to school with him too so he's so american to me lmao... but he's actually really sweet? like despite the whole frat boy vibe, he's considerate to the team and deobis. his vlives are just so therapeutic and peaceful.

tomorrow x together ⇥ yeonjun: no cause yeonjun’s way too talented. cause his voice. his dancing. and his modeling. omg. there’s a reason why he’s called the 4th gen it boy. not only that but he’s so sweet and sensitive towards his members, family, and friends. but to moa too. oh god. i’m crying. he’s so sweet. have you seen the way he vocalizes? i feel like i'm listening to an angel. but he's also really funny too. i mean honestly all of txt is but. ⇥ beomgyu: he has bias wrecked me so much with his long hair and i’m literally so picky with who grows out hair. like i don’t want to be cancelled but like long hair just doesn’t suit some people. but he so does. and the way he pouts and complains during to do is so adorable. his annoying ass would probably tire me out if i actually knew him in real life. but i know how sensitive and sensual he really is. and that's what makes him the sympathetic, good person he is. and honestly i really wish there were more people who knew how sweet he is.

enhypen ⇥ jungwon: he’s such a good leader. he’s literally the same age as me, which makes me think even more about how much he’s achieved. youngest leader so far in the kpop industry and continues to mentally help enha. so proud of him. after rewatching iland, i saw so many caring moments i missed from him. i always wish young idols had a regular childhood. they deserve it but looking at jungwon makes me believe that this truly makes him happy. within circumstances, of course. and i think being an idol was meant for him. ⇥ sunghoon: he was my first bias because i have ways liked watching ice skating. but when i got to know him, he was actually so funny. and when he cried after reading his parents’ letter, i realized the journey he had gone through already at a young age. i’m amazed by his determination in his dream. and i'm super happy that he decided to choose a different path. watching him follow each one of his dreams has been an amazing experience.

nct ⇥ jeno: one word. duality. one minute he’d be so adorable, that i just wanna squish his cheeks. and then another minute, i’d literally be checking him out with a big smirk on my face. i feel like a perv. and, don't get me wrong. i don't know why either but i'm always insulting my biases? anyway.. i normally don’t go for the clueless ones cause they frustrate me lol but jeno is an acception. i think. ⇥ jaehyun: hot. okay and i will say that he fits the frat boy vibe so much but that’s not all he is, i swear. he’s so talented. his live vocals. ahh.. heaven. and he’s so effortlessly funny. half of the time, he doesn’t know what’s going on but it is so funny when his american side sometimes comes out. ⇥ doyoung: i first fell for his singing voice cause let me tell you. his covers are literally so glorious. but the way he jokes around with taeyong but cares so much for the younger members is so precious. cause he knows when to act like a kid and when to make sure to be a brother. and even when he's an older figure to most of the members, he's a baby in his family. his brother and his relationship are so cute. they truly are in good terms which is admirable, considering they're both pretty busy.

stray kids ⇥ hyunjin: okay, i’ll be honest with yall and say his visuals first attracted me. but when i watched the survival show, his weaknesses sorta caught my eye. i feel like because he’s so emotional, it relays onto his work well. like his artworks, pictures, and the way he dances always ends up showing some kind of emotion of his. and also he’s so good at making the members feel loved. i think overall i like affectionate guys. ⇥ minho: he’s literally such a bully. especially towards seungmin but the members have said, and you can see it pretty clearly, that he actually cares a lot about everyone. he’s just a tsundere.. he’s not only friendly, although shy, he’s crazy talented and i literally admire him as a dancer. you know those type of ppl you meet and you immediately think "wow this guy must have no friends". he's like the opposite of that. i don't know if that even makes sense but yea. like he seems the type to have a lot of good friends. because he's a difficult person to be friends with, he'll surround himself with people who fully appreciate him for who he is. well... that got deep..

☆ part five

boy groups (bias): astro (moonbin) rip, ateez (wooyoung/mingi), cix (seunghun), golden child (bomin), monsta x (minhyuk/kihyun), p1harmony (keeho), seventeen (mingyu/dk/scoups/wonwoo), treasure (haruto/jihoon/yedam)

girl groups (bias): itzy (yeji), ive (rei/yujin), gidle (shuhua/soojin), kep1er (hikaru), le sserafim (yunjin), loona (jinsoul), newjeans (minji), stayc (isa), twice (chaeyoung/sana), xg (maya)

soloists (some cause i can’t list them all) audrey nuna, ben, be'o, bibi, bol4, chungha, dpr ian, dpr live, gsoul, heize, iu, jimmy brown, junny, kang daniel, kimmuseum, lauv, lany, ph-1, pink sweat$, sam kim, seori, suran, taeyeon, woodz

groups i’m trying to get into: i’m caught up!!

in another life

💌 pairing: lee heeseung x reader 💌 genre: oneshot, idol!au, angst, sad ending 💌 word count: 2.9k 💌 author's note: i've always wanted to try out the idol au so here i am. i tried to research a lot about all the details in idol's schedules but if it is wrong, please look over it. i am human after all.. i have written this for the mere reason of me wanting to write angst. i contemplated a lot on writing for enhypen and where i should begin. especially cause most of them are literally the same age as me or as my friends so it makes it weird to imagine this story. but i considered doing this one because it's gonna be angsty and realistic. enjoy the reading!

[ you never expected yourself to break the one rule. the trap of falling in love with an idol. but fall you did. you knew it was wrong but what could you do? it's not like you could control your heart. and for the sake of his job and his members too, the company can do nothing but stop you guys. there's nothing you can do, being a commoner, you had to let him go. do you love him enough to let him go? ]

the past two years have been a rollercoaster, really. your journey began with your mother working for the company, hybe labels. well, she had been working since the company was small and were called bighit entertainment; around 2012. so you knew many of the staff as uncles and aunts. your mom was a single mom. no shame in that. but it made lots of things hard on her end which caused you to have three part-time jobs. you wanted to do your part and make up for your father leaving the two of you. by the time you were graduated from high school, you had received a full-ride scholarship to attend a good 4 year university with the major of technical management. you were well satisfied. if all goes well, you would be right up there with your mother as she styled the idols and you leading them on stage to soundcheck and lighting. well.. let's just say you've never had good luck when it came to such big dreams. because not even your first year in college, your mom gets diagnosed with lung disease, an uncurable one at that. as much as you hated to admit it, without a cure any time soon, your mom was on a deadline. soon enough, she resigned and was given proper care for her hospital bills and insurance too. you were glad that at least she had been taken good care of from a good company.

naturally, you quit your part-time jobs and decided to finish university as fast as you can. luckily, your ged credits were easily made up from your high school classes and your chancellor had allowed you to graduate in two years, as long as you finished the rest of your credits during the summer as well. so you bust your ass off for the next year and with hard work and more hard work, you go to graduate in the summer. nothing special. just a diploma and a medal. obviously, what came after this was job hunting. but you didn't have to. like you had known, hybe was a good company that took good care of their employees. and so, here you were standing in front of the big building with the job offer for tech manager. you accepted, of course. where else were you going to get a decent paying, benefit-filled contract with amazing staff surrounding you? nowhere. exactly.

with hopes that everyone will like you, you enter the company and are immediately engulfed with positive, well-oiled working engine, energy. few weeks of training and shadowing someone got you to be assistant manager within no time. you started working with their newest boy group, enhypen. they were all sweet to you, of course professional too.

time after time, comeback after comeback, you and the members had grown much closer. especially lee heeseung. he had welcomed you the best. showed you around on how their schedule goes, what each member likes to do during soundchecks, and so forth. like a hopeless romantic, you did the one thing your mother made you promise to yourself you wouldn't do. working at such a corporate, being married is usually a requirement, due to many of the scandals the idols may be risked into. you were hired with an exception but that didn't make it any less forbidden to interact with the idols in that way. but what could you have done? not have a crush? not fall in love? all valid answers and you probably should've listened to yourself at the time. but.. he came to you first. he asked you first.

heeseung is a sweetheart. always has been and probably always will be. that's what made him feel so special. he was always there. when you found out that your mom is going to have to get surgery, even after the surgery, and also when you were told there's nothing else they can do for your mom. he let you cry in his arms like any boy would do when he likes a girl. but your situation was different. and you knew it. but you still let yourself be enveloped into his embrace, let your feelings make way, and to ignore whatever your inner subconscious would tell you; which was to stop and drop everything before it hurts anyone.

too late.

a few weeks ago from today, you were told by the higher ups that you must no longer interact with heeseung or with enhypen. especially with them being semi-rookies, they should be more careful with things like this.

things like this. that's all your love meant to everyone outside of you and heeseung's relationship.

they had been considering transferring you to another company. luckily for them, they were a label. so they could easily transfer you to a different group without letting loose of you. despite the whole romance that has been taken over, you were good at your job and everyone knew that. maybe that was why they didn't try to stop it as they usually would. you never cry. or so you thought. perhaps it was just that you never had time to cry. with working, there's no way you can just start crying but when you'd go home, you're taking care of your mom. again, no way. sure. you cried to heeseung about your mom but that was that. there was no one you could talk to that would relate or comfort you about this. you put yourself through this.

so the day you go to the park to clear your mind, it was the first time in years you cried. you were getting weird looks from some and pitiful eyes from others. but you could care less. you were not even 22 yet and you were struggling to pay hospital bills, to keep your relationship, to live the life that you wished. that being said, maybe that was why when heeseung had told you these words, you didn't shed a tear.

"i can't love you."

can't. not don't. you wanted to notice the difference in his words. but it honestly didn't matter at this point. when heeseung had noticed the way your face was expressionless, lips pale and eyes dead, he couldn't help but feel that you had known this was coming. it didn't make any of it easier, of course.

"please.. say something, y/n," you let your head rise until your eyes met his. it's funny how a week can change things. you remember just last weekend, you were laying on the floor of the dorm living room, watching some show the tv was streaming with heeseung laying next to you. his arms around you as you two giggled over jake complaining that you guys had finished the last ramen. and now the two of you stand, in front of one another. one's eyes filled with tears and the other with no tears left to cry. he leaves a hard grip on your shoulders, trying to shake you out of what seemed like a daydream. but in fact, you were just tired. tired of believing this was the better choice than all of the above. "i'm begging you. i need you to say something." you slowly wipe the tear rolling down heeseung's cheek and smile.

"heeseung. it's hard not to love you.. but i can't say it's easy to love you either.. you have to understand that this is what's best for the both of us," he pulls you into his chest, hurriedly wrapping his arms around you as if that would stop everyone from pulling him out of this relationship. "i agree.. hee. i agree with the company. i want you to succeed and live your dream. even if that means our dream must die. it's worth it. i swear to you it is." you nodded, almost like you're trying to convince yourself and not the man in front of you. slowly pushing him away, you let out a soft sigh.

his lips trembled at your smile, knowing that you were just acting tough for the sake of his heart. "i'll make it up to you. i promise. i promise to you that one day, i will become such a big hit that no one can control me and judge me for who i'm with. it's cruel to ask. i know.. but can you wait for me? can you-" with a grasp of both your hands on his, he stops.

"i won't. i can't.. hee.. you don't need me. i can love you and cherish you. but it won't give you anything. but your fans? your company? there's just so much more ahead for you. i can't get in the way of that. so instead of a promise to me.. make a promise to yourself. that you will become a big hit because you want to and because that's the life you want to live. not for me. not for anyone else. hmm?," you had many breakdowns together but never had you seen heeseung so brokenhearted. and you couldn't help but feel yourself quiver a bit too. you reach up on your toes to give him a soft kiss on the cheek. "goodbye heeseung.." i loved you i love you.

heeseung watches as you gather your things and leave. he had never felt so empty. what was his dorm, slowly just became a place for him to sleep and rest. it no longer felt like home. nor did his recording studios. he can still hear you messing around with the mic and see you dancing to his dances, in which you failed to copy, but none of that mattered. he still thought you looked cute. the hybe rooftop no longer gave him a relaxing feeling. and he soon realized that none of these places were home to him. you were his home. one he let go of. one he will miss all his life. back at his dorms, his members saw him as a mess. and rightfully so. they all loved you and loved the heeseung when he was with you. he was happy. he was loved. so the night when he was scrummaging through his room to find his airpods; one he tended to lose often if it wasn't for you; he came across a silver chain. a bracelet he recalls giving you. he wonders why it had gotten under his drawers when the faint memory of you comes up.

that bracelet was given to you by heeseung on your first anniversary and a few weeks later, you ended up losing it. you cried to him about it because you felt bad for losing something precious that he had given you. and now here it was. in his shaking right hand. he slowly wraps it around his left wrist and clasps the chain on. with an exhale, the tears were back. soon enough, the other members could hear heeseung balling in his room and it sucked because they knew there was nothing good enough to comfort him. jungwon cleared his throat and slowly entered the room with a knock. "hey hyung?" he could see the way heeseung quickly wiped his tears away and sat up.

"please don't act like you aren't hurt.. it hurts the rest of us to see you suffering..," heeseung's sigh allows jungwon to tap his back with a rhythm. "look.. if it's meant to be, someday, you'll run into her again. and you'll see that nothing has changed. but for now. you gotta think for yourself, hyung. you have to wake up and see that you still have everything else." heeseung's surprised with jungwon's pep talk because despite all the mature things he usually says, he didn't realize jungwon gives good advice on love too. so with a nod, he stands up, tidies his room up a little, before heading to the living room where the others watch a drama.

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it's been three years since. your mother had sadly passed a year ago. but she fought her best and you knew she was tired. everything had changed around you except for one thing. hybe was still a good label. placed you into one of their companies, pledis. you worked for seventeen after everything and occasionally other projects among the music stations.

yesterday was their comeback so they're starting promotions today. the first one was music bank. you were excited because since you were now an on-call tech manager. last year, you were given an opportunity to travel on their world tour as the 2nd tech manager. which basically means you get to go with them but behind the scenes. you decided not to because you didn't want to travel in that tight schedule so you stayed behind. a part of you wanted to see the world. but you didn't want it to be rushed and formed around another person's schedule. so glad you did. because this year, you were upgraded into a higher position and now get to be on stand-by. more risks and harder work, but in the end, it was what you wanted. this is gonna be your second comeback with them with this position. first time went great but you were nervous. this time, you know you're just gonna do great.

"lights?"

"they're good."

"what about all the cameras? are they charged?"

all these questions made this feel more real. you were going to present these idols live in about half an hour. soon after, woozi, one of the seventeen members, came up to you and asked if his mic was connected or not because it wasn't working. you instantly fixed it and decided to check on the others as well. everything was good. until you hear a voice you knew all too well, practicing his vocals in a room. you halt and smile at the talented voice before knocking on the door. the seven boys' eyes shifts over to you at your voice with a few gasps here and there. "hi guys, i'm the tech manager. i'm just going to be checking everyone's mics as there were a few issues in seventeen's. so if you don't mind, can you guys show me the mic system and headsets?," they hurriedly take out their mics and lay them out onto a table. as you checked each one, you could feel a few eyes staring at you. you cleared your throat. "okay.. looks good. thank you guys." you look up at their manager and with a bow, you excuse yourself. before getting a grasp of a hand around your wrist. already knowing who it was, you turned around.

"y/n.." with a smile, you slowly release his grip on you. "it's been a while.."

"yes. it has. and i'm glad to see that everyone's doing good."

"how have you been?" you could hear the managers from a mile away, talking about you. honestly, you thought this was all over with by now. but what's done is done. "i'd advise you to go back to your group, sir."

"y/n. don't act like that," with barely any expression on your face, he sighs. "i have some things i left unsaid. and i've been wanting to tell you like crazy. is there any way i can talk to you? and maybe start over?"

"look. i don't know what you mean by start over. but this? it ended three years ago. and if you're here to apologize, don't. it was mutual and it honestly worked out better this way. but if you're here, hoping that things would go back the way it was. it's never going to happen. i'm happy now. truly happy. and i wish you were too. so if you'll excuse me, i'm going to have to get back to my job." as soon as you got out the door, you can hear mingyu.

"y/n! can you fix my headset!" this.. this is how life should be. and you were happy it was. whether it be with heeseung or without heeseung.

maybe in another life, you could be his and he could be yours.

but this was your dream.. right?

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