Untold Symptom: Anger Attack

Untold Symptom: Anger Attack

Hi, as a person who has what someone might call anger issues, I am going to explain to you how they're for me. If you relate to my issues then do something about it. If you don't, talk about it, I guess?

I'll basically be doing something. For example, watching a youtube video but then I suddenly feel a switch flip in my brain. Literally it feels like the filter has just been changed or when you go to the optometrist and they change the perscription.

Suddenly, this wave of irrational anger overcomes me. I'll be screaming into the pillows and biting myself. Clawing into my fingers and praying to God that someone will drill into my ears so the blood will drown out this accursed person. Maybe it was the volume, maybe someone misinterpreted something I love, maybe I was struck by the thought this person was kind of annoying.

I will be sitting somewhere, in a situation where I must talk. But then suddenly everything gets amplified. I can hear their breathing. Their little click of the tongue as it hits their roof. I have to physically grab onto the chair and convince myself not to murder. I will walk out of that situation, find the nearest wall, and punch it repeatedly and as hard as I can.

I would love to see a character like me. Or just another person. Nobody in my family sympathizes with the fact that sometimes I have the uncontrollable urge to punch the fridge as hard as I can. Or that I need to get out of a social situation, not because I am awkward but because I need to get to a wall.

It was really hard during the Covid Pandemic where every single time I would have to turn off all the volume, black out my picture, and cry for an hour out of rage because I was that overstimulated.

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Can't offer financial support, but I can share it around!

My Favorite Version Of Character

I have noticed a ✨theme✨in a lot of my characters so I will give you a step-by-step explanation of my thought process so you can steal it and i'll know I have helped a generation of tumblr users

Step 1: Grab A Mystical Creature

Bonus: They Are Associated With Purity

Think angels. Maybe even aliens? Just something on the supernatural side of things.

Step 2: Make Them Horny :)

Grab that angel character you just made and make them interested in sex or "sexy things". Grab that alien you just made and have be an alien who studies human reproduction with a focus on the actual "sexy" aspect because it's something unfamiliar to aliens.

Either way, they have a focus. A Drive

Final Step: Don't Judge Them For This, They Have Other Issues

One of my angel characters, Gabriel, is basically Nagito-levels of submissive. Complete sexual undercurrent throughout so many of their actions.

And this is never seen as bad. Heck, Gabriel is literally named Gabriel as a reward for being God's Favorite Angel due to his religious devotion and belief in God's message. Since that's all God cares about!

Gabriel has flaws that make life a little awkward but this isn't one of them.

Lesson: Sex Isn't Evil

A character being sex-positive shouldn't be shown as a bad thing. No one should be judged for their sex habits if they are using protection and regularly checking their STD status.

Sex doesn't corrupt. An active sex life isn't incapitable with morality.

If your character genuinely adores sex and this isn't a trauma response or a bad coping mechanism then they should be able to do that. #sex positive

Writing Advice On: Relatability

Hot Take: Make you characters relatable, not like that!

When people hear the world "relatable", a certain image comes to mind of the early to mid 2000s where the most important thing for a celebrity to be was "authentic" and "down to earth" in the most superfluous and superficial way possible.

Using this jumping off point, I will talk about what I hear when people advise to write "relatable characters" and what naysayers for relatability hear! Because it isn't the same thing.

When people read stories, they are looking for an immersive experience into the lives and emotions of others with the word "other" highlighted in order to make a point against relatability. Most naysayers of relability think that "relatable" means:

"has all of my superficial personality traits and life"

Obviously, the most popular characters in western media such as drug lord Walter White in Breaking Bad or disabled Ryan in Special aren't relatable to the majority of people.

And with that last paragraph, I have already pointed out a problem in "relatability is pointless". Walter White and Ryan are relatable.

Walter White is the story of corruption as his lust for power drives him further away from the man he once was. While this isn't the trajectory most follow, many can relate to being or knowing someone who went down a bad path paved with good intentions.

Ryan is the relatable "coming of age" story of a gay man with cerebral palsy who decides to go after the happier life he has always wanted. Ryan is the relatable protagonist who is awkwardly going after what he wants which is something that all of us have either tried or wanted to do.

These characters are relatable, not because of their specificity, but universality which is a made-up word probably.

"Sympathy Is Caused By Relatability And Understanding"

We sympathize with people not because we always relate to the individual circumstances but because we relate to stories about personal suffering which is universal.

It the belief that characters are only relatable when they have superficial traits that are similar to our own superficial traits that has prevented minorities such as Ryan O'Connell and Walter Jr. from taking the spotlight!

It comes from the belief that being a white cishet neurotypical abled-bodied man is the default and everything else diverse should be marketed toward a specific member of the populus.

Women protagonist = Woman story

Disabled protagonist = Disabled story

Etc. Etc.

But because people are learning simultaneously that "universal relatability is important" and "human stories are human stories which are universally relatable" which has allowed movies such as Barbie and shows such as Special to be such hits.

Obviously, Barbie is steeped in the existence of womanhood and Special is dedicated to representing disable existence BUT this doesn't remove their non-disabled and non-female audiences.

TL;DR: Relatability is important in the sense that relatability is not the "stories of people who look and act exactly like me" but instead "stories of people who live, thrive, and struggle just like me"

Ship Dynamic: Genderless x Genderful

Think about this!!! Allow it to enter your brain cavities

You have Character A. Completely lacking in all signifiers of gender. Every single creature in your story, from the most conservative to the least, has to refer to this character with only they/them pronouns. They only wear gender-neutral clothing. Their complete lack of gender is impossible to understate.

THEN

You have Character B. They have the most luciously long hair you could ever imagine. A full-length beard of pure masculinity. And the most massive set of honkers ever. Complete mommy/daddy mikers. Whatever letter comes after Z is what they have. They have maxxed out femininity and masculinity. They are Gender™.

No one in the cast commentates on their two peers' utter fuckery with gender. No one questions what Character B has going on. No one wonders or cares what Character A is packing in their pants.

The best thing about this pairing is that it could be familial, platonic, or romantic.

Writing Curse: Gifting You My Stories

Here are some story ideas that I have but I am either never ever going to write because they deserve to live in my brain or they are permanent WIP 🥳

Prompt 1: The Curse Of God On His Child

At the beginning of time, the only two creatures who existed are the oynx night who breathed loved out into the cosmos in a wordless yet etheral manner and a creature who declared himself God. Creation spun out of this coupling as Creation became the first angel and true child of God. God's mind started to wander as thoughts combined into ideas and ideas turned into plans.

Universe, galaxy, solar system, planet, humans. Creation was made to watch over the easily excitable children who, like their forefather, also manipulated the outside to match their insides. They smeared the red of their insides onto each other's faces as they laughed into the night about tales never told.

It was pleasant. Until, Creation did something bad. They killed God. it was an accident. They swear it was an accident. But who cares when you've killed God? No one cared about God, except the humans. Not ever the night sends shooting stars for mourners.

But Creation cared. So much. And the humans cared. Too much. They begged to hear God. Hear his comforting words. Creation begged them to stop talking about God. But humans are excitable children who wanted to talk to their father.

Creation ordered a tiny village of little boys and little girls who played and killed together to do something nice for them. A perfect little birthday present wrapped in tongues. Yes, of the two-hundred villagers, a hundred would be getting their tongues ripped out.

You might expect that they would be scared and some were. But they were also blissful. It's rare you had an opportunity to be listened to. So humans did many things that night. All lot of things that Creation didn't want them to do. And after the two hundred dead bodies were gathered together under Heaven something magical happened.

Creation knew they did something bad. Again, so they changed a bit. Denial lived in the heavens and revenge was born again.

Revenge was born out of the cries of mourning and blood and tongue. Unlike the heavenly light of Creation, they were viscous and moist with blood. Just like the tongues that were thrown into the pile.

And Revenge was going to kill Creation.

Creation was going to thrive under divinity.

Now we are here, in the modern day, no one knows what happened between these two fragmented entities. But if one thing is certain, it's that Denial and Revenge are still twirling around in their dance