Temperature Regulation Issues Suck So Much And Are So Weird Because It Does Not Matter How Many Layers

Temperature regulation issues suck so much and are so weird because it does not matter how many layers I put on, if the skin is exposed it will be cold. My fingers are like a full 20 degree difference than my wrist that's covered by my jacket. just move the warm blood over there omfg

I've never been a caitvi shipper (no hate just never felt a spark) so in preparation for season 2 I would like to formally invite caitvi shippers to yap at me and explain the hype. I wanna be destroyed by their breakup so bad but I just don't get why she's tweaking over a situationship with a cop that lasted like a week Please please please help me see the light, shippers go crazy, I want you guys to write essays if you can, make my heart hurt

It isn't discussed enough how desperate, panicky, and crushed Aziraphale sounds when he cries "I need you!" to Crowley. He assumes Crowley doesn't understand that they can be happy together and fix the system as a team, that Crowley could make stars again, that Heaven could be truly good once more. While we and Crowley may know how awful Heaven can really be, Aziraphale still believes in the good of Heaven. Even with that belief, I think he also knows it will be hard, terrible, painful work to bring it to the level he believes it will be. But he still will fight because that is who he is. And he wants the love of his life to stand with him.

It's easy to forget Aziraphale was a warrior, that God saw fit to grant him a flaming sword. Aziraphale has proven himself over and over as a protector and a fighter. Yes, Crowley saves him a lot, but, as the scene with Maggie and Nina in the bookshop shows, he LETS Crowley save him. Aziraphale knows Crowley loves him and that Crowley shows his love by rescuing him, so he allows him to do so. He is perfectly capable of saving himself when he wants to. But in that warrior nature, he understands the danger involved in what he is about to attempt. 

And he is terrified. 

Aziraphale may come off as naive, but he is absolutely not. He just wants to see the good in everything. He isn't naive. He's hopeful. Sometimes to a fault, but it's there nonetheless. But he is cognizant that Heaven is pretty terrible -maybe not to the extent Crowley is, but he knows- and that changing the system may very well be the end of him. He knows he could -and most likely will- die in this attempt to bring about change. And now he thinks he will do it alone.

And the love of his life, the one he hoped would stand shoulder to shoulder with him to affect this change, his support, his one-and-only, and his knight in tarnished armor… is leaving him. Running away to hide, from his view. Now he has to put on a brave face and walk into the jaws of a monster all by himself. 

It's a plea, almost as desperate as the kiss he is about to receive. The courage falters and the walls come down. "I NEED you!" Please don't let me face this alone. Please don't leave me.

No, he doesn't understand Crowley's reasons. And they are on completely different pages as far as communication goes. So that plea, while heard, doesn't come through as what it should be to Crowley. They both completely missed the message on what they were both saying and now they must face their respective fates alone. Aziraphale certainly said some pretty terrible things to Crowley (don't get me started on that "second in command" line), but hat doesn't mean he feels it any less. While Crowley is angry and hurt, Aziraphale is frightened to death.

Aziraphale is so scared. But he's going to do it anyway. He cried out "I need you" and the one he needed just walked away.

That smile we see at the end? Well, there is nothing more dangerous than a warrior who has absolutely nothing to lose.

'Them' by June_L

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Hell, even HANNIBAL THE CANNIBAL LECTER knows to hug his children or people, to comfort and hold them, when they are displaying signs of emotional vulnerability. And my fucking parents WON'T. I'm so scared they are going to ruin me. Guys, I'm falling apart. I don't want my family that I was given. Its not fair.

I really do feel like Hannibal would fix me. He would help me be my full self (both good and bad, but unapologetically) and finally I would find peace, comfort, safety, and belonging. I would be healthier and safer. I'm sad.