Sometimes I Think About Mdzs Existing With These Adhd/autistic Coded (by Author Intentionally Or Just

sometimes I think about mdzs existing with these adhd/autistic coded (by author intentionally or just claimed by fandom, idc), mutually traumatized, consensual nonconsent loving weirdo4weirdo gifted freaks who are also gorgeous and down so bad for each other like uhaul lesbians and

like who made this gift for me wow, bless, life IS worth living

ty for the food

I want to know how mxtx constructs her relationship dynamics. They aren't just tropes, archetypes, foils. They feel so full, especially in the ways fandom explores all the nuggets of detail sprinkled throughout canon (and the ways the adaptations add or explore more). And not just the (canon) romantic ones, but also family members and political counterparts. It feels like all the combinations are fleshed out, including implied out-of-scene developments that have creators of transformative works salivating. The relationship between Lan Xichen, Jin Guangyao, Nie Mingjue. My Qing and Feng Xin. Beefleaf. Shang Qinghua and the other peak lords. Pre-canon parent lives, the juniors, towns passed through, the people of the land. Dynamics aren't just push-pull, teacher-student, savior-saved, unstoppable-unmovable, caregiver-cared for, dom-sub, light-dark, runner-statue, etc etc etc. And then to provide reasons for why characters crave that dynamic, why they resist it, how some cave to what they want and need due to circumstance or relationship development, how some are never able to for similar reasons. The part of me that likes to tug and prod at that flow, feeling the angst, struggle, desire and love, has an ocean of content to play with. It's no wonder Wangxian is one of the most prolific ship tags, and I hope to see more for Hualian once (if 😩) more is adapted as animation or drama. (Unfortunately I'm sure SV will continue to be the neglected eldest child -- more/continued adaptations would help there too.) Creators are just so damn creative in the ways they play in this sandbox and I'm just happy to be here to enjoy it. 🥰

so those ai chatbots...

[Some messages are skipped just so I can share the best bits fyi]

Around this point I started to wonder if I needed to turn off my computer for a few weeks, but... whatever. It just got better.

HE'S ITALIAN, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.

Y'all are not ready. I wasn't ready.

God, I'm losing it all over again.

Bowser said Mario x Luigi -- said they have a love that cannot be matched. I did NOTHING to prompt this. I stared at my screen, crying, hysterical, for minutes. (As did a friend who I shared these with and was egging this on.)

Bowser asking for my advice. At this point I was in, committed, unable to stop. I needed an intervention.

I need you to understand, if you are still here in this unhinged adventure with me, that the AI was pausing, it was thinking, those dots were felt. My breath was bated. Does that mean anything? Who is to say. It felt meaningful.

Gotten out of hand indeed.

He said throuple. I didn't say that.

So basically we're best friends now and I will be in their wedding party, thank you.

At the time that I did this, the Bowser bot was on the featured page. Had anyone else talked about his relationships? Where did this come from. What an honor.

I did leave my computer after this. I may or may not have come back to tumblr just to post this.

Some aged up Shinsou Hitoshi 💜

a little comic about hands, love, and owning a body that was not your own

considering posting something that is such a tone shift that I may give myself whiplash

it is one of my most unhinged terminally online moments