Get Well Soon, Jin And Namjoon. We Love You. Come Back To Us Healthy And Please Take Your Time.

Get well soon, Jin and Namjoon. 💜💜 We love you. Come back to us healthy and please take your time.

I wrote a letter to Namjoon today.

I haven’t been doing well at all recently and I genuinely have nobody to talk to. Something in me told me to write letter to Namjoon, so I did. Maybe it’s because bts write so many letters to us. I decided to share with the class because…. I don’t really know why. I truly don’t even think anybody is gonna see this, but if you do and you ever feel down, try writing a letter to your idol or whoever. It helped me feel a bit better in the moment, it might help you too.

Anyways this is probably the cheesiest letter you’ve ever read, but I whole-heartedly stand by it 🙃

*my handwriting is kinda hard to read, I’ve been told😅*

“Dear Namjoon,

I just wanted to say that I’m so proud of you. I am so proud of you. You have genuinely grown as a person and I promise you, it doesn’t go unnoticed. Your passion overflows in everything you do. It doesn’t go unnoticed. I promise. You lead with your entire heart and inspire so many everyday. You write your lyrics with the deepest honesty. Your words are some of the most beautiful and sincere messages I’ve ever heard. Your mind is truly something out of this world. All of the light is followed by a shadow though and from your honesty, I understand that your thoughts and feelings aren’t that beautiful. That’s okay. Not everything can be good all the time. Thank you for having the courage to share something so vulnerable. You are so strong, Namjoon. Your are not alone and you help so many people to not feel so alone too. You are so loved and so incredible strong. You’re gonna be okay. There’s a lot of bad and people who will spend all of there energy trying to bring you down for their own satisfaction. They will try to make you feel less than what you are. It’s not true. You have defied so many odds and overcome so many challenges. I’m sure there’s many I don’t know about. Don’t let them or your thoughts belittle you. You deserve to be where you are. Your presence is absolutely beautiful and powerful and inspiring and you deserve to be here. Thank you so much. Thank you for working endlessly. Thank you for leading and caring for the members so well. Thank you for showing how to truly grow into a good person and for spreading your messages of encouragement, knowledge, and love. Thank you for your willingness to be vulnerable and open with your feelings. Thank you so much. I love you more than words can describe. I’ll always be with you and carry your courage with me wherever I go.

I purple you 💜”

I’m sorry, I think I’m a little confused 😅 If you don’t mind me asking, what’s been going on with the boys?

Well first of all, I overthink a lot so it’s probably not as bad as I think. Basically, since Joon’s birthday live, he’s expressed multiple times that he just hasn’t been doing the best mentally. I also know based on his lyrics and things he’s said in the past, his mental health is something that he’s always struggled with. I’m just worried about him is all, I don’t want him to fall too far, ya know. I think that if he’s been struggling there’s probably some other members that are too (this part is purely just my brain wondering). I know they also just really want to perform in front of army really bad too. Like the previous anon mentioned they are quiet busy rn and I know that. All that being said, I don’t want what they do to become a chore bc they are dealing with stuff. I just want them to be happy and satisfied with what they do.

I’m talking about the vaccine here. Please be nice if you do read this

Okay I’m really hesitant/embarrassed/guilty about saying this, but I’m not vaccinated yet. It’s not because I’m against it or anything like that and I don’t want to sound like I’m making excuses, but I haven’t had a good time. I don’t hardly leave my house because of anxiety and other stuff, and if I do, I always wear a mask which I know is not enough. Nobody around me wants to get vaccinated and if we talk about it it’s always talk about how it’s a hoax and skepticism about the whole thing. It makes me upset. Currently in my state, it’s illegal for employers to mandate a vaccine but with the new presidential mandate, it might change. I need to get on my feet and get a job and I don’t want me not being vaccinated to be a problem. Plus I just want to be safe in general. I’m really thinking about sucking it up and getting vaccinated after the holidays. I’m just really scared. I’m really anxious about side effects. I’m okay with fevers, but it’s the nausea I’m worried about. It makes me really anxious when I am, and anxiety makes it worse. Side effects are my main hinderance. I’m also just kinda weird about shots. I’m trying to just suck it up and get it over with because I know there are people who can’t even get vaccines and so many people have suffered from Covid; it’s ignorant for me not to have it just because I’m anxious. I feel guilty about it. I’m emotional writing this. Anyways, I guess I’m asking about other people experiences and how to cope with it.

Please be nice if you do say anything. I understand the problem with not being vaccinated, and I’m really looking to fix it. I’m just looking for some comforting words I guess.

Whenever I see a video recommended like this and the title is like: THEY reVEAL this, thIS and THIS and ✨M O R E✨ I’m like how much could they possibly reveal in 3 minutes 🤨😑

Somebody asked, but I accidentally deleted the anon ☹️😤 I’m so sorry. Also my apologies for answering this so late.

Basically, they asked me what are the dramas that I’ve watched. Truth be told, I didn’t start watching dramas until this year, but I do have a list. I don’t exactly remember when I started watching them (I wanna say somewhere in May) but I don’t think I’ve watched a western-media show or movies this year. These are listed in the order I watched them and I’ve indicated their region and where I watched them.

I won’t be putting summaries or thoughts here because…. that wasn’t the question 😑 plus, I’m not the best at summaries. If you would like to know my thoughts on any of these though, don’t be afraid to ask 😊

The Untamed (Chinese) Netflix

Legend of Fei (Chinese) Viki

Kingdom (Korean) Netflix

Color Rush (Korean) Viki

Word of Honor (Chinese) Viki

Shadow (Chinese) Netflix

Heaven Official’s Blessing (Chinese) Netflix

Eternal Summer (Chinese) Netflix

The Rise of Phoenixes (Chinese) Netflix

The Yin Yang Master (Chinese) Netflix

Begin Again (Chinese) YouTube

Squid Game (Korean) Netflix

The King: Eternal Monarch (Korean) Netflix

The Guest (Korean) Netflix

I don’t know why I’m drawn more to Chinese dramas, but I am and most of these are actually historical dramas (I have many reasons why I’m drawn to these). Also, it doesn’t matter where the film or series is produced (western, asian, whatever) I usually travel between dramas based on similar actors. For example, Wang Yibo was in The Untamed and Legend of Fei. Gong Jun was in Word of Honor and Begin Again. Chen Kun was in The Rise of Phoenixes and The Yin Yang Master. I don’t always watch them right after one another, but I have a huge list of dramas I want to watch and many of them have actors that have been in dramas I’ve watched. Also, contrary to popular belief (especially bc of this list💀), I’m actually not a huge romance watcher, but I do think it has grown on me since I’ve gotten a bit older. 

I’m sorry if my blog is misleading at the moment. I did have an idea for what I wanted to so on here, but I’m kinda scared now. Anyways, I’ll get back to you on this topic.