Why Is My Head Hurting And Stomach Rumbling. Like I Litterally Binged Yesterday, You Don't Need Fed,

Why is my head hurting and stomach rumbling. Like I litterally binged yesterday, you don't need fed, so shut up 🙄

Just ate half a salad.....

You know your getting worse when you feel fat for eating a salad

(Would have ate nothing but that makes me binge, which is worse)

I work out because i eat, and I eat to have the energy for a work out.

I wish I could just work out and not eat.

I love my ed. And i love ed tumbler.

But the thought of one of my younger cousins, or that my neice might one day discover ed tumbler or twitter or even just develop an ed in general freaks me out. So I dont care if i need to eat a 500+ cal meal if it means they dont question why I dont eat.

My fear of normalisig ed's in their eys trumps my hatred of my body

This may be a bit controversial....

But I dont want to look sickly, to be skin and bones.

I don't want people to look at me and think "she has ana" or "why would she do that to herself?"

I don't want my weight to be a worry for my family, or something they feel like they need to look in to.

But sometimes, I want to look sickly, I want to be skin and bones.

I want people to look at me and think "she's so skinny!" Or "I wish I had her self control"

I want my family who couldn't care less when I was binging, or those that try to school me on bmr, but don't question when i say that I've been eating below it, or burning off all my calories. I want them to bend over backwards to try to "fix me".

I want to feel loved, to feel important. To both myself, and my family.