It's Hard....

It's hard....

It's getting harder everyday

Knowing that you're not enough

Knowing that your mental illnesses aren't enough

Knowing that people at my university got it worse

They do

There are people who are half-blind

People with autism

People with worse sh history than mine

I can't

I can't do this anymore

I can't even be good at this

I suck

This will sound weid but last night I was really close to ending it all and then turned to tumblr and somehow ended up on your blog and for some reason it comforted me and calmed me down a bit. Still in a shitty place but in my head I’m like hey there mutual let’s be miserable together and comfort each other lol

Sorry for the random rant, i just want to say i appreciate you

Thank you for those words, they mean a lot to me and don't be sorry for saying what you want to say...never

You're always welcome here

I don't know what happened last night or what's happening in your life but I want to say that you're strong....not ending it when you wanted ? So strong mind and will

I am proud of you

You got added to my mutuals list ! (It's not long...only one or two people now one more!)

My hobby doesn't feel like a hobby anymore....

It just is an activity I got used to doing

It's not fun anymore

It just is part of my weekly routine

I'm loosing interest in it

I'm loosing it all

And I failed....

I'll have to do that again

I am about to have an theoretical driving exam

I am not so stressed what's weird

I hope I pass it easily

Cheer for me

Do you also feel worthless when other people succeed when you don’t? Is there anything to stop this?

Yeah I do

I feel guilty

I could work harder, do something better but I didn't

They did it instead

When you think about it it's a good opportunity to find motivation....

Like when you see people succeed and you don't you can try to put a goal for yourself "next time I will be better"

It might work

Setting goals for yourself sometimes help us to get grip of ourselves and work harder, work more successful, be even better version of ourselves

Keeping two people alive at the same time while you're at the edge is so fucking hard

I can't do this anymore

I can't

I don't have enough strength

I am tired of my own life

But loosing them would be harder