And I Failed....

And I failed....

I'll have to do that again

I am about to have an theoretical driving exam

I am not so stressed what's weird

I hope I pass it easily

Cheer for me

My hobby doesn't feel like a hobby anymore....

It just is an activity I got used to doing

It's not fun anymore

It just is part of my weekly routine

I'm loosing interest in it

I'm loosing it all

About that ^

My lungs are fucking fine.....

So now it's time for a train

I am going to the doctor tomorrow for a little control after being ill (yes, it was covid) and if she checks my lungs and they will be fine then idk man...I will jump in front of the train to see if I am unbreakable because man I am a smoker

My dude, your parents did not TRAIN YOU, literally all parents get you to do things like come over to them when they call you. That’s a basic biological thing most mammal parents do lmao!! Go outside! Stop whining on the internet and see a therapist!

Therapist is not helping that's why I stopped seeing her

What I meant was that I leave everything and go to the because I am fucking scared that if I don't come something bad will happen to me

And they don't even have to call me....I hear the gate opening or the door and I am downstairs.... without them calling me or so

I wanna disappear

My "dad" is mad at everything and everyone so he played his whole anger on me....ofc it made me feel bad, guilty....I don't know why but I got used to that already

My "mum" is probably thinking about divorce (she said that they have to talk seriously without me)

I don't know if it's good or bad...

I don't know anything now