The Masculine Urge To Go Nonverbal And Be Able To Not Feel Like It's A Huge Inconvenience To Everyone

The masculine urge to go nonverbal and be able to not feel like it's a huge inconvenience to everyone tho

PLEASE read the summary of this 100% real book written by a lady that claims to have been to Heaven

Somewhat Kinky Self-Discovery

So, after meandering both the internet and YouTube lately I have discovered that I very much enjoy being called Puppy. Even not just in like, a kinky way. But also very much so in a kinky way.

On a totally and completely unrelated note, does anyone want an obedient subby Puppy boy? Asking for a friend...who is also me.

Vent (TW)

Tw for: SH (self harm), Animal Death, PTSD (vague talk of it), Talk of blood tests (brief)

So, this week has been kinda stressful, I've been waiting almost a month to get my T prescription. I got approved, we did a blood test. We sent it the first time, they sent it back, that's normal. We sent it a second time and they sent it back again, and also wanted a blood test to prove that my current Testosterone levels warranted the T prescription in the first place, so I had to do yet another blood test. And now I'm waiting for the word on that blood test. It's very frustrating honestly. And unfortunately today I got triggered pretty bad so I'm having bad PTSD tonight, and I keep getting freaked out and shaking and just not feeling safe. And on November 2nd my dog, who was my absolute entire world and who made my life better in every single way, was hit and killed by a car. He didn't even get to turn one yet. Losing him has probably been the worst thing ever to happen to me, and every bad thing is a million times worse without him here. And i also relapsed recently, again, so now I've only been clean 15 days, which really sucks. And there's even more stressful stuff but it requires more context than I want to give this little blog.

Honestly didn't realise I needed to be told this til now

Sexual Self Care

Your sexuality is a part of yourself, and as such, deserves as much care as the rest of you. This can look like... * Deciding for yourself when, whether, and with whom to engage in sex. * Deciding that sex just isn't for you, and that's okay. * Getting regular OB/GYN or urologist checkups. (And being honest with your doctor!) * Getting tested for STIs regularly, especially in between partners. * Saying "no" to sexual acts that make you uncomfortable, or that you don't feel ready for. * Exploring and learning what you like and don't like. * Learning about sex, anatomy, birth control, etc. especially if the sex ed you had during your formative years was nonexistent or just straight-up garbage. * Ditching purity culture and all its empty promises. * Using reliable birth control unless and until you want a baby. * Deciding for yourself when and whether to have children, and how many to have. * Deciding for yourself what you will do if you have an unplanned pregnancy. * Being really honest with yourself about whether you personally can do casual hookups, or whether you absolutely need to have a relationship in order to have sex. * Communicating and setting boundaries with partners. * Making sure that if you choose to have sex, you're doing so for the right reasons (i.e. not just to please your partner, or "fit in," or what have you) * Making sure you get your share of the pleasure pie, too. * Listening to what your body is telling you. * Letting go of shame. * Ditching toxic diet culture and learning to love your body, or at least accept it. * Understanding that porn is a fantasy; it is nothing like real sex with a real human being. * Getting help for porn and sex addictions. * Letting go of internalized misogyny, homophobia, biphobia, transphobia, etc. * Learning to both give and receive pleasure. * Learning to communicate what you need. * Taking responsibility for your own thoughts, words, actions, omissions, marital fidelity, feelings, etc., instead of dumping that on other people. * Dressing for yourself, in clothes that make you happy (within the scope of appropriateness for a given occasion), not to either attract or repel any sex or gender. * Deciding for yourself what labels define your sexuality or gender, or whether any labels fit at all. * Carrying condoms/dental dams/etc. with you on dates, even if you don't end up needing them. * Making sure someone knows where you are when you go on dates or hook up with people. * Understanding that being rejected doesn't necessarily mean anything is wrong with you, and not taking that as a personal affront. * Learning what healthy relationships look like. * Getting help for and healing sexual trauma of any kind. * Deciding for yourself what you share (or don't share) on the Internet about your sexuality, your past, etc. * Learning how consent actually works. * Showing concern for your partner's well-being and pleasure, as well as your own. * Not using sex/porn/masturbation/etc. as a way of masking or avoiding your personal or relationship problems. * Not tying your sexual history (or lack thereof) to your worth as a human being, or as a partner. * Deciding that what other people think of you is their responsibility, not yours. * Getting out of toxic relationships. * Not sleeping with your ex. * Going no further or faster than you really want to go. * Deciding for yourself whether you're into kink or not. (And that vanilla is valid!) * Peeing after sex. * Being honest with yourself and your partners. * Developing a positive body image. * Accepting that both you and any partners you have will have a past, good, bad, and ugly, and not judging or defining yourself or them by it. * Really getting to know someone before agreeing to move in with them, have a baby with them, marry them, etc.

Update on This Blog

So, I know that almost all of the posts on here at the moment are horny, but im actually a Grey-Ace guy, which means that I experience horny like maybe 4% of the time? And then outside of that i have no interest in it, so, the majority of this blog will actually probably be various venting. I'm really really sorry if this disappoints anyone!!!!

That being said, expect a vent post right after this, sorry.