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⚠️Tw/sh talk ⚠️

I want to cut so bad but also I don't want to move

I don't want to undress to find perfect place

I don't have energy to look for razors

I don't have energy to wait for cuts to stop bleeding

I don't have energy to hide those cuts

I don't have energy to cut

I just don't

One hour until the new year and I'm already sitting in the bathroom with razor blades and one wound on my hand, wanting to cry. Wtf, I hate this shit

Is it okay if I ask for Billy Lenz from Black Christmas 1974 with top surgery scars? + SH scars on his arm(s), only if you're comfortable drawing that! It wasn't mentioned in your post so if you're uncomfortable with that feel free just forget it.

hi there! i hope you like how this turned out :>

Vent (TW)

Tw for: SH (self harm), Animal Death, PTSD (vague talk of it), Talk of blood tests (brief)

So, this week has been kinda stressful, I've been waiting almost a month to get my T prescription. I got approved, we did a blood test. We sent it the first time, they sent it back, that's normal. We sent it a second time and they sent it back again, and also wanted a blood test to prove that my current Testosterone levels warranted the T prescription in the first place, so I had to do yet another blood test. And now I'm waiting for the word on that blood test. It's very frustrating honestly. And unfortunately today I got triggered pretty bad so I'm having bad PTSD tonight, and I keep getting freaked out and shaking and just not feeling safe. And on November 2nd my dog, who was my absolute entire world and who made my life better in every single way, was hit and killed by a car. He didn't even get to turn one yet. Losing him has probably been the worst thing ever to happen to me, and every bad thing is a million times worse without him here. And i also relapsed recently, again, so now I've only been clean 15 days, which really sucks. And there's even more stressful stuff but it requires more context than I want to give this little blog.