Mmm Since Weve Been Researching This The Past Few Days: (putting Them In Simplest Terms)

mmm since we’ve been researching this the past few days: (putting them in simplest terms)

mania - a period of being unstably elated to the point you may need to be hospitalized (a manic episode is usually a week or more). this may include not sleeping, engaging in dangerous behaviors, having extreme trouble focusing, and everything listed in hypomania

hypomania - a period of being elated to the point others notice. this may include speaking faster, being restless, difficulty sleeping, difficulty concentrating, engaging in reckless behaviors, higher sex drive.

bipolar disorder - a disorder where you have at least one manic episode and depressive episode with in your life. usually a (hypo)manic episode is followed by a depressive episode. (bipolar 1 is full mania and bipolar 2 is hypomania)

depression - a condition characterized by feeling sad, losing interest and motivation, changes in appetite, changes in sleep, and brain fog for at least two weeks

depressive episode - feeling sad, losing interest and motivation, changes in appetite, changes in sleep, and brain fog for at least a week, usually closer to two months

borderline personality disorder - a disorder when you have repetitive extreme mood swings, difficulty maintaining relationships, and feeling worthless.

borderline episode - when you have a negative mood swing and feel a lot of emotions. this often leads to suicidal thoughts and sh. usually lasts less than 24 hours.

hyperfixation - when you neurodivergent ppl get a crumb of serotonin from something/hj /lh. when a nd person becomes so interested in something they have difficulty doing anything aside from that and it consumes their thoughts, may cause a loss of sleep or healthy behaviors. (usually 3 hours to 3 days, although variation) (adhd)

special interest - a long term fascination for with something that brings an incomparable amount of serotonin. often the focal point of someones thoughts. (usually a week to lifelong) (autism)

sensory overload - when your mind cannot process a lot of sensory input and it becomes difficulty to focus and interact with others. (nd)

depersonalization - feeling disconnected from yourself, watching yourself in third person

derealization - feeling disconnected from reality, may be related to an existential crisis

anxiety attack - a longer feeling of overwhelming anxiety, usually with a certain cause

panic attack - a short feeling of unbelievable fear and pain, often compared to a heart attack. often with no determinable cause or because of a trigger.

compulsion - a behavior you have to do or you feel fear or panic (usually with ocd as a result of an obsession)

tic - a behavior you cannot control, often jerky body movements or saying something

stim - a stimulating behavior that feels good, you can stop and just feel kind of disappointed or upset

not a mental health professional just a lot of time and anxiety

A few things people with maladaptive daydreaming really wished you knew but we just can't tell you:

(Some of these are just from my experience and may not apply to everyone)

Don't be offended if we zone out during a conversation. Lots of things trigger us and sometimes in even the most interesting conversations we can't help but imagine what our paras are doing right now, or what we'll daydream about next.

DO👏NOT👏INTERRUPT👏US👏WHEN👏WE'RE 👏IN👏THE👏MIDDLE👏OF👏A👏DAYDREAM👏 long story short, the feeling of anger and absolute rage is so intense we literally want to snap your spine. The only reason we don't is because then that would mean we'd have to wait even longer to return to the daydream.

Certain songs may make us feel a certain way. We use songs to trigger certain daydreams, so certain music will touch us more than the average person. For example if someone played the song our para died too, we would almost feel like it's happening again. It's a bit like someone playing a song that was at a loved ones funeral, but worse.

Dating is hard for us. It's common for madders to have para lovers and so when it comes to dating we may feel like we're betraying our para.

Our daydreams are as complicated and intense as Harry Potter. We come up with some pretty dramatic stuff, which helps us cope with real life trauma. This is also why we're so creative.

Time flies for us. We get so immersed in our daydreams that sometimes up to 5 or 6 hours can pass and we don't notice. It's common for us to stop daydreaming and realise we've gone a whole day without eating, drinking, going to the toilet, or that our feet are almost bleeding from pacing so much.

We can't just stop. It may seem that simple, but the truth is, It's an addiction and a coming mechanism. When traumatic events happen in the real world, we use our daydreams to deal with it. Events such as our loved ones passing away may cause familiar events to happen in our paracosms. Even I've noticed that during 2020 my daydreams have become more traumatic (for example more paras have been getting hurt or even killed, and the relationships between my paras are more complicated).

8. Writing this was hard because I kept falling into a daydream.

The Byers-Hopper Family

Self improvement for infps, eiis

“Your strength lies in a deep understanding of people's values and relationships. You are interested in the motives of actions, personal and soulful qualities of others, their relations, which you can spend a lot of time watching and analyzing. After prolonged study and observation, you come closer to defining a person's character: who she really is and not how she presents herself.

The ultimate goal of your words and actions is creation of a positive, harmonious atmosphere in which others can develop their talents. You are good at comforting and mediating. You prefer not to focus on the negative actions, faults, flaws and wrongdoings of others. Instead you try to make them think about the moral foundation of their actions, the moral values of their lives, and exert influence on their conscience.

The main problem that worries you is your lack of resoluteness and assertiveness, inability to make demands of others in direct and willful form. There is a measure of caution and timidity that is inherent to your approach to some extent. You are emotionally sensitive to others and don't want to seem obtrusive.

You are prudent, undemanding, modest and cooperative. When you have been challenged, you don't always respond right away but prefer to conceal your grievances. You can protect those who are close to you, but don't readily do engage in this. You think that your offender needs to realize her mistakes and repent. If she does not, you avoid having contact with her.

A recommendation for you: develop your ability to defend yourself, directly express your grievances, do not show mercy towards those who take advantage of you and did not repent, don't allow yourself to be used for anyone's personal gain. Learn to say "no". Empathize less with strangers and pay more attention to people who are close to you.

Another one of your problems: careful and overly meticulous analysis of any issue, topics, or task down to the last detail, which slows you down and decreases your effectiveness. You may get bogged down by minor details of life and of your work. Then you hardly find time for rest and recreational activities in the company of your friends, which can negatively affect your health. You thoroughly and deeply analyze everything about a topic or issue that concerns you. The results of such an analysis are not always satisfactory, due to which you can feel sad and demotivated. You feel depressed by anything that goes beyond the scope of harmonious personal values and good human relations.

Don't be misled by your pity, as to not later feel ashamed of your actions and words and reprimand yourself in retrospect. Remember that true justice does not allow for compromises with conscience.

Accelerate the pace of your productive activities, focus your attention such that it slips by minor details and stops only on the main parts and the essentials. Try to teach yourself speed reading - it will help you learn to see the overall picture of the phenomenon or event. When analyzing a subject or particular field, don't strive to disambiguate and clarify everything. Strive to see the general picture. Knowledge of general norms and rules will relieve you from unnecessary waste of nerves and efforts on aspects that are of little consequence or interest to anyone.”

writing without thinking

I’m craving to create a connection that transcends the capacity of just being human. I’m craving the small bits of softness words can offer, because I don’t want my heart to be locked by fear of misunderstanding or some sense of worthless. I feel so scared of the odds, so scared of never having this one thing I’m deeply searching for. I wish I could have a guess, a single clue, but I have nothing but my own standards and desires. Is it so wrong to want it so much? I want something discomplicated, something simple but not fragile, something that comprehends my spectrum of introspection, the solitude that lives inside my heart. It feels like I have been waiting for so long and all that I know is the broken pieces of dellusion; sometimes it feels like it is slipping away, running through my fingers like sand and I just can not hold it. I feel that I deserve so much, but my mind just can not comprehend the deepness of this constant years without just one touch, one sign of reciprocity. The blank pages I use to write on knows me so well and maybe that’s the reason why I love writing. I try to hold on to that perspective that, someday, someone will see right through me, and there will be no reason for me to hide from the unknown.

Something I made while dealing with my own stuff and hoping drawing this would pick me up somehow. Maybe it worked.

FT my cat. His name is Mischief