LATE NIGHT POST

LATE NIGHT POST

Been feeling this way since high school. During elementary, I was in my own world and only felt sad that some classmates misunderstood or laugh (or smirk) on my cluelessness about films, shows, and trends. But in high school, there was a pull between reading books or hanging out and talking with friends or classmates about people in showbiz, or shows, films, or just be with them doing fun shizz. FOMO is strong mostly during DMs which friends chose to ignore constantly if they're busy (esp if they're with other "more fun" people).

When birthday wishes are reduced to "happy birthday" from those short yet well meaning personal messages I adore. When you finall6 able to go with people but you got so much to catch on from exes, drunken stories, and jokes which makes it awkward for both you and the people you are with.

So over the years, I gradually rewired my brain to forgo any expectations I used to have. Still, I feel all the emotions from heaviness, the emptiness, and the feeling of being forgotten. I expect people to misjudge, misunderstood, overlook, ignore, and be disappointed in me.

It is so ingrained within me that I have a hard time considering calling people as friends or to even think about the idea of being committed in a romantic relationship with someone. This is not all that bad tho coz it introduced me to be more loving on myself by myself. To not expect anything from people. To learn things I could learn so when they refuse or ignore my plea for assistance (or they abandon me) I can do it on my own. Coz you will come to a point of getting tired of making excuses for people who did not even bother to offer you one for themselves.

I miss people and moments even if they don't miss me (or remember me) at all. It's okay coz this is life and I could be forgetting others as well. We will all die one day and when it is time we should reflect if we are proud of the life we've lived up to the very last breath.

The CW Nancy Drew (Season 3) Easter Eggs

So here's another list of my guesses for the easter eggs in Nancy Drew Season 3.

#RenewDrew #NancyDrew #easteregg

The season 3 finale has arrived and I know most of us have plenty of questions as well as theories for the next season (still waiting for confirmation on this). So here’s another list of my guesses for the easter eggs in Nancy Drew Season 3.

Pictured (L-R): Kennedy McMann as Nancy, Leah Lewis as George and Alex Saxon as Ace — Photo: Michael Courtney/The CW — (C) 2021 The CW Network, LLC. All…

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Hilarious School Poems

The first month, the first year, the first poem in college. First cram, first stupid laugh. MOTION OF LIFE Starting my day means starting my activity Starting to understand everything with my own vivacity Usual days would have made me bored Yet standing in here made me totally ruffled The first month of school Wishing this could be cool Running around disoriented Making me so…

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Just for a Little While

Just for a Little While

I was born in 1995, and I have spent my 25th year of existence during the onset of the 2020 pandemic. I have heard of the quarter-life crisis before, but I never did expect that I would be experiencing it while the world is in literal viral chaos. I have been in isolation before, but this imposed an unrelenting imposition of both internal and external turmoil. This, in turn, has given me an…

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Just for a Little While

I was born in 1995, and I have spent my 25th year of existence during the onset of the 2020 pandemic. I have heard of the quarter-life crisi

I honestly need more Bess and Nancy scenes this 3rd season. And hopefully, we get to see Carson hanging out with George for some hilarious reason.

It is such an unfortunate thing when you encounter people who seem to wake up each morning with a mantra of trying to do damage to you in any way possible. It is a given goal even if it happens to be a trivial thing. It is even more irritating and frustrating when it's your neighbour and they did this when you're having a low tolerance with BS people.