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Shoutout to regressors who don't look like babies!!

Maybe you're tall, have a deep voice, or have a mature face or figure? Or you use an assistive device that's generally viewed as an Adult Thing? (e.g. canes, crutches, hearing aids, dentures, etc.) You are awesome and cool and a baby!!

Aside from unchangeable traits, I'm also thinking about lifestyle preferences. Maybe you have defined muscles from working out? Or maybe you have adult-like tastes in consumption, and even when you're small, you still dress like a grown-up and take your coffee black? Well, guess what!! You are awesome and cool and a baby!!

Also, also, people who regress partway while doing Adult Tasks! Deep cleaning your living space while using a sippy cup is awesome. Reading college textbooks while snuggled up with a stuffie is also awesome!!

Grown-up-looking regressors I love u all

Responding to Infernal, supporting Big Crow and Cypress.

Telling an alter / part / person whatever that they are "less than a whole" less than a person, because they are part of a system is just fucking screwed up. Elaborated or Fragmented alters are a thing in actual DID research, Elaborated is an alter, a person; who has their own name, gender, age, likes, dislikes, wants and feelings, and sometimes all of that can be opposite to another elaborated alter in the same system.

Yeah, systems are extremely aware of that thanks? We know we share a body and brain dude, that doesn't mean that we don't or can't sometimes use language that indicates otherwise, on purpose or not.

Hey let me tell you a secret, most autistic systems are under 24/7 stress. Like always fucking stressed, science community says we don't know what an autistic person without trauma would look like because it has literally never happened yet and trauma causes all kinds of little lifelong stressors, having a hyperfix itself may feed into stress even because the hyperfix takes all of your motivation and time and as much as you are enjoying the hyperfix many autistic people are also uncomfortably aware of all the things they *aren't* doing because they are busy being hyper fixated, that's stress, which causes splits, and people don't have to voice, or even notice the stress to make their splitting valid.

This one I actually agree with, this is either an Endogenic thing, or a misunderstanding of what's happening. Some systems definitely can *predict* who they think might show up soon, this usually seems to be knowing themselves and their trauma and seeing themselves in a character and is thus restricted to fictives, it's also never a guarantee but a lot of self aware systems do know themselves enough to know if they are stressed or not and who might show up from a media based on connections they see in themselves. RAMCOA systems can have dictated alters, however these are chosen and created by the abuser and not the system within themselves to my current knowledge on the topic.

It really does exist though? If you have and or are capable of having, an inner world, then yeah it definitely exists, and also yes you can get drunk, and high, you can sleep, you can talk, dance, eat, drink, uh- do some other things that aren't suitable to talk about here, and believe me I have talked to a lot of systems who remember doing all those things within headspace. Headspaces come in all shapes and sizes and ideas, some systems have a hard wall between front and the inner world, some have very fluid rules between the two. Also I would generally agree that being drunk or high in headspace shouldn't affect the alter's behavior in front but just because it generally shouldn't doesn't mean it *can't* that's called a psychosomatic symptom baby, or you could be having some kind of medical episode you don't understand. Ex: I had an absence seizure one day and it felt like our frontier was high, we had been on Valeum before, that alter is a fictive of a character who smokes, our brain decided he had been smoking and that must be why we felt funny, our parents said we looked high while knowing we were not, **We were having a seizure.** And we didn't understand what was going on so we came to a weird conclusion.

I have heard this other places, it's not my place to speak on, I have always had a super detailed inner world, long before I realized I was a system, I was an imaginative kid who daydreamed my own stories or got lost in books to cope.

I'm not sure what you mean by this, there are two kinds of seeing, like *seeing* physically in front of you with your eyes, generally no, that would be a hallucination, but I agree with Cypress that I'm sure there are plenty of systems on the schizo-spectrum that physically see their alters around or near them. As for the other kind of seeing, you can absolutely "see" or sense what an alter looks like the same way you see the image of a character or another person in your head. I dunno why that wouldn't be a real thing.

Then why are you, a stranger on the internet, trying to fake claim other people's experiences and lives 0-o

I don't have the energy or knowledge to try and get into this one, personally I would usually agree that it takes repetitive trauma to create and reinforce a spit, not just one traumatic event and then everything being normal after that, however the definition of "repeated trauma" or stress becomes kinda fluid and stretchy when I try to puzzle it out and I would need to actually talk to some people.

Allright. Since I have smashed back half of my study project I can 1. Do some work on sysboxes. And 2 tell you all about some things of DID and parts/alters

1. If you have DID. Your not multiple parts or multiple "people" your less than one part. Less than one identity because yours didn't Intergrate due to trauma.

2. People with DID aren't literally multiple people in one body. You aren't sharing a body with other individuals. You are "sharing" a body with yourself and yourself only. Alters/parts are you, whether they have their own name or not.

3. You will not form a new alter/part purely based off of a hyperfixation. Parts form due to traumatic experiences and stress!

4. You cannot choose what alters/parts you have. Despite some being adamant that thats the only way you get new alters.

5. Innerworld or headspace does not exist. You cannot get drunk in headspace, you cannot get hurt, you will not get life threatening injuries that send you to an Innerworld hospital. It is a therapy technique. Nothing more nothing less.

6. Innerworlds are something everyone can have. Not just systems. Non disordered people can use this technique as well.

7. You cannot see your alters/parts.

8. People shouldn't care about being fakeclaimed by strangers online. A strangers opinion should not matter to you.

9. The only way to be a system is through repetitive childhood trauma.

- Vesper

To some systems, headmates are like family, it hurts for them to go away, to leave, to cease to be, even fusion can be really upsetting because you may lose just one of them or you may lose both of them and be left with what feels like a stranger, with a new name and a new face.

We are allowed to not want to change or lose people. It's ok to be an alter who doesn't want to fuse or change or lose their identity.

i’ve only been in the plural community for a little while but i feel like i haven’t seen a post discussing this and i feel like it needs to be talked about.

cw: sad plural shit, specifically losing members.

i didnt really wanna talk about this but i think it would be good for me to, i think we lost a lot if not almost all of our members, we already suspected we were losing members but it feels like we lost a lot more since then. doing a head count it seems like it’s just the hosts and possibly one of our littles, one caretaker, and possibly one other left but even then it barely feels like they’re there, like they’re slipping away kind of. we kept acting like they were there to cope? but they’re not and we (we being the hosts blending together a little bit) finally accepted that they’re just gone. the point of us talking about this is that it’s okay to miss them, it’s okay to grieve them, it’s okay to cry over it, it’s okay to want them back, those were you’re headmates, and now they’re gone.

idk what’s going to happen next but we’ll update the pinned post to our current members. if you’re system is also going through this, you’re not alone, we see you, and it’s okay to grieve it.

- 🐄🛸 & 🍮🐈‍⬛

I remember being really upset about something earlier today and now it's like midnight and Cronus Ampora and Terezi Pyrope are dancing to Will Wood in my bathroom while they dye the body's hair XD (This is ment so genuinely)

being a system is the silliest because i will be literally having a breakdown sobbing on the floor but the right thing triggers me and suddenly fluttershy is cleaning my kitchen

Greaser Ghosts get to watch the silly Greaser Movie. (Their reactions were cute so I drew it) -Embrys

If you're fifteen or older an still sleep with a stuffed animal please reblog this.

Hey, shout out to systems with "frustrating" or "socially bad" traits.

systems who seem indecisive, "hot and cold", disloyal, dishonest, etc. to others due to subtle switches, passive influence, amnesia barriers, etc. between headmates with very different opinions, wants, and moods

systems who have headmates with "scary" attributes/symptoms, like hallucinations, delusions, anger issues, hypersexuality, low/no empathy, selfishness, need for attention, etc. especially those afraid they're perpetuating the "evil alter" stereotype

systems who never know who's fronting. especially those with memory barriers, those who struggle with feeling any sense(s) of personhood, and/or those who struggle to keep close bonds with people due to this

systems who struggle with meltdowns, tantrums, outbursts, pathological demand avoidance, poor sense of social norms, and other tendencies/issues that make being social or just existing in public difficult

systems with fluctuating sexualities and/or triggers that make it difficult to remain with a partner/partners (or to date in the first place)

systems who infight in-system and have trouble making decisions without intense internal backlash

systems who have trouble keeping self care (and may go out of the house dirty/disheveled) due to other mental illness or due to frequent fronters being unmotivated, forgetful, or having sensory issues or triggers that interfere with self care tasks

systems whose "self defense" relies on people pleasing, avoiding stressors, getting overly defensive, or getting angrier than "reasonable"

You are loved, you are appreciated, you deserve to be a part of society, you deserve to be happy, you deserve to be understood and given patience... you deserve to be able to create, love, heal, be respected, be treated like your own age, to lead, to have a voice, to feel safe.

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Imma do this because I’m fucking bored.

What’s your url?

Now take away any and all numbers (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,0), take away the letters F, Z, M, Q, L, H, B, T, P, E, A, Y, S, B, D, and X, take away all dashes (-),

What’s your new fucked up version of your url?

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