Principally-ace - Stay Alive.

i can’t take anything seriously

This might get long so I apologise in advance but I literally woke up and this was the first thing my brain thought of so. I'm sharing!

I’m thinking about how whenever Yang went through something fucked up - something that would stop any other regular person in their tracks and it would be completely justified if it did (See: Maria), Yang has always kept going.

It’s been a part of her characterisation for so long, that she’s ‘strong enough’ to get back up and, well, keep moving forward… no matter what she has endured.

When she learned that Summer Rose wasn’t her mother, and her real mother had chosen to leave her, she carried that pain, let it motivate her, and she kept going.

When she was framed in front of the entire world for something she, and only she knows for certain she didn’t do, she kept going.

When she lost her arm, and in the same breath lost her partner who meant so much more to her than she could process - it hurt. No one would’ve blamed her if that was it for her. When her sister, who is one of the only people in the world she knows without a doubt she loves also leaves her after this tragedy, somehow, despite it all, she keeps going.

When she finally finds her mother, and watches as she once again rejects her and chooses herself. Allows her own daughter to be once again put in the line of fire instead of her… oh I’m sure, that cut deep. But she kept going.

When her partner comes back, eyes lowered and asking for forgiveness but knowing it wouldn’t be given so easily, she opens her arms, thereby letting herself be vulnerable to that type of loss again, and keeps going.

When she, alongside someone besides her sister she knows she would do anything for, is forced to kill her partners abuser and her own assailant, she picks her partner back up and she keeps going.

When the picture of what happened to her mother, Summer Rose, becomes clearer - when the story starts unravelling and she learns something no one should ever have to learn about their deceased parent… it’s almost enough to break her. But she chooses her love and trust in her sister, and keeps going.

When she saw her sister’s life in danger, she charges forward and intercepts the fatal blow, which sends her careening into the unknown. I’m sure, she wanted to keep going. To stay by her partner’s side and be there with her team for whatever came next. She didn’t get that choice. But it was okay, because it meant her sister could keep going in her stead. She was okay if this was the end.

When she opened her eyes and found herself in an unfamiliar place, she had already accepted she was dead. This was okay, I’m sure. As long as Ruby and the others didn’t also fall. She found herself armless, and still went on to fight a jabberwalker alone. Even in her presumed death, she kept going.

She wasn’t dead, it seems. And neither were her teammates, who she’d accepted she may never see again, when they show up in this strange place with the same questions she had. Together, they keep going.

But this. This threatens to break all of that. She watches, feet rooted to the ground in horror, as her baby sister chooses to leave her. Chooses to ‘not be here anymore’. And she finally stagnates.

Yang has always kept going. And the one thing that threatened her ability to do that just disappeared right in front of her. Of her own volition.

And that is the straw that breaks the camel’s back… because I don’t think she can keep going anymore.

so…yeah…

those things they said on the bridge…

what if we put the things they said before together with they said on the bridge…

5 times yang rushes in to save ruby and 1 time she doesn't