Sometimes They Were Not The Right Person For You. Even Though At The Time You Thought They Were.

Sometimes they were not the right person for you. Even though at the time you thought they were.

Still can't believe his new gf was born in 2001. Funny how you went up to now down. Must be nice to date someone so much younger than you are. Must have a lot in common too since you're both in your 20s.

Funny how things turn out the way they did.

It happened like its supposed to happen. Can't change it, can't deny it. Can't say it's not happening cause it is. Can't compare either. At the end of the day I was good to you and I'm still good and worthy.

Some beautiful pics from today's hike. Much needed for sure.

I'm feeling frustrated and angry throughout the whole day. I'm frustrated because I still think about him and how he gets to move on. Posting pics of his new love and enjoying his life while mines is full of emotions. I'm angry because he's still a coward and staying silent.

He always said he hated Tuesday because they always bring bad news to him when he was working. Now he has ruined Tuesday for me too because I found out about his lies on a Tuesday.

Fuck him and fuck his new relationship. I meant what I said about karma. Whether he deserves good things or bad things, that's between him and karma.

What goes around comes around my friend.

It's been 4 weeks since the betrayal. But I'm done. I'm done crying. I'm done mourning over something that was long gone. My friend really opened my eyes today. The person I once loved and cared for moved away from me mentally and emotionally away from me before they physically moved away. Their words and actions did not aligned with someone who still had "feelings" or "cared" for me. Words are cheap, actions are louder. I see their actions very loud and clear now.

I feel very foolish now thinking back on those last few weeks we spent together. Do I have regrets? Yes. Should I have known better? Yes. Did I hoped we would get back together? Yes. I blurred the lines between thinking we were still in a relationship when in reality all we had was a sexual relationship. My friend was right he was in it just for the sex not because he still had "feelings" for me. Guys can detached their feelings from sex. That's all it was to him a few fucks before he left. Already checked out mentally and emotionally. Did I know they were right for me? No. I invested more love into a person who wasn't willing to invest the same love into me or us, or even themselves.

I see that now. I see their actions loud and clear. I have cried and grief long enough. They will no longer have power over me. I have given them too much power over me. They don't deserve a place in my mind, heart or soul. They are no longer in my life, therefore they no longer matter. They are gone and so are the memories of us.

I have spoken my truth. Now I must begin my healing process. I will be a better person. I will be stronger. I will be love because I deserve love.

I am loved.

I am appreciated.

I am worthy.

I love me.

I love my life.

I love my family and friends.

I love my sense of humor.

I love my smile.

I love me.

I won't wish them all the best because that would be a lie. I don't wish them all the worst either. I simple wish them what they deserve, whether it's good things or bad things, that's between them and karma.

They know what they did. It's on them, not me.