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I'm noticing many artists moving to Cara, so I am too. Maybe not permanently but I want to try it and see how I feel. It's getting good reception so far.
So, you can find me on Cara @logodojo
Keep in mind I haven't fully set it up yet and due to my transition to college right now, I won't be posting until September/November (hopefully). I will not transfer over my posts but will post on Cara for the foreseeable future, depending as I said, on how I feel about my experience with it. Thanks guys!
“My Depression Will Not Corrupt My Enjoyment”
Keep this with you when you’re going to be apart of something fun and you want to genuinely enjoy it without your depression getting in the way.
“Move On From The Past”
Self:
Keep this sigil near where you sleep, preferably under the bed or mattress.
Somebody else:
Draw this sigil on the back of a photo of your target. Set out on windowsill during the new moon.
Forgiveness will not change the past, but can change the future.
You can never move forward if you keep thinking your future is in the past.
I hate the when people tell you to “move on”. As if I wanted to sit let go and forget the person. What if I don’t want to forget or let it go. Let me decide that since I’m the one living it.
Grief does not care where you are at. It appears as clearly as the wind blows.
My heart hurts. My mind is not at peace. I want my heart and my mind back. I want to let go and not think about the hurt, the anger and the betrayal. I want me back. Love is great when its great, but it can also lead to many heart aches and many tears. Having your heart broken by the same person twice fucken sucks!
I want to be done and move forward like it never happened.
Did a tarot card reading today, she happens to be a life coach as well. The reading was positive. Good things to come. This break up for me hasn't been easy and will continue to be a work in process but the session with her reaffirmed and assured me that I'm heading in the right direction and this experience was meant to happen to me.
This is my experience and it's going to make me a better person. Makes me be better for my next relationship. Makes me aware of what I'm looking for in my next relationship. I've found love once and I'll find love again. I loved and was loved and I'll love and be love again.
I really did loved him and I really did want us to work out. We might have been right for each other but the timing wasn't right. Maybe in our next lifetime things will work out for us.
I'll miss him, I'll miss us. We had love and were in love. We have beautiful memories to look back on.
Still can't believe his new gf was born in 2001. Funny how you went up to now down. Must be nice to date someone so much younger than you are. Must have a lot in common too since you're both in your 20s.
Funny how things turn out the way they did.
It happened like its supposed to happen. Can't change it, can't deny it. Can't say it's not happening cause it is. Can't compare either. At the end of the day I was good to you and I'm still good and worthy.
Got approved for therapy today. Also my doctor told me I have depression. Told her no I was just heartbroken, continued to talk a little more than she goes yea you have depression. She said antidepressant could help but told her I wanted to do therapy first.
Therapy will be good for me. I needed it so bad with the prolonged denial I was in. I feel so foolish and stupid for not seeing the signs. I was the only person left in this relationship. He checked out physically, emotionally and mentally months ago. I was still in a relationship that was no longer there and I didn't know it. Held onto something that no longer exists. I fucked myself over. Now I'm paying for my fuckery.
Wasted time, energy and hope on something that was long done. Wasted years with someone who wasn't series about me. Wasted my time with a person who didn't wanted a family or a future together. Wasted my good years with a loser that ended up treating me like trash. Wasted my golden years with someone who wasn't worth all my love. Time wasted that I can't get back.
He came back to visit his parents and introduced his new gf to them. How sweet of him. How can a decent human being treat another human being like they meant nothing to them? Like they are a piece of trash that they can easily thrown out? A good, decent person would never treat another person like this!! They would have respected them. Not him. Maybe he was always like this but I never knew cause we were in a romantic relationship together. But this is who he is all along. Just a shitty person with no morals and decency in them?
Ghosting is a form of psychological abuse. It leaves the person being ghosted as feeling empty and worthless. Like they aren't a human being that another human being can respect. They can't respect them to be honest and upfront with them with their intentions. Considering our history this is how he treats me. How pathetic and disappointing he is as a human being.
I'm just sorry I won't be there to witness karma getting to him. Best believe karma is coming to you one way or another.
Yesterday, I telepathically talked to you. Told you the hurt and pain you have caused me. Told you of my disappointment in you. I hope that message was delivered to you. I'm still holding out hope that you'll still reach out to me and explain yourself. Why? I don't know why because things aren't going to change. I guess I just need you to show me that I didn't make a mistake in mis-judging your character and the person I thought I knew. I don't want to believe that you're this person or was this person all along. Thinking about this person's actions really breaks my heart.
I wondered have you read my letter. I'm guessing yes but it didn't sway you to feel one way or another. Or you choose not to have read it at all and said 'fuck her I've moved on with my new love and life'. 'I'm not looking back and screw her feelings'. GOD I pray you're not this man!! I prayed you're decent and have a heart for me and our history. I prayed I didn't misjudged you. I prayed that I at least knew who you really were. I prayed that you still care and have feelings.
I just want you to be the same person you were when we were together. I same person I fell in love with. The same person who loved me. Wishful thinking. I want to believe that when you're alone you do hurt and ache for what was. When you're alone you do think of me and are remorseful for your actions towards me. That you do feel bad and guilty for hurting me. Only you and the Lord knows the truth of your thoughts and feelings.
Been praying for you and I hope you received those prayers too. I hope you can open your heart, mind and body to Him and except His love and message to you so you can heal.
Don't disappoint me.
He knew his action would deeply hurt me but he choose to minimize his feelings and hurt knowing my feelings and hurt would be maximum. What a selfish coward?!
You're such a boy in a grown up body. That's why you're dating a 20 yo huh? Both on the same mentality level. She's young so she'll put up with your bullshits, you can get away with more bullshits and willing take bullshits. She's still an adolescent. Brain isn't fully mature until 25!!
Play your fields. Fuck and date around all you what.
God has a plan for me. I have faith in His Grace and Mercy. I pray for your soul to be delivered. I pray you find peace, compassion, kindness, emotional growth, empathy, sympathy and mercy.
Neck kisses are the BEST.
Miss them, want them, will find someone who gives them to me all the time
Today I am thinking about you more. Not so much as in I missed you but I'm thinking of you for the hurt and pain you caused. The hurt and pain that I'm still feeling and trying to heal from.
You're such a piece of shit. I dislike you very much today. Suddenly my heart is heavy. I hope you're heart and conscience is heavt too, but I doubt it cause you're not even thinking of me and the situation you put me through.
You're with your rebound and getting your shit wet cause that's all you cared about. You're so selfish and unkind to me.
Gawd!! This shit is painful and exhausting!! I'm here dealing with this mess while you're off living your life. This isn't fair!! Fuck you!!! I hate you!! Don't ever return. Stay where you are.
If you are going thru hell, keep going.Why would you ever stop in hell!?
Steve Harvey