I Love How I Started Out Writing A Comic Book, While Thinking I Must Be Cis And Pan, And Now That Im

I love how I started out writing a comic book, while thinking I must be cis and pan, and now that I’m nearing the end of it, I’m trans, non-binary, and aroace. Granted, before that I thought I was cishet, and kinda just denying way too many fucking things about myself. Upon admitting them through storytelling, I somehow feel much much gayer. This is probably because I feel more comfortable in my skin now. Thank you for my TEDTalk.

Alright so as an a-spec, trans, and non-binary person, I’ve taken it upon myself to create a story in the medium of comics. I’ve doin’ this for a while though, like 2 years...and HOLY SHIT!!! I feel as if I’ve grown with the characters, and I know how it’s going to end. I often find that my characters represent parts of myself rather than the people in my life. My goal is to finish it and post it on the internet, though I kinda already did, by posting the first ten pages. It’s gonna be two volumes, so as you can imagine, shit goes down. Granted, the first 20 pages are kinda rushed, but I wanted 228 pages max for the first volume, and I want the second to be 200. The main character, Noel (they/them), is non-binary and is figuring out their sexuality, so yeah :). 

A rant about being aromantic as well as asexual while being a teen

It sucks dude. I feel behind and a part of me doesn’t care, but another part of me is going, “WHY ME?!”. And some of it, at least for me, is in part due to trauma, and also lack of attraction. Sometimes I just wish I could feel something, you know. I also don’t want to be in a qpr with anyone, but I just want friends. The problem is due to trust issues I’m scared to hug them and stuff, so that causes me to get a bit touch starved, even though I could just ask. Everything is just scary. I do love my friends in the most platonic way and that’s it. They are truly wonderful people, but I wish I could...well fit in more sometimes. I know that it’s sappy and honestly not the best outlook to want to fit in, but I just wonder what it feels like to fit in, or perhaps everyone is just faking it regardless. I’m a bit sad and scared my friends will leave me for their partner(s), though I don’t think they would, as one of them is dating some peeps and they’re really chill and equally care and I guess I’m scared that I’m just not loved by my friends. I think they do love me and I have this tendency to give to much and never relax because I’m just a people pleaser. So overall, I’m just a lil’ lonely and sad and I wanted to rant on here because people seem pretty chill.

The struggles real, am I right?

Being polyamorous while also being aroace has been the most confusing shit of my life. I just wanna vibe in a polycule and I want to feel cared for. I feel cared for my friends at the moment, so I’m okay now, but it’d be nice in the future, cause I don’t wanna live alone. I really shoulda known I was aro though....like the signs were so obvious...and ace even more obvious. I am glad though that I basically embody chaos at this point.

My homies in the a-spec community

So I’ve been trying to educate myself on other’s experiences (i.e. alloaces, aroallos, and those who may be heteromantic/heterosexual a-specs). I consider myself aroace and I want to support both the ace-spec and aro-spec community with as much respect and gratitude because you are all beautiful. I’m working on being sex-positive instead of sex-negative, so that I can be both a better friend and person. I know that sometimes there’s well...gatekeeping from a-spec who try to invalidate those who may be aroallo or aceallo. For some they may not see those who are aroallo or aceallo as valid or real, which is an absolute lie (ya’ll keep going and walk with your pride). Please just let people exist. Another thing I want to talk about is that sometimes we disregard that you could be a cishet ace-spec or cishet aro-spec (also if you’re trans person who’s het and a-spec, you’re also amazing) and you know what ignoring those in the community is alienating. If you are het and a-spec...YOU ARE SO FUCKING VALID! And if you’re apl-spec that’s AWESOME!! Just know that you are a wonderous being that the universe will be grateful to have given you the experiences that you had!! Those experiences are beautiful canvases that you get to paint because no one can tell you what you should want!!

#aroallo #rant #aceallo #aromantic as fuck #asexual as fuck #aplatonic #a-spec homies #I hope nobody will get mad at this showing up in both aceallo and aroallo tag spaces #aro #aroace #aro positivity #ace #ace positivity

We're Screwed

Follow the story of two supernatural youngsters, Noel and Ezra, both descendants of the Contradii genus. Now what is a Contradii you ask? Well, read on to find out! A story centred around the teen years, family, some queerness, and magic. Do you dare to turn the page? Read on adventurers! Updates every Friday!!! Interested in my work? Check out my other socials! Tumblr: @piroshki101 DeviantArt:@mushyeggplant

Follow the story of two supernatural youngsters, Noel and Ezra, both descendants of the Contradii genus. Now what is a Contradii you ask? Well, read on to find out! A story centred around the teen years, family, some queerness and magic. Do you dare to turn the page? Read on adventurers! Updates every Friday!!! Interested in my work? Check out my other socials! Tumblr: @piroshki101 DeviantArt:@mushyeggplant Reading this will make your day better. #We're Screwed #webcomic #WEBTOON