I Can Feel Myself Getting Bad Again And Im Scared.

I can feel myself getting bad again and I’m scared.

I’m so confused right now. Nothing has changed except that I am wondering if I could unblock you and be ok. But I know I’m not over you and it still hurts sometimes so the time isn’t right to unblock you. I just miss you. Even though we didn’t talk really and you never liked any of my posts, I liked knowing that you might see them at least. Sometimes I feel pathetic. We’ll see what happens in time.

I feel so alone.

I saw something that said after a breakup wait 21 days and you should start to feel if you did the right thing and it should hurt less. I never dated you and only blocked you and it’s been a month. A full month. And I am still hurting just as much. And now I’m wondering if I did the right thing or not. I know I need to not talk to you but what’s the point of blocking you? To prove I could do it? To make you feel like you did something wrong? So you know you hurt me? I need to think some more.

I miss you. I wish things would have turned out different.