I Don't Have Any More Exams This Week And Now Is The First Day That I Haven't Seen R And I Miss Him Already.

I don't have any more exams this week and now is the first day that I haven't seen R and I miss him already. Fuck I know that he's at the university and others can talk to him but I can't AHH.

Since yesterday, I have been quiet and didn't write to him... our last conversation was at school. It's also such a strange feeling, bc until now we exchanged a few words almost every day in messages, but now I'm completely silent and R silent too. I don't dare to do anything bc I'm afraid I'll screw something up.

I don't want to lose him, but I also don't want to be too much for him, bc what if I scare him away? idk what to do now girls...🙁

painful truth.

GIRLS GIRLS 😭

I think I did something very stupid....AHH I have no idea why I did this, but I wrote to him that I wanted to see him during the holidays. WHY WHYYY??? But he hasn't answered anything yet, I'm beating my head against the wall bc I'm going to take his exam tomorrow. Kill me pls

!!BIG UPDATE GIRLSSSS HELP!!😭😭

So I had my exam with him today. To be honest, I didn't sleep much yesterday, bc in the end he didn't reply to my "I'd like to see you during the holidays" message and there was never a time when he didn't answer! I felt so much that with this I just fucked everything that we had built with great difficulty between each other. I tried to avoid interacting with him all day and only looked at him when I entered the room, but I quickly sat down instead, tried to shut out my thoughts and focus only on the exam. I like his class, I like the way he teaches and I want to remain the best. Fortunately, I managed to concentrate and solve everything, so I think I will get a good mark.

However, after the exam, some of my friends still had an exam today, so I planned to go home as soon as possible because I remembered again that R is and I wrote him a stupid message yesterday, to which he did not reply, so I overthought it and thought that it must be unpleasant the situation for him as well.

But after I was on my way out of the class, R suddenly called my name quite loudly and I'll be honest, I was really scared. A few people also looked at us a bit strangely, everyone here likes dramas, you know blah. I went to him with great difficulty and stood in awkward silence by the table and just watched him pack his bag while everyone left the room and there were only two of us left. I tried to determine from his face what he was thinking, but his gaze was so gloomy that I had no good premonitions, so I panicked, and when I panic, I tend to talk nonsense, so I remained silent until finally he looked at me and said:

"I didn't want to ignore your message yesterday, I'm sorry, but I'm primarily your teacher now and I want you to concentrate on your exams."

I didn't know what to say at the time, so whatever came came. I quickly said that there is nothing wrong, I don't know what I was thinking, when I wrote it, it just happened, but forget it and yes, I will concentrate on the exams. After that, R smiled kindly at me and, just imagine, stroked my head and said: "Won't you let me finish?"

After that I almost bit my tongue lol He asked when I would finish all my exams and I told him that there would be one at the end of December and the first week of January. He said that he hopes they will turn out as well as the others and that he can't promise anything, but if he's home between two holidays, then we can talk about what I wrote.

I don't know exactly what this means, but I didn't really understand it then, and maybe even now I'm in a state of shock, so girls, help me, what does this mean?!! Now do you think he would like to meet me? Then I didn't cross the boundaries and he didn't misunderstand???

IDK IM JUST AHHHHH 😭😭

This is me now:

GIRLS GIRLS 😭

I think I did something very stupid....AHH I have no idea why I did this, but I wrote to him that I wanted to see him during the holidays. WHY WHYYY??? But he hasn't answered anything yet, I'm beating my head against the wall bc I'm going to take his exam tomorrow. Kill me pls

I sent him a voice message bc I told him a story and I laughing at the end of message 😭

and he texted me back: "you are very cute when you giggle"

I'm actually like a drowning seal, but if you say so, I'll believe it and pls stop flirting to me bc I'll marry you THANK YOU