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Baby (you Complete Us) 2
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baby (you complete us) 2

C H A P T E R Â T W O
summary: Soulmates were a common occurrence, so common, in fact, that the world sought an easier way to find your other half: A bracelet that would scan your mark and match you with those who shared your mark. Within recent years, soul groups were becoming normal, and your own bracelet said you have seven matches.
Or where you wear your bracelet for ten years, and finally give up the hope you would find your soul group, only for BTS to put theirs on and see what they were missing.
genre: soulmate au, idol au, angst, fluff, eventual smut,
pairing: Idol BTS x Disabled MC
warnings: angst, mentions of depression, disabled mc (Ehlers Danlos syndrome), eventual smut, fluff, lots of fluff, mentions of disability, simp bangtan
chapter warnings: lots of insecurities, upset bangtan, determined bangtan, bangtan become simps, mentions of depression, mentions of disability, negative feelings towards disability,Â
masterlist // chapter 1 // chapter 3
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Previously on baby (you complete us):Â
They had another soulmate.
One who had been wearing theirs for ten years.
One who had been messaging them.
And their last message said they lost hope and were going to take the bracelet off.
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(Omegaverse au, Mafia au, Bts x Reader)
Summary:Â âMaybe thatâs just what intimacy is- the context of us in another personâs life.â
Pairing: Beta! Yoongi, Omega! Reader, Omega! Jungkook, Omega! Seokjin, Alpha! Namjoon, Alpha! Hoseok, Alpha! Taehyung, Alpha! Jimin
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(18 months Prior)Â
The next time that you visit the small yellow house in the middle of the city, you are the picture of perfect omega grace. A change from your last visit where your dripped blood onto the same cobblestone path. Body broken and mind just as fragile.Â
Now you visit in a modest black dress favored by the other omegas in the family. Your lipstick is patted on just so and a cute red pink color, painted there not by your own hands but by Hyejin.Â
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(Omegaverse au, Mafia au, Bts x Reader)
Summary: You should have come to jungkook about your predicament with the pack alpha sooner. Heâs got solutions and a box full of sex toys. âThere you go- oh my god youâre soaking the pillow- guess you really like this one a lot huh?â
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Pairing: Beta! Yoongi, Omega! Reader, Omega! Jungkook, Omega! Seokjin, Alpha! Namjoon, Alpha! Hoseok, Alpha! Taehyung, Alpha! Jimin
W/c:Â 13kÂ
A/n:Â Happy Jinnie Day! there isnât too much of him in this chapter- although there is a bit of him in the next one. it probably wonât take me a full three weeks to get the next chapter out as itâs already partially written <3Â This chapter was greatly inspired by Jungkookâs world cup performance.Â
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The offending animal glares back with as much spite as his 12-pound 6 oz frame can muster. Youâd told anyone who would listen about noodles vet visit; the catâs weight, his prognosis on a nasty scar on his tummy, preening at how heâd only bitten the vet tech once.
(Namjoon might have slid the vet a 50 after, as an apology.)
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cry me a river | the liar

â summary: hoseok lied about choosing you, namjoon lied about leaving you, but the biggest liar of them all is you
â pairing: bts x reader
â genre: angst, mafia!au
â word count: 9.1k
â warnings: mentions of food poisoning, mentions of starving, fear of food, allusions to eating disorder, manipulation, y/n isn't in her right mind, talks of death, death attempt, ptsd
â PART 17 / previous post / masterpost
âIsnât she pretty?â You say as you play with the white thin strings that hold the doll upright. âA pretty little doll, so perfect.â
She wears a white dress that falls to her ankles, dark black hair held in an updo, eyes that flutter open and close each time you move her head up and down, her wrists, back, head, and legs all held up by thin strings.
So petite and fragile.
âLook Dasom, watch this.â You stand from your seat, the strings in one hand as you hold it up into the air, and reach for the scissors. Dasom watches, lips sealed, her back standing straight with hands held behind. You take the scissors and you stare right at her, cutting the strings where theyâre held together in your hands.
And down the doll falls in an instant.
Breaking.
Dasom doesnât flinch.
âPitiful, isnât she?â You place the scissors onto the table and crouch down to pick the broken doll up. The wrists where the strings held caused her hand to detach from her body, a leg twisted, a knee to her foot also detached, bits of pieces broken like scars, no longer a part of her body anymore, and one eye remains wide open while the other falls half-lidded.Â
âThe doll once belonged to someone, until it was passed over and promised by a new owner to always hold on and never let go. The new owner treated her well for some time but unexpectedly, they decided to cut all the strings and as a result, here she lies, broken on the ground, and returned to the previous owner toâŠreattach the strings once more.â You look up at her as you stand back up again and place the doll on the table, right next to the scissors. âYou understand that, donât you? After all, when we first met, you were the same; a perfect little doll forcibly passed onto my father.â
Dasom remains quiet but you see the way she clenches her jaws and you look back down at the doll. You take the hand that broke away itself from the body after its fall and look at it for some time.
âWeâre the only ones who can fix ourselves, Dasom. If we trust in anyone else, whoâs to say they wonât break us more than we are now? Thatâs why you cannot trust anyone, not even I. Because one day, I may betray you. Just as one day, you may betray me. Do not look at me as your savior, do not get blinded for even a moment, because when it comes down to it, one dayâŠI may even end up just like my father and hurt you all over again. And when that moment comes, if I ever betray your trust and become the person my father wasâŠyour trust in me will hurt you more than anything. So never trust me, Dasom. Never.â
She stands alone in the room when you leave, heels clicking away, head never turning back for a second glance.
Dasom stands there for the longest time, staring at the broken doll who lays on the table, the scissors right beside her, and just before any memories can fall into her thoughts, the door opens to reveal Mingyu.
âWhat did boss tell you?â He asks when he walks in, and pauses momentarily at the broken doll on the table, before he looks at Dasom again, a mark of concern on his features. âDid she say something out of line?â
She looks up, meeting his gaze as her shoulder tenses even more. âShe reminded me not to trust her,â she says, her brows furrowed. âShe warned me to not look at her as a savior, that there will always be a chance she may end up like her father, like my perpetrator, like our perpetratorâŠ..like her perpetratorâŠ.and that where we are now is just a fleeting moment in time, that just because she saved me doesnât mean she canât also be the one to cut my strings and Iâll end up more broken than I amâŠwas.â
Mingyu keeps his eyes on her when she reaches for the doll, caressing it while throwing the scissors roughly to the side. Away from view.
âShe said that only I can fix whatever was broken when my family was still alive and when her father still lived.â
âSo. Do you believe her?â
âNo,â she says without hesitation, eyes looking up at him with desperation meant for him to understand. âBecause she saved me. She fixed me. Us. She took all the pieces that make up the Reapers, sewed our hands and feet, opened our eyes, helped us stand and run and fight, and become the sort of people that we are now, strong enough to protect her, to return the kindness that she had in her heart to fix what had been left broken by the people that have hurt us but weâll never be enough, will we? No matter what we do, weâll never be able to save her.â
â...â Mingyu takes a step forward to gently caress the hair of the broken doll in Dasomâs hand. He smooths down the disheveled mess and plays with the broken eye, silent for a moment, before he utters the words that the Reapers know yet hate to hear the most.
âBecause boss doesnât want to be saved.â
.
.
.
There is one part of the manor youâve never returned to ever since destroying and rebuilding what your father cherished ever since that night you came back with news of his death and decided to rid all of his followers. There is one part of the manor you left untouched, one part of the manor even your reapers do not go near; your annex.
Where resides your old room, Mister Butlerâs old room, the torture rooms; Yunaâs room 157, and,
The White Room.
You donât know why your feet have decided to drag you down here, why youâre walking this way. Itâs been months after all, months. You remember your eyes catching a glimpse of the calendar in that room you were in with Dasom and realize that itâs almost been a year since you decided to pursue your revenge plan.
Itâs almost been a year.
A year.
A year since your fatherâs death, a year since his life ended and you seeking for your supposed lost freedom, a year since youâve met with your ex-boyfriends, ex-husband, and although the revenge isnât even a step close to being completed, perhaps now is when Namjoon will decide upon going back to the two of you never seeing each other again.
It wonât be unexpected.
Youâve given him the bait, after all, told him you killed his precious older brother, so youâre sure thereâs only so little time left before he calls you over to discuss business on the alliance. After taking some time for grievance and taking in what you told him, heâll end things.
Itâll end soon and you wonât have to see them ever again.
Itâll end soon.
So perhaps the reason why youâre walking towards an empty room, Mister Butlerâs room, is for this very fact; to apologize.
Because if you canât give Namjoon the truth, if you have to hold your peace forever and make him think youâre the bad guy, make him believe that all those hopes and dreams he had were for naught and turn you into the villain that you are so that he can hate you and push you away, the least you can do is apologize to his older brother.
Because despite how cruel Namjoon was to you in the last weeks of your broken marriage, Mingyu is right in saying that he didnât deserve what youâve done.
Meeting toxicity with toxicity will only fire back in the end.
And even if you did have a good reason, itâs still a selfish reason.
But Namjoon was getting too close to your liking. He was beginning to doubt, beginning to question, and you didnât like questions because questions meant getting close to the truth, questions meant doubting the facade you pull every day in front of everyone, questions meant reviewing the past and realizing something was wrong from the very beginning.
You canât have him doubting your happy fairytale with your father, the story made of rainbows and sunshine, the house of cards you and your father created with your hard work and easy lies.
Letting him think youâre the bad guy is the only thing you can do.
The hallway down the annex is daunting.Â
Terrifying.
You hate all the repressed memories that wish to reappear, the cold air it carries, the ghosts of the past trying to touch your shoulder and crawl back into your life. Itâs dark, so dark, and with each step echoes the daunting wails of the ghosts who hold onto your ankles, unwilling to let go.
The air is heavy, hoping to drag you down with the memories. Your footsteps are heavy.
You hate the distant screams you hear in the back of your mind. You hate the silence.
The silence.
The silence.
You feel your hands trembling, the way your knees falter and the heels underneath you threaten to twist. It feels numb. Your legs feel numb. But you keep your eyes straight ahead, not daring to take a glance to the side otherwise all those memories youâve tried so hard to keep hidden will resurface and you canât have that.
You canât have it.
So when you reach Mister Butlerâs room, you just simply stand right before it, facing it head-on but refusing to reach a hand out, twist the knob, and take a step in.
You stand there, staring.
You know that the room is empty; no furniture, no presence, nothing, and so you keep it that way because youâd rather imagine there is something in there.
His old bed, his old closet, the precious things that he kept in that roomâŠâŠHim.
Him.
âIâm sorry,â you whisper, head lowered, eyes falling to your feet, bowed into a ninety-degree level. âIâm sorry.â
There is no one here, no one except you, but you still feel the coziness in the lost fragments of your memories, the only warmth in this annex, distant but felt, just like in the past. A gentle childâs voice echoes in your ears, laughing. An older gentleman follows along, kind and sweet just as it always was.
Why did he have to come here? Why couldnât he have stayed at his own home? Why did he care for a child who held no relation to him?
He should have stayed, shouldnât have taken up the mission his father gave him, stayed with his little brother and heâd have still been alive.
In meeting you, he died. In loving you, his life was taken away.
âI hope you can forgive me,â you say softly, knowing he hears every word you utter whether itâs barely audible or not. âIâve hurt your little brother, told him a lie he believed in, crushed his hopes of seeing you reappear in his life ever again. Iâm sorry for hurting himâŠIf you were here, would you forgive me? Mister Butler, IâŠpleaseâŠtell me what to doâŠâ
There were times when you wished everything had been nothing but a long, long nightmare. Times when youâd wake up and run to Mister Butlerâs room just around the corner, hoping, searching, just to see nothing.
No warmth. No smile. No kindness.
No Mister Butler.
He told you about his little brother once. Once. When he was tired and you were on the brink of falling asleep. You remember the gentle hand that patted your head ever so often, his voice soft when he spoke of his brother, eyes filled with happiness but with a bit of regret, a bit of guilt, a bit of longing.
He wanted to return, you realized years later and to this day you still wonder why he hadnât. He should have, he had his chances, you were sure of it. If Namjoon and his father are both men known for their intelligence, then youâre sure Mister Butler should have been able to make his escape with the brain that he had.
But he never left and sometimes you wonder.
Was it because of you?
Did he stay because of you?
âI killed him,â the words repeat in the back of your head as you recall Namjoonâs confrontation. You may have not been the one to have pulled the trigger but perhaps you were the cause for it. Father told you he shot him because he was your weakness and perhaps father knew at the time he was an enemy in disguise, but at the end of the day, Mister Butler could have escaped.
âI killed him because of you,â Father said and for a while, you believed it. But there was another time you doubted his words, believed that it was just his way of manipulating you once more, that he was just saying it because he wanted to hurt a little kid like you.
And now that you think about it, perhaps you really did kill him. Because fatherâs right.
If it wasnât for you, he would have been an ordinary man who didnât catch fatherâs attention. If it wasnât for you, father wouldnât have cared about his existence. The very fact that Mister Butler looked out for you, cared for you, showed you kindness, and loved you, was the very reason father saw through him and decided to kill him.
If it wasnât for you, he could have lived.
He could have lived.
You bite onto your lower lip, hard, and a memory resurfaces.
âDonât bite too hard, young miss, youâll bleed.â
Heâs crouched down to your level, a hand reaching out to swipe along your lips when your teeth bite against it, while his other hand holds your head in gentle strokes, soothing whatever it is that has upset you this time.
â..Why?â You croak out, tears held back as you stare up at him with wide, bulged-out eyes, not daring to blink otherwise the tears will roll down your cheeks. Father says crying is weak. Father hates tears and you donât want him to keep hating you.
You have to be loved. You have to earn his love. And only good girls can be loved. Only strong girls.
âIf I do this, then itâll be easier to not cry.â
Mister Butler knits his brows, that kind smile replaced by pained anguish. âIf you do that, youâll hurt yourself.â
âI donât care,â you say. âFather doesnât like people who cry and if I keep being weak, Iâll never earn fatherâs love. I have to earn his love otherwise Iâll never be capable of love andââ
He cuts you off when he pulls you into his arms, wrapping them around your petite body and pressing your face into his chest. âDonât say that.â His voice sounds so odd when he says that. âDonât, please..please donât.â As if he were the one in pain, as if he were the one hurting in your stead, like an older brother who canât bear the sight of his little sister in pain. Like itâs physically hurting him that youâre hurting. âYou are worth so much more than what your father thinks of you as, my lady.â
âBut I..Iâm not.â You try to force yourself away from his embrace, hands balling into fists as you punch his chest and push him away. You can never be anywhere stronger than Mister Butler but he lets go, leaves because you want him to go. âIf you keep showing me kindness, if you keep spoiling me, I will never get strong.â
âYou donât have to be strong.â
âBut I do! Because then father will never love me!â
His face contours in pained frustration as he clenches his jaw and when you think about it now, perhaps what Mister Butler wanted to say was âYour father will never love you no matter how weak or strong you areâ and heâs right. Father is a monster who cannot love another human being.
But the little you then would never understand and would only hurt more if he were to utter such words.
So he swallows those words and holds your shoulders, keeping his anger in to not scare you off.
âDo you think of yourself as incapable of being loved because you are weak?â He asks and you nod.
âI canât be loved. No one will love me if Iâm weak.â
âI love you,â Mister Butler says. âI love you,â he stresses. âI promise I love you so pleaseâŠplease cry.â He cups your tiny face in his large hands, thumbs brushing against your cheeks. âYou donât have to hold it in, young miss. When youâre around me, you donât have to worry about trying to act proper and trying to act strong because I donât care. I donât care about anything. You can lash out, you can throw a tantrum, you can scream at me and hit me and spit in my face andââ
âIâd never!â You quickly shout, face contouring in horror as if the very thought of it could break you. âIâd never, Mister Butler, Iâd never.â
âI know,â he nods, pressing his forehead to yours, âI know but my lady, youâŠyou donât have to worry about anything because no matter what happens, Iâll love you. Even if you cry, young miss, Iâm right here. I wonât leave, I wonât throw you away so itâs okay. Itâs okay to cry because Iâm here. Iâll still love you no matter what. So stop holding those tears in, yeah? Cry. Itâs alright to cry.â
âBut..-â
âNo oneâs here. No one can hear you in this room. Itâs soundproof and no one ever comes around in these halls so itâs okay. No one can hear you except me. And I love you so itâs okay. Itâs okay, young miss. Itâs okay to cry.â
Your lips quiver, trembling, and he nods, encouraging you. When the first tear falls with consent, the rest follows and you close your eyes shut, allowing them all to fall like rushing waterfalls.
Against all the things your father had instilled in you, Mister Butler doesnât leave, he doesnât discard you. He presses your face into his chest, holds you as tight as he can, and in the sounds of your cries, you donât realize that he trembles slightly, afraid, frightened, and angry.
You donât remember the last time you cried but you know that it was before Mingyu came. Before he arrived.
You were broken before he arrived so Yuna is the only Reaper who has ever seen you cry but you donât know if she can recall the exact moment you stopped shedding tears.
Itâs been a while even you canât remember. Your memories are hazy from those times, when things were rougher, when it was only Yuna who watched you every day like a frightened child losing their precious mother who lied on their deathbed.
Yuna was the only one who saw you through it all, who was there when you still had a soft heart, innocent and precious, who smiled kindly. She was there to see that light stripped away from your eyes, right there when you had let the darkness win, when you succumbed to it.
When you fell silent. Completely silent.
When you broke.
She was right there. The only Reaper to know and to remember all that you were and all that was lost. She may never be able to see again but you remember those eyes, those eyes that were far too young to see such a thing happening right before her.
Those precious eyes that you yourself had to rid of.
Perhaps thatâs why in some ways, the others are a little gentler towards her and allow her to take care of your needs when Mingyu isnât there. Perhaps thatâs why they let her near you when you donât want anyone in.
And perhaps thatâs why you let her in.
Because she knows and because she remembers the things even you canât remember.
Yuna remembers. She remembers everything.
But she was too young to lead the Reapers, too young to know everything on what to do when it came to you and your needs. You needed so much, too much, and her young mind wouldnât allow her to think things through properly to know just what to do.
When youâd panic, when youâd freeze up, when youâd grow angry, when youâd refuse to eat anything, when youâd get silent, completely silent.
You needed to be saved and Yuna didnât know how to do it.
She was too young.
While she knew how to comfort and provide you warmth, you needed much more than that, you needed a foundation that could hold you steady and keep you grounded. You needed Mingyu.
And Mingyu came.
And together, the two of them became the first Reapers only loyal to you, building something much stronger than anyone could ever imagine.
You saved Dasom, Mingyu allowed her to pledge her allegiance, and together with Yuna, they taught her on what she needed to know.
Then Yeonjun came along and the same thing repeated over and over again until you created a network of Reapers under your own control, who were loyal to you, and who hated your father all the same.
None of them, except Yuna, has ever seen you cry.
Not even Mingyu.
But youâll never show them now, or ever. Because youâve lost it all.Â
Your eyes can no longer cry.
Father has trained you well.
âMy lady?â You hear footsteps, two pairs, and look up to find Yuna and Yeonjun walking toward you.
How they knew where to find you, youâll never know, but you guess no matter what happens, your Reapers will always manage to find you wherever you are so you shouldnât be surprised.
They take one look at the door beside you and they can already imply just why you were down here in the annex where youâve forbidden yourself to come to. Thereâs something in Yunaâs hand which she hides away behind her back after taking a glance at the door, but youâve already caught sight of it; itâs a letter.
A letter. Which means Namjoon has finally decided to formally end things.
You ignore it.
âYuna. Yeonjun.â They come at your call. âI hate this place,â you say. âI hate it. I hate it.â
The air feels heavier, trying to constrict your breathing, something weighing on your chest, something trying to tear you down.
Your hand trembles when you reach out and Yunaâs right there to help you keep steady on your feet as Yeonjun offers his back to you. You climb on with some effort, eyes shut tightly closed as you press your face into his shoulder, hating everything about this annex.
Itâs cold, too cold. You tighten your hold on Yeonjun, terrified and wanting the ground to swallow you whole so that you can disappear forever. You want to get out. Get out.
Everything screams at you in your head, the ghosts of the past reappearing, the distant sound of a little girl crying and begging and pleading for someone, anyone, while the two guards stand completely silent outside the doors of the White Room, not moving a single inch despite how hard she screams at them to come, to save her.
You hear it loud and clear in your head.
Loud and loud and loud in the silence of the annex.
Yeonjun runs out of here in an instant.
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âAre you disappointed?â You ask, a small tilt in your head, raising a brow, with a quirk to the corner of your lips.
You look calm, carefree, and that playful smirk on your face is almost taunting him but Hoseok knows better than that. He knows not to take the bait in the same way Namjoon and the others have. This is just a facade.Â
A facade.
âHow can I be disappointedâŠwhen it wasnât you who killed him?â He asks and thereâs a small little falter in your lips.
The sharp corner falls and your eyelids rest to show your disappointment in him not catching the fishing hook youâve dropped into the pond. You look upset, as if wondering why he still wishes to believe in you, why he still remembers the girl you once were when you lived with them, when you loved them dearly and when they loved you the same.
Hoseok stares right at you, unblinking, and perhaps thatâs what makes you take a step back, hating his strong pursuit in not believing the words that leave your mouth, hating that he makes you falter, that he seems to hold power over you.
You look away, not wanting him to search through your eyes, and utter, âThereâs no use believing in the girl you thought you knew.â
âJust like how I shouldnât have believed in the girl who lied to me about being alright?â He asks, stopping you from turning your feet and walking away from him. Youâre here for Namjoon, he knows, and sooner or later this alliance between the two gangs may fall apart but before any of that can happen, before he can never see you ever again unless by chance, Hoseok has to say something.
Anything.
Before itâs too late.
âYou never told me you went on your knees,â he says, jaws clenched.
âWhy would I have told you that?â
âDo you think itâs shameful being desperate for something? Wanting love and attention from your loved ones?â
âI donât know, Hoseok,â you look up at him, shrugging, challenging him, âwhy donât you ask Namjoon that?â
He bites his inner cheek, eyes drifting off to the side because he knows. If there were anyone he should have asked that question to, it would be Namjoon.Â
âI could have done something,â he says, voice quieter, upset.
You laugh at those words, shaking your head. âOh Hoseok, there was nothing you could have done at that point. Once a man like Namjoon makes up his mind, not even the strongest wind can make him bend a knee.â Ironic how you were the one begging instead. âHe stopped loving me and the rest followed along because to them, to..you, I will always come second to Namjoon.â
âThatâs notââ
âDonât lie to me,â you cut him off sharply, eyes piercing. âThe number one rule in the mafia is to never betray the gang otherwise you die, and obviously Namjoon would never kill any of you but you have nothing left without the gang right? Even if you had known the truth then, even if they had told you every last detail about what happened, you would have ended up just like the rest of the boys. You would have chosen Namjoon, and I would have been left all alone without anyone to rely on.â With a bitter smile curled along your lips, your eyes drift down to the floor, a flash of memory falling through your mind. âDonât you think I kept everything a secret from you for a reason?â
You look back up at him, a pressed smile, âTo hold onto that last piece of fantasy I blinded myself into living before letting it all fall apart. You would have ended up like them, Hoseok, like the rest of the boys. Even if they still loved me then, even if it was against their will what Namjoon did and even if they resented Namjoon for some time for it, that doesnât mean it didnât hurt. It hurts because you would have done the same, whether you think thatâs true or not, you would have chosen Namjoon, itâs only inevitable.â
You begin to turn away from him, walking off. âYou all loved him more than I, after all, and I would have been your second choice as well. Donât lie to yourself, Jung Hoseok.â
Hoseok doesnât have a say before youâre walking away, leaving him alone in the halls as he hears your heels clicking away.
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.
Itâs silent.
A deafening silence.
You can never get used to silence no matter how long youâve spent almost your entire life drowned in it because when itâs silent, your mind likes to speak. It likes to act. It likes to play with you.
Playing and playing and playing until you get too exhausted it drains all that you are.
You hate silence.
Hate it more than anything.
More than your father perhaps.
âSo,â hence youâre the one to break it with a leg crossing over the other, leaning back as you play on an easygoing expression as if Mister Butlerâs death meant nothing to you and that despite how much you came to resent Namjoon, letting him know that his brother died did nothing to your conscience.Â
âShall we get straight to the point? Weâre ending things, yeah?â
His thick brows knit, chin protruding in the way it always does when heâs angry or serious, his inner cheeks bitten upon.
Thatâs right, hate me some more.
âDo you have nothing to say?â He keeps his voice restrained, holding back his emotions, but you want to push his buttons. Want him to hate you with all that he has.
âDid you want an apology? Want me to get on my knees and beg for your forgiveness like that night almost eleven years ago?â
âY/N.â
âI can do it if youâd like,â you uncross your legs, standing, âI have no shame after all.â
âY/N.â
On your knees, âI apologize forââ
âStop!â He shouts at you, eyes reddening and there are signs of fatigue, nights he spent restless, nights he spent shedding tears for the news that you gave him, the bags he doesnât care to hide, hair imperfect, disheveled, different from his perfect image, the stare in his eyes holding so many emotions itâs a surprise heâs deciding not to hide them before you.
Namjoon is a man who holds his walls up high.
Not as high as you but high enough.
He isnât one to let people read him that easily yet here he is, emotions on full display.
Awkwardly, you stand back up to sit back down on the seat provided for you, feigning an exasperated sigh as if all of this was just a hindrance to your schedule and youâd rather run off killing the people on your hit list.
Namjoon presses his fingers to his temples, trying to keep himself controlled and calm and you frown at the fact that he isnât lashing out more at you.
You want him to hate you even more than he feels now.
âWhy?â He asks, voice strained and quieter.
You shrug. âWas I supposed to know it was your brother I killed then? We didnât even know eachââ
âYou found out your old butler was my brother when you approached me again after ten years. You knew he was dead then and you used that to your advantage, hitting me at my weakest. Why?â
âWhy?â You feign a chuckle as if the answer was that obvious. âTo use you, of course. I needed your power, Namjoon. As a newly developed leader in the mafia world, climbing up the ranks was easy doing it alongside you. You got me to go up against Daejung, helped with Ying and Jummy, and even came to London with me. Not to mention your position as my ally itself scored me a lot of bonuses. Why wouldnât I have used you? You made a great pawn on my chess board.â
A pawn, right.
âThat was all I ever was to you, right? So isnât it fair I did the same to you?â
He hates that silly little smile you press his way.
âDid none of my sincerity ever mean anything to you?â
The talks of the past, a face of offense as if youâre the only one at fault here. Your little smile falls, though a rueful chuckle leaves your lips. âYou talk of the past as if it was just a few years ago. Itâs not been a few years, Namjoon, itâs been ten, almost eleven. And in that span of time, a lot has changed. Do you still blindly believe Iâm still the person I was then in the same way Hoseok still believes in it?â
His eyes harden. âI know you arenât the same.â
âThatâs right, Iâve changed. You used me as a pawn then, right? Discarded my feelings, all my sincerity, and threw me out when I was no longer useful to you. Why should it matter what I do to you now?â
âI didnât use anyone you loved against you.â
âYou used the boys against me.â You stand from your seat, glaring his way, and he follows suit. âYou admitted it, Namjoon, you fell out of love with me, but you falling out of love doesnât mean itâd be the same for the boys but in the end, they chose you.â
âHow is that my fault?â
âIt is your fault. A lot of their actions were their own faults but they were entirely your fault. Having you first, loving you first, and having gotten saved by you left them with no other choice but to choose you. If I had fallen out of love with you, they would have still chosen you. Donât you get that? I wasnât ever going to be a choice in that relationship, I was always on the losing end, and I would have inevitably gotten tossed away to the side whether you stopped loving me or not. If you had just stopped loving me, why didnât you just say that? Why did you have to be a coward and made me believe I wasnât ever going to be enough for you?â
âYou ended up fine anyways,â he argues, âItâs not like you had nowhere else to go. Your father accepted you back with open arms.â
Ended up fine?
Your father welcomed you back with open arms?
You laugh.
Laugh.
And Namjoon watches with slight confusion plastered on his face as fits of laughter leaves your lips so obnoxiously you almost sound crazy and out of your mind.
You are crazy and out of your mind because it sounds so funny to you, his words. Your shoulders tremble, a hand coming up to cover your mouth as your eyes crinkle into crescent moons.
âYou..reallyâŠâ It starts to die down, slowly. âSo thatâs what it was, huh? You decided to play with my feelings, feign the fact that I wasnât enough so Iâd hate you and willingly divorce you on my own so I could return to my dear loving father? That was the story?â When he doesnât answer your question, the silence answers itself.
Namjoon fell out of love and he thought the best decision to make everyone hurt a little less was to return you to your dear father.
Your father.
Where youâd live out a fantasy and be that lovely little daughter protected by a father, loved and cherished by her people, and not get thrown into a lonely room, a cold, white room. Where you did not get neglected, wondering what her next meal would be because sometimes they come in small platters, or sometimes they donât come at all, or sometimes youâd get too afraid of it being poisoned because your father has tried to kill you before as a child.
Once? Twice? No.
You canât count how many times you believed over and over again as a child, thought the food was okay, only to end up in bed sick in the body for days and left on your own to take care of your own self.
Father wanted you dead and he did what he could to try and kill you. You donât know when he stopped, or if he ever did, because by the time you learned to stop believing in the food he fed you, you started relying on your own self to grab the food you were sure hadnât gotten touched yet by anyone.
So came the days when you stopped eating, when you wouldnât eat at all.
Sometimes just bread crumbs you could find in the kitchen, sneaking out in the middle of the night when almost everyone was asleep, stealing bread.
So when you returned, the nightmares and fear returned.Â
Because Bangtan never gave you wasted food or anything that was poisoned. You remember it well, remember keeping your eyes open and pointed, watching the way the servers would serve food in random order, watching the way everyone took a bite first before having enough courage to eat yourself.
You never showed them your fears so they never knew and they still donât.
But youâve always been afraid of food.
And Yuna was the first person you ever trusted to make you food when you returned to the Reaperâs manor. You only ate what she gave you.
Only ate whatever she could make with her horrible cooking skills; eggshells in her egg sandwiches, food too salty, too bitter, too dirty in color, and sometimes they werenât even edible.
But you ate them because she was the only person you could trust. The only one.
If she poisoned you itâd be an accident but you still ate it because it was Yuna. The first Reaper, the very first one. The only one you could trust.
The only one.
âYou know, Iâm glad your brotherâs dead.â
Words uttered that donât have any emotions behind them at all but you utter them with disgust, with contempt, and with hatred for the one who forced you back into that hell and made you fear for every second you lived in that manor when your father was still alive.
There were days when you didnât eat at all, days when brought into the White Room, youâd just lie there against the wall or on the floor, eyes blank and dull, no hope left in them, no words escaping, no cries for help, no more calling for Hoseok because no one would come.
No one.
Nothing kept you warm except a flimsy old blanket Yuna would put on you but even that wasnât enough to keep your temperature up.
Or sometimes your temperature would get too high and youâd tremble in that lonely room. The echoes of Yunaâs cries ringing in your ears but you donât remember a lot of it because every day was like that; painful until you could feel no more.
Painful until you decided to get stronger, to feel all of your fatherâs wrath and all of his torture.
Hurting even more.
Namjoon will never know what his actions had put you through. Heâll never know.
âExcuse me?â So he glares at you when you tell him those words about his brother, believing in your lies, believing in your anger.
You see the way his eyes shake, hands balling into fists and if you were a man, youâre sure he wouldnât have held himself back from hauling a punch right onto your face. Itâs funny to you, so funny, because you want him to hit you, you want him to hurt you.
You want to feel the pain.
âYou..youâre a monster.â
âThatâs right, I am.â You play along with his anger, fueling it, wanting him to hate you even more. âIâm a monster, Namjoon. I killed the father who loved me so dearly and I killed the butler who showed me nothing but kindness. Do you know how gentle he was with me? When Iâd cry, heâd hold me, when Iâd bite onto my lower lips to keep the tears in, heâd worry about my lips bleeding. Heâd give me extra treats, stealing the sweets when no one was looking. Heâd ask âmy lady, have you eaten?â or âyoung miss, donât eat too fast, the food isnât going anywhere.â And when Iâd get in trouble and hide away from the adults, heâd be the very first one whoâd find me. He always found me. No matter where Iâd hide, no matter where I was, heâd find me. Heâd be the first one to notice if something was wrong. Always checked my temperature in the morning, always made sure I was eating well, always made sure he was around to play with me if father was too busy or if mother was too sick to pay attention. Your brother loved me. And you know what I did?â
You show him your fingers, the index and middle pressed up against one another with the thumb off to the side, and slowly point it towards your temple, playing a trigger pulled and jerk your head to the side, laughing in Namjoonâs face.
âI killed him, Namjoon. I killed him. I told the Reapers to pull the trigger and he fell dead right before my foot, shocked I betrayed him.â
Namjoon trembles, eyes drifting off to the side, shaking, unsteady, breath held up against him as if he canât breathe.
âI killed your brother, Namjoon,â you chant like a psychopath. Chanting, chanting, chanting. âI killed Jungwon, I killed your brother.â
Heâs weak in his knees, he canât hold himself up.
His hands come up to hold his face, breathing in, breathing out, while you chant and chant, until Namjoon looks through the cracks of his fingers, piercing eyes, red, a glare mirroring that of the devil, and itâs then that you realize he must really want to kill you right now.
So you push his buttons even further.
âKill me, Namjoon.â
His hands slowly and shakily fall from his face, wrinkles in between his brows. âWhat?â
You take a step forward, ignoring all warning signs from your body because Leehyun still has lasting effects on you, and take Namjoonâs wrists, forcing his hands to wrap around your neck with a strong hold. He tries to pull back but you donât let him.
âKill me right now,â you dare, eyes staring straight into his soul. âDo it, do us both a favor, Namjoon. If you hate me that much, you wouldnât hesitate to kill me.â
For what he did to you, calling you names, belittling you, made you feel unwanted, forced you to rip your ring off, kicked you out, throwing you back to your father. Death feels less painful than all the things you went through when you ran back to the arms of your father.Â
For throwing you back into the lionâs den when you had escaped for the first time, Namjoon killing you would have been no different.
âWhy donât you just kill me?â
âAre you crazy?! Let go of me.â
âEnd me!â You push against his hold, tightening both your hands around your neck. âDo it now! You hate me, donât you? Iâm giving you permission now so just do it! Iâm right here in your territory so thereâs no one to stop you and even after the Reapers get the news of my death, itâs not as if they can kill you. You're stronger than me, stronger than us, and you have men much stronger than we will ever be. So whatâs holding you back? End all of your sufferings and youâll never have to see my disgusting face ever again. End me..-!â
âStop!â
In the midst of trying to pull away and rid of his grip around your neck, Namjoon accidentally pushes you too hard so you end up on the floor and his eyes widen, a gasp leaving his lips. âY/N, Iââ
âKill me already!â Youâre shouting still, wheezing from the chokehold, coughs leaving you, and while he gets distracted by those painful coughs, your eyes find the gun he placed on the coffee table just before the talk and rush to reach for it.
Only to have it snatched away by your ex-husband.
He presses something on his watch and the door opens, revealing Yoongi and Seokjin.
âDetain her,â Namjoon commands, and they look with confusion.
âWhat?â
âSheâs not in her right mind.â
Your eyes widen, rushing to stand, only to have someone holding you down. âNamjoon, stop being a coward and do it already!â You twist your body against Yoongi and Seokjinâs holds, trying to push them off. âKill me already!â
Other footsteps are heard, the rest of them have probably come at the sound of your voice, but youâre still jerking about with all of your might. Why does it matter theyâre here now? Rushing into the room, eyes widened and filled with a type of fear that wants to understand whatâs happening and why youâre acting the way that you are.
Why does it matter now? Why do they have to act like they care? They could have cared then and it would have made a difference but caring now does nothing for you.
âY/N-â
âGet off me!â
You use your legs, kicking Seokjin away, and use your head to shoot back and hit Yoongi right on his forehead, causing both their grips to falter for a second, and in that second, you escape from them.
âY/N-â Namjoon comes to stop you but you punch your fist right into the coffee table, causing the glass to shatter from underneath and allowing your skin to tear, blood pooling all about.
The room falls silent.
Frozen.
âDo you know how much it hurts?â You look up, meeting his eyes. You stare at the gun in his hand, the one you failed to grab, the shattered coffee table, and turn at the rest of them before letting out a chuckle as if everything about this was funny. But itâs not funny. Itâs not.
âI thought I stopped feeling long ago but it still hurts,â you say at the hand that bleeds with glass shards cut deep inside your skin but they know you arenât just talking about your hand. âIt hurts so much. But you donât care one bit, do you? Just like that night years ago when I fell on my knees and begged for the pain to stop. You didnât care then, why would you care now?â
You look at them again, feeling that familiar ache in your chest, a familiar pain you havenât felt in a long, long time.
âI never begged for help until that last second but you knew, didnât you? You knew that I was afraid and that I wanted help. You knew I was hurting. But what did you do but live in ignorance bliss, pretending as if nothing had changed and that Namjoon wasnât purposefully hurting me just to force me into making a decision that he wanted; me out of your lives. You knew everything and you did nothing. If you tell me you cared then, that you did still love me then, then I call that bullshit because how can you love someone and willingly watch them fall apart?
âAh but I get it,â you sigh, scoffing, âyou couldnât do anything because it was against the mafiaâs code, right? Because Namjoonâs your boss, because loving me still and taking my side meant betraying your boss, the boss that saved you, the boss that loved you. If you went against him, if you chose me over him, that would have meant betraying the gang and you have nothing left if you left the gang, right?â
You look at Namjoon, eyes hardening. âThatâs what you did, Namjoon. You forced them into a corner, forced them to choose you. Because of your stubborn and selfish ass, you broke apart what could have worked out if you had only tried just a little bit more. Oh, but why does it matter? Why should you continue trying when I could just return to my dear precious gang and live a life of bliss, escaping your abuse and your selfish acts, returning to the people that actually loved me? Because to you, in your head, you thought that Iâd be happier if I was to return rather than remain in a toxic environment right? And then everyone would be happy because no matter how much the guys resented you then, in the end theyâd forgive you and youâd all return to loving once again and weâd all live happily, ever, after. Me with my gang. You with yours.â
How funny is that?
Everyone lived happily in the end, happy and joyful and back to loving once again as if those three years with you had never existed in the first place. As if you never existed in the first place.
Everyone lived happily ever after.
Everyone but you.
You turn to your bleeding fist and hold it up to take a closer look, hating how your hand trembles, how you canât seem to hide your anger and pain and fear this time.
No one says anything, no one answers.
Itâs silent. You hate silence.
Leehyun walks into your mind when you remember touching Namjoon and letting Yoongi and Seokjin touch you. Theyâre all here in this room, watching you, staying completely silent because they know all the words youâve said are true and have no courage to say anything that will rebuke you.
Your left hand comes up to hold your right arm, hugging yourself against the cold chill that falls down your body.
Itâs dark, why is it so dark? You donât remember the room being this dark when you first entered and no one is moving, no one has done anything to make this room darker but itâs dark. Dark.
And cold.
Father likes it when itâs cold. Father likes it when you tremble like a leaf, telling you that youâre better off getting used to the cold but you never did and you donât think you ever will.
You hate the cold.
Hate it.
You hate the silence, the dark, and the cold.
And when you look up, this time the faces in the room arenât clear in your vision anymore. Everyone is a blur so you canât make out what they look like, how theyâre looking at you, if they still look concerned, if they still look the same as they had when they first walked in.
Your chest feels heavy, your throat feels as if someone is holding onto it like that moment you forced Namjoonâs hands around you.
Heâs not touching you, heâs a few feet away but heâs not touching you. No one is. But you feel a presence, a heavy presence that constricts your breathing, that touches your skin, the nape of your neck.
Why did you touch him? Why did you force him to touch you?
Get away. Please get away.
You take a step back, afraid, and stumble upon something. Perhaps your own foot. But when someone holds an arm out, you immediately put on a defensive stance.
âDonât touch me,â you demand. âDonât come near me.â
Youâre shaking.
Shaking.
The room is wide, large, so you move to a corner, away from them, and slide down the wall to rest on your bottom because your legs feel weak, because you canât keep holding yourself up anymore.
You hear a voice in the distance, someone saying Mingyuâs name, but you donât know what theyâre saying. You feel eyes, eyes, and put your head down, afraid.
A second passes.
A heartbeat.
You count the beat of your heart which drums loud and hard against your chest to let you know that youâre still alive, that youâre still living. You count it.
One beat. Two beats. Three beats.
Mingyu says that if heâs not around, you have to get into a corner where no one can touch you, where no one is around, and listen to your heartbeat. You have to count it until he comes.
Until he comes.
Breathe in and out. Donât forget to breathe.
Four beats. Five beats.
Six. Seven. EightâŠ
So Mingyu gets called after Namjoon makes a command and when he arrives, youâre sat in the corner of a room, left alone, head lowered, surrounded by seven men who watch your every move from a distance, not wanting you to ever leave their vision in case you do something irrational again.
Heâs shocked at the scene, at the hands that still bleed because you refused any treatment, refused anyone to touch you, to come near you.
Mingyu takes a glance at Namjoon for some answers but he says nothing and only looks away to hide his gun behind his back so Mingyu turns back to you and walks over to you, kneeling before you.
â...Boss,â he calls, gently. He makes sure he doesnât sound cautious, makes sure he doesnât sound afraid, worried. âHey, Boss. Iâm here. Itâs Mingyu.â
You look up slowly and he has to keep himself back from letting out a gasp at the red ring around your neck. Someone touched you but he knows Namjoon wouldnât have deliberately hurt you on purpose. Did you do something? What happened? Why are you like this?
You say nothing but those eyes of yours are dead. Tired. And when he presses a hand against your cheek, you lean into it, closing your eyes, nuzzling against the warmth of his palm, and barely utter out;
â.....Take me home, Mingyu.â
When the room empties of your presence, the rest of them turn to Namjoon for an explanation, for anything, wondering what had happened, wondering why you demanded such actions from him, wondering why you were like that when they walked into the room.
But the leader keeps quiet for some time, for the longest time, as he looks out the window where he sees you carried in Mingyuâs arms and getting taken away into a black car. It is only when the car disappears completely from his sight does he speak.
âShe didnât do it,â he says and they keep silent, waiting for him to keep going. Namjoon turns from the window to face them and stares at the corner where you had sat. âThere are a lot of things Y/N does but what she does bestâŠâ he looks at Hoseok, âis lie.â
He takes the gun from his back, examining it as the memories of you trying to grab it flashes in his mind.
âI killed him, I killed him, I killed him.â You chanted over and over again.
âEven back then she was the same. That part of her will never change.â
âYouâre saying..â
âShe didnât kill Jungwon,â he concludes. âAnd everything we knew about herâŠeverything we thought we knewâŠ..all of it was a lie.â
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Before I Leave You (Pt.41)
(Omegaverse au, Mafia au, Bts x Reader)
Summary: Taeâs first day living as a girl looks something like thisâŠ
Pairing: Beta! Yoongi, Omega! Reader, Omega! Jungkook, Omega! Seokjin, Alpha! Namjoon, Alpha! Hoseok, Alpha! Taehyung, Alpha! Jimin,
Tags: No plot just fluff, Omega-space, pup-space, Fluff, Comfort no hurt, Trans! Tae, Discussions of Dysphoria, fear of transphobia but no real transphobia, internalized transphobia, internalized misogyny, brief non-sexual nudity, Brief 4th wall break, possessive behavior,
W/c: 15.1k
A/n:Â This ended up being a lot longer then i originally planned, but maybe thatâs just cuz Iâm so soft for taetae đ„ș this chapter is coming out on my birthday! iâve put together a little wishlist over on amazon of some birthday things, but this also functions as a birthday present for you guys too!!!
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Taeâs first day of girlhood looks something like this:
The kitchen is heavy with the scent of pancakes when Jimin and her walk into it hand in hand. The air so thick and sweet that Tae might believe it was just you making it smell that way.Â
They bundle in at the counter, on the receiving end of love and breakfast in the form of Hobiâs pancakes and omega kisses. Jin pecks Tae on the cheek, and she can tell her presence was missed just but the way that Jungkookâs lips fit against her mouth- how much they both linger.
Having separate nests is always hard, but Tae canât help but feel it was needed last night. Maybe sheâll need it tonight too, perhaps itâs best for everyone if she just takes her time with this.Â
Warming them up to the idea of her being a girl gradually might be easier for everyone. She shouldnât say anything- she shouldnât be obtrusive with her presence. She immediately decides that if anyone uses âheâ accidentally or calls her Taehyung today she wonât say a single thing.
Ideas like that are immediately thrown out the window when Namjoon wraps his arms around Taeâs shoulders and beams down at her, âHowâs my favorite girl doing this morning?â
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