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Ghost man

A request from Instagram on Life of Draco Malfoy

It doesn't Sting, nor does it burn something inside, it doesn't change anything. Burning that list that he made notes of to how to be a man, now burning it didn't make any difference. It Only caused the smoke to go up his face, his fingers heating up as the spreading fire on the paper reaches closer to his fingers from which he held, the ashes falling in the bin he kept beneath. It didn't change anything, it doesn't move anything inside him as he thought it would and it didn't because now it was too late. He had only been a child, at a mere age of 16 when he had learned it was already too late, already too late to correct his mistakes, so Early in his life he was done with living, so young. So early in his life he knew it was too late, what child thought that ? Him. But now, it's far too late for anything to ever even be changed, he's already the man he loathes.

He can sense it when he looks at the flower vendor across where he lives, how his heart is rolled on his sleeve, how he always gives one rose to the little girl without cost and the guy behind the counter in departmental store who somehow always puts candies in Draco's bag for free or the girl who sits in the pharmacy who always happens to give him an extra strip of paracetamol or his friends from school who are still in touch and everyone once in a while meets up at a brunch and fight over who would pay but Draco, he's a ghost man just living in a mortal world. Where there should've been a heart, there's just a large black hole like somebody had taken it away ages ago and told him he didn't deserve it and gave it to someone who needed a heart. How do you survive without the heart? You don't, you're dead.

He's dead inside and out like the core of a log, he have been for a long time but sometimes his non existent black holed heart twitches for love, a forbidden love even perhaps or any kind of love. He's on all the pages of business magazines, in articles over front pages of newspapers, he's one of the most successful event planner in and outside wizarding World, almost a celebrity, the worth, the fame, the money he have and all for nothing. What wouldn't he do to just trade it to go back to his manor when he was five years old and frolick and roll around in the grass rather than sitting on the table being taught table manners. What wouldn't he do to trade to get a time turner so he could undo his life. What wouldn't he trade to just feel loved, not just true love but the love that is poured out from the heart of a mother to the son in a night tales, the love that is given by his father in a sweet licorice candies, the love that a friend gives when they kiss their cheeks, the love that is shared between friends, the love that could be shared by lovers. What wouldn't he do to trade his life to be the flower vendor across the street or the girl at the pharmacy or to be the guy from departmental store or his friends, just to feel loved and maybe cherished and Just to be offered a little smile as he would walk to his office but nothing would be traded because nothing is worth the trade, it was all too late to press the button of life and change it. It was far too late, he had already been neglected by the father who was supposed to love him, already been with a mother who talked more of the events and his work than asking how's he been, he had already been the friend everyone just thinks is suitable for a one night stand, he had already been the friend everyone was intimidated of, he had already been the guy who's been hated by so many out of spite and jealousy.

But it's not like he didn't had everything. He had everything. Everything he didn't want including the perfume that rests in the back of his wardrobe he got it when he was merely 14, the silk pajamas that are far too itchy to be worn, the tuxedo he no longer fits in and 10 more which he doesn't even like, the bean bag that had never been sat on, the expensive china he never had anyone to even share with, the expensive watches his mother bought him which now are almost 6 Years old and had stopped working, the expensive bed sheets gifted by someone that is somewhere in the attic that he Never would use, the expensive wallet that he can never for the life of him change to because he's grown attached to his 8 year old wallet, the snow globe he got when he was only 7 that sits on his showcase he rarely ever even sees, the cuff links his father bought him when he was 15 on Christmas that he had only worn in the day of Christmas and never sought to even spare another glance at it, he had everything yet, he had absolutely nothing, he lived in an Empty place all by himself to share nothing with no one.

He thinks a lot of the times when he was so frustrated at his parents, at his teacher's, at his friends, at the people, at the world, everyone, when he just wanted to change to someone who was a better person, who gave free potion lessons to young pupils, someone who wasn't arrogant and had been in one book nerd clubs, someone who wasn't thursted upon with decision like who to be be, what to become, someone who was allowed to make mistakes, someone who was allowed to spill over the table, someone who wasn't forced to be the top of the class, someone who wasn't ashamed of himself, someone who had his own life he curated but he wasn't that person and he was never going to be because there's just so little left in his life to change that now the deadness that flows in him forbids him to even try to change anything. He wishes a lot that he had someone like Harry Potter had to tell him what's wrong, to help him create a good path, to tell him that his life was his own, people who might've even praised him and loved him but he had none and he was convinced that he was never going to find anyone. Who would want to be with a dead man?

And so where he sits right now burning the list of things he had made notes of how to be and who to become, it doesn't change anything and he lights his cigarette from the burning fire, letting the burning paper slip from his hand and drop into the bin after it had burnt his dead finger's. He holds the cigarette between his finger and walks over to the balcony of his dead like apartment and brings the cigarette to his lips, he doesn't like the taste, but the likes how it's killing him. The power of cigarette was infact in the fact that it burnt his lungs, killing him slowly, that was now his purpose of life, wasn't it?

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Two Ghosts

- Halloween but Drarry

" so who's this secret boyfriend of yours ?" Hermione asked as she helped put the last batch of pumpkin looking cupcakes in the oven, then dusting off her hands in the tissue.

" It's secret for a reason mione " Harry replied as he chewed on the batter then immediately threw it up on the Napkin knowing it tasted very raw.

" Mate, just tell us who it is, I'm sure we're gonna love him anyways" Ron added doing the same as Harry.

" I know but we're both just not ready to you know just meet each other's friends. It's like meeting each other's family because we grew up together and it seems like a big deal for both of us, we just need a bit of a time alright. But he is coming to the party tonight, so maybe then you can sort of see him or something " Harry explained shrugging leaning on the kitchen counter.

" I don't get it though Harry, we as families as you put it that way should know who he is and it's not like you've been dating for a couple of days or something, you've going out for 4 months and I can see it on yout face how serious it is, so just please- please let us meet him?" Hermione pretty much begged

" I don't know you guys, you lot can be a bit too much- and I don't want to overwhelm him. He- he's just sort of you know not that too much of a guy- he's silent sort of person-"

" Mate we'd be as silent as possible- we won't even speak, we'll use sign language " Ron interjected.

Harry shook his head laughing half heartedly then frowning with a little smile " I don't know-"

" Harry, we're gonna love him no matter what. We just want to know who is this special guy who lights up your life like no one ever did " Hermione quoted Harry from one of the few conversations Harry's boyfriend had been a hot topic of.

"I mean-"

" please- Please Harry, I promise I won't bite " Ron interjected again almost on the kitchen counter to beg in front of Harry.

Harry started laughing then finally nodded " Fine, I'll- just tell him that you guys really want to meet "

Hermione pumped her hand in the air as a victory and then the oven beeped.

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" So who is it ?" Ron eagerly asked fixing his vampire teeth for the millionth time.

" I- he's- I'll go get him " Harry nervously replied.

" It's the guy in the ghost Dress right, same as yours- you guys really needed to be creative " Ron shrugged.

Harry rolled his eyes from under the white sheet with two eye Holes then informed he's gonna bring his boyfriend to meet them. He wiped his sweaty palms at the side of his sheet then promptly walked towards his boyfriend then upon reaching tapping him on his shoulder because Harry was apparently shorter than him.

" Hey- you look great- beautiful even " Harry blushed then shook his head coming to the point and leaving to reply to the compliments for later.

" Ron and Hermione wants to meet you- they've been nagging me about it all week and now that you're here they would burn holes in me if I didn't make you meet them "

"Not gonna lie- same goes for Pansy and Blaise- they've been constantly eating my head off to just meet you- but I just-"

" I'm afraid they wouldn't like you "

" me too Harry, but we had to one day " He shrugged. Harry huffed out a breath then nodded.

" are you sure you want to meet them ?"

His boyfriend nodded. Harry then nervously took his hands in his own and started walking towards Ron and Hermione.

" yours Palms are all sweaty Harry"

" Nervous " Harry replied shortly.

His boyfriend stopped them for a little, then kissed the top of Harry's head with the sheets in between " it's going to be alright "

Harry immediately blushed then took him to his friends.

" Guys- that's my boyfriend D- boyfriend " Harry told them.

He shook hands with his friend's in a nice gesture but didn't introduce himself.

" seriously Harry- We can't know his name " Hermione whined.

" I told you guys- we're just not ready " Harry pointed.

" we're really not- it's too much for us right or at least we think so but I would really love to meet you guys one day without these stupid sheets in between that I've tripped over 15 times " His boyfriend said.

" Harry's idea ?" Ron asked chewing on his cupcake.

He nodded then Ron Started telling him about the story of how previous year in Halloween Hermione dressed the couple as bunnies and Ron had collapsed on the ground three times almost losing his tooth in the process.

" glad we didn't dress up as bunnies then " they Chuckled.

" I wanted to go for this aladdin and jasmine but apparently my sweet boyfriend Harry refused to be jasmine -"

" I will never dress up as jasmine- the fake boobs were too much " harry rolled his eyes making the rest of them laugh. They talked a bit more until they decided Harry should meet his boyfriends friends too.

As they were walking off they heard Hermione say " His voice and accent was awfully familiar- as if I hear it somewhere everyday- just can't remember "

They shared a nervous and immediately fled off to his boyfriend's friends.

" So you're the best sex he's ever had- not going to lie- offended " Blaise put his hand over his chest to pretend as if he was hurt but Pansy slapped his arm and told him to shut it off.

" I was kidding of course " But Harry was blushing irresistibly. Good thing they were under sheets.

" He's just like that- I gotta say whoever you are- you put a smile on Draco's face no one's ever been able to put- like yesterday he started blushing just by me mentioning that you guys would look a cute couple dressed up as Mr. And Mrs. Smith- like- seriously and god the endless stories about how my boyfriend cooks great or how he's so amazing, my boyfriend this- my boyfriend that- I've never seen him so swooned- and you know- "

" Pansy- I think that's enough embarassment for today " Draco was furiously blushing and Harry knew it in the way he was still holding his hand but still didn't let go and clutched his hand in a soft grip to reassure that he loves this.

" Oh please- ignore him I want to know all the embarassing stories " Harry insisted laughing. They talked for a long while until Draco basically dragged them out of the conversation and took him to the photobooth, shoving him inside with not much of a push.

" Wha-" But Draco grabbed Harry's white sheet and pulled it over his head, then doing the same with his own and kissing him abruptly. Harry took it by surprise in the beginning but followed him as soon as he realised he was kissing his boyfriend and how much better now it felt to finally have his alone time with him.

" what was that for ?" Harry panted smiling.

" Just missed your lips " Draco smiled, his face and his lips all red but in a cute way.

" then do it again " and they did. They made out inside the booth for a while until they finally put the booth in use and decided to put the quarter in.

" I- really like you " Harry suddenly said. Draco Turned to him in surprise.

" I really like you and it scares me " Harry said.

Draco smiled at Harry then took his hand in his own and kissing his knuckles " if it makes it any better- I'm always scared but when I'm with you- everything is just better- like a hundred times better "

Harry smiled at Draco irresistibly then finding it impossibily hard to not kiss him so he did, softly over his lips then pressed his forehead against Draco's.

" you make my everyday better too "

And they chuckled.

" think they liked me ?"

" absolutely " Harry reassured " me ?"

" they've never liked anyone better " Draco reassured then they finally turned to face the camera and saw the shutter go off. They waited for one more but it didn't happen and finally came to the conclusion that the pictures were clicked while they had been busy kissing and adoring each other.

They took out the picture and sat there staring at their pictures that had somehow became one of the best moments captured live.

" this one's my favourite " Draco pointed in the one where Harry blushed while Draco was kissing his hand.

" Always a gentlemen " Harry chuckled. Draco chuckled then kissed him softly and decided to finally get out of the booth after having covered them back in their sheets.

" oops " Draco immediately said as he opened the curtain and there stood all their friends.

" we can explain-"

" About time " They all groaned.

Harry frowned tossing his sheets over his head " what ?"

" we'd been waiting for you two to get together for centuries " Pansy rolled her eyes. Draco too tossed his sheets over his head exactly as confused as Harry.

" really ?"

" of couse- could you two be any more perfect for each other " Hermione pointed. Harry smiled then looked at Draco.

" we don't have to hide "

Draco smiled back at Harry put his arms around his shoulder and kissing the top of his head, again in a soft gesture to convey that he was Infact very happy this happened " we don't have to hide "

They all talked off with each other complaining about their failed plans to get them together while Harry and Draco just enjoyed seeing their friends bickering with each other and it made them realise how much they loved this, a space where they could be with each other without the fear and seeing the people who mattered them the most liking each other.

" Wanna dance to Bon Jovi ?" Harry asked Draco while their friends were still bickering.

" Always " and they fled off to dance floor with their sheets put on themselves again like two ghosts enjoying themselves mimicking the electronic guitar in the bridge of the song with full enthusiasm and in those moments of laughing off while dancing they realised if there was one person they want to share all of their dances with where they play guitar in the air while everyone stared at them as if they were crazy, then they were that person for each other.

I never go extra but today's Halloween and it won't be halloween if you're not extra. Happy Halloween everyone 🎃

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Shining, Shimmering, Splendid

Center of the bed, limbs everywhere, a ray of sun golden across your face – you don’t look real. I can hardly believe it; all this – all you – all mine. Luminous, immeasurably precious under my sheets. I could spend all morning looking at you. I’m far too happy for sleep, anyway.

50 words for the @drarrymicrofic​ prompt, lucent. Title is from ‘a whole new world’ from Aladdin.

Da Capo- Part 13- The epilogue

Part 1 to 5 // Part 6 to 12 //

TW- IMPLIED SOFT SMUT

La fin

The sweat trickled down his back in the obvious summer heat of June. The cascading sun was making everything hotter than usual and it seemed like the hottest day of the year. The hot heavy traffic that was normally very visible had vanquished in thin air, everyone avoiding to go anywhere out unless it wasn’t air-conditioned and yet, Harry was coldly staring at the lizard on the wall, basking in the sun and watching it change its position a few times in the last 5 minutes to eat any insect that came insight as if Mozart, the lizard Harry named had been so hungry after a fight with his wife that she refused to cook food for him or banished him from the house and asked him to look for his own meal and here he was eating whatever was available even if the aftertaste almost made him spit it out, he ate it because he had no choice left of his own but to fill his stomach with whatever was available for the mere survival. Mozart changed its position and ate his next prey and Harry interestingly watched as he tilted his head upward as though he enjoyed this one but Merlin knew if it was she or he but in his dead company Harry liked to think it was a He. Mozart swallowed another one and then remained still as the sun shone over his body and he relished as one does on the beach and didn’t sought to change his position anymore, as if he was already full, this thought disturbed Harry. How can someone be so done so quickly? Yet he kept staring at him, almost waiting for it changes its position anymore, he didn’t and Harry only broke out of his interesting watch show on Mozart until the church bell across the street had rung loudly and it suddenly reminded him to call Draco again, he awaited for an answer. 

He padded inside the living room barefoot, still very white as if they had been very cold and wiped the sweat off from his body with a small hand towel he had left on the couch and finally dialed Draco’s number in a haste and just as hastily as he had called, as hastily Draco had picked up, also very quickly like he had been waiting for the call for a very long time and he had just left his chair to finally give up or to bring a book to read while he waited for the call but just as he had gotten up, the phone had rung and he had sworn at it ‘why not when I was sat’ but he didn’t let it resonate in his voice. 

“I want to “ 

“ Are you sure ?” 

“ It would make me very Happy” and he could hear his smile on the phone as they chatted a little more, also making future arrangements. 

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It had been 6 months or so, or maybe more since that call happened and they had stepped into a very different phase of their life. And right now Harry was happily hanging up the call with Molly after having learned on the phone to make Alison Roman’s swordfish with crushed olives and had just kept in the oven the pies to bake. Harry had been decorating the fish plate when the door opened and Draco walked in with his Bags with clothes enough to spend 4 days before they’d leave for New year’s eve. 

“You’re here” Harry happily said as he wiped his hands in a kitchen towel and wanted to help Draco’s bag into the living room but Draco had other plans and had pulled Harry in a compassionate kiss, not letting go until his heart had forgotten that he hadn’t kissed Harry in 3 weeks. 

“ So missed me ?” Harry teased very much aware that he was still holding onto his Kashmere maroon sweater. 

“ Very “ Draco smiled placing another small kiss on Harry’s lips and allowing the intimacy of his hand to run through his sweater as if he wanted so much more and yet nothing but enjoy the feeling of his sweater. 

“ I missed you too” Harry had said after the kiss, brushing some loose strands from off Draco’s face “ You had been growing hair ?” He asked 

Draco nodded happily “ something new to try, bored of the same old short blond hair” 

“Well I think they look absolutely wonderful, in fact I like the long hair better than the short ones, give’s me more to hold onto” Harry whispered until both of them grew more flustered till the point they couldn’t stop themselves from kissing again and this time devouring the taste of each other’s lips in their own and only then had Harry realized, it had been a long time since they last kissed this way. 

They broke apart to the sound of the oven going off, obviously.

“ So what have you planned for our special Christmas in Paris?” Draco finally asked pushing his bags into the living room corner and sitting down on one of the kitchen stools. 

“Well that is a surpise-” 

“ What ?” Draco interjected surprised. 

“ Yes, it is a surprise and I know I don’t normally do them but I thought it’d be nice for a change. In the meantime as I prepare the table why don’t you go and freshen up and say hi to your Trina “ Trina was the plant Draco had named, it had happened in one drunken night when Harry and he had returned stumbling from a Bar they found nearby and the conversation had funnily turned into why Plants don’t have a name like human does and why do they have to be called as their species name and how weird it would be to be called homo sapiens all the time, Therefore Trina. It was among the many habits they just grew into and couldn’t get rid off. 

Draco nodded and left to freshen up and say hi to Trina while Harry did as he had said, readied the table. 

“Hey, isn’t this the picture from the Last christmas ?” Draco asked as he walked into the living room with a framed picture in his hand he had found kept just over the fireplace. 

“ Oh yeah, I had forgotten about it until I was cleaning and had found it, then I just got it framed. Nice picture though right ?” Draco nodded and added that he too would like a copy so he can keep it too in his flat back in Britain.

It seemed wild how long ago the last Christmas seemed like, only last year had they spent Christmas in London and wandering off the city late at night after all the Christmas dinners. It was the best memory Harry had of Draco laughing. He remembers even that when he just wanted to hold Draco while they were walking miles to god knows where but the thought of just being together wrapped in fuzzy oversized sweaters and trench coat, Harry remembered wanting to be held and just hold so they had some memory of spending Christmas together because he was still so confused about everything that he was afraid that one day he himself would just flip the switch and would utter the words of not wanting to see him again but back then they weren’t together, they had been nothing more than friends until June when they had finally decided that they could no longer pretend they didn’t want each other in ways more than just a friend. It had resulted in a fight even that time but Draco had only left Harry with two options: one, either they could keep pretending they were fine not being each other, or second, they could do exactly what their hearts desired ignoring the uncertainty of everything, so did Harry wanted to? Harry did, he really did and until now he hadn’t regretted saying he wanted to except doing a long-distance relationship and more of a relationship on a phone call than in actual life but they had grown to love it, even if they sometimes resented it, it gave both of them their liberty yet didn’t leave them absolutely stranded. It was like Harry phrased, just what they needed.

They discussed over lunch about the evening plans to just wander off about in the city and see the decorations and stop by one of Harry’s readings he had to do at the community college. It was usual now, his readings at the community college and he absolutely loved them and so did Draco. It gave Harry a chance to explore his interests and illuminate his talents that were completely devoid of the talents he inherited from Magic, the whole magical world seemed so distant to Harry yet always with him. Draco nagged him a lot about using Magic in everyday life a lot for some basic things yet somehow a part of Harry when said goodbye to a lot of things, magic for some time became one of them but he knew one day he would find his ways back to the world where he belonged, just not yet. 

As decided they spent the day roaming around the city and later around the evening they headed to Harry’s reading. Draco promised to sit in the back without a word and just appreciate Harry from a distance while after the reading he would meet a few people while Draco would silently wait for him and ultimately they would head back to Harry’s flat. 

Harry folded and unfolded the paper a lot, stuffing it back in his coats pocket, he was suddenly aware of how nervous he really was even though he had done this a lot of times, yet he was. He adjusted the mic on the podium according to his height and glanced at the back to Draco who had raised a thumb at Harry wishing him a silent good luck, Harry fondly smiled and his worries seemed to dissolve little by little as he kept his eyes on Draco. It was Draco he ever needed to look at for his heart to race back to normal. Draco it was, it always had been, will be. 

“Bonsoir à tous” 

“ Cette poésie spécifique va pour le dos, qui n'ont absolument aucune idée de ce que je dis mais j'espère que vous comprendriez si seulement un peu”

(This one specific poetry goes for the in the back, who have absolutely no idea what I'm saying but i hope you would understand if only a little) 

A few turned their heads to look at Draco and a few just smiled like they just admired the existence of someone Harry was dedicating his words to.

“ Quand tu peux exister comment je ne t'aime pas “

(When you can exist how do I not love you. ) 

“ Je vois dans la façon dont tu passes ta main dans mes draps et me demande si c'est du coton“

(I see in the way you run your hand through my sheets and ask me if it's cotton) 

“ Je vois aussi dans ta façon de prendre nos photos encadrées et de sourire“ 

(I also see in the way you pick up our framed pictures and smile )

“ Je vois ce que nous avons perdu et je souhaite quand je te regarde de tout reprendre mais je t'aimais alors et je t'aime maintenant mais je ne peux pas te promettre de t'aimer pour toujours de la même manière parce que je ne sûr si j'existerai pour toujours“

( I see it what we've lost and i wish it when i look at you to take it all back but i loved you then and i love you now but i can't promise to love you forever the same way because I'm not sure if I'll exist forever) 

“ On ne sait même pas s'il existe pour toujours mais si c'est le cas, c'est dans tes yeux, dans tes bras, dans ton emprise, dans ton cœur, dans ton âme car tu existeras pour“ 

(We don't even know if forever exist but if it does, it is in your eyes, in your arms, in your hold, in your heart, in your soul because you will exist forever, i will not)

“ Parce que je ne suis qu'un mortel avec le même cœur et la même âme mais toi tu es extraordinaire"

( Because i'm just a mortal with the same heart and the same soul but you, you are extraordinary)  

“ Tu n'es pas que toi, tu es autre chose, quelque chose hors de ma portée” 

( You are not just you, you are something else, something beyond my reach )

“ Mais alors tu m'as voulu et donc me voici et je t'ai voulu beaucoup plus“

( But then you have wanted me and so here i am and I've wanted you much more )

“ Peut-être qu'il y a une raison pour laquelle je parle une autre langue, alors peut-être que tu trouveras mon amour plus qu'il ne l'est parce que l'amour est dans les mots n'est-ce pas, caché dans les langues” 

( Maybe there's a reason why i speak another language, so that maybe you find my love more than it is because love is in the words isn't it, hidden in languages )

“ Mais aujourd'hui si tu comprends ça, tiens moi dans tes bras ce soir, dans tes yeux et redemande moi si mes draps sont en coton “ 

(But today if you understand this, Hold me in your arms tonight, in your eyes and ask me again if my bed sheets are cotton)

“ Peut-être qu'alors je dirai que c'est de la soie pas du coton et ensuite nous nous emmitouflerions et nous dormirons à nouveau et puis je te dirais combien je t'aime, dis que quand tu existes comment puis-je ne pas t'aimer” 

( Maybe then i'll say that its silk not cotton and then we'd bundle up together and we'll sleep again and then i would tell you how much i love you, tell that when you exist how can i not love you )

The room broke in a minute applause then a little louder and some intrigued listener whipped their heads backward and ushered words in french to Draco. Harry smiled from across the room to Draco then finally got off walking only to him and kissing him on the face. 

“ un homme chanceux que tu es “ (one lucky man you are ) one of the readers there had told Draco. He had nodded his head as though he understood but as soon as Harry and Draco left the place, it was his first question. 

“ ne pas répondre “ Harry chuckled, intertwining their hands together and stumbling back to his place (not answering ) 

“ Guess i’ll have to relearn french after all” Draco rolled his eyes, Harry only laughed. 

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Late at night when after the dinner they had finally decided to go to bed and Harry was stroking Draco’s arm softly, Draco turned a little to Harry, staring into his face but not saying anything. 

“ what ?” Harry asked 

“ You said something about me tonight didn’t you? That’s why everyone kept saying something or the other “ Draco said, his hand lying flatly over Harry’s bare stomach, enjoying the intimacy. 

“ For all you know I could’ve insulted you there” Harry chuckled 

“ But you didn’t, I know, It was in your eyes when you spoke, It wasn’t anything witty, it was from your heart “ Draco said 

“ Maybe I’m just good at acting” Harry shrugged jokingly. 

“ But you were not “ Draco blinked for a moment. Harry looked at him for longer than usual but didn’t say anything, he didn’t know how to. 

Draco kept his gaze on Harry until he sat upright, his back facing Harry and breathing minimally rapidly. Sighing, Harry too sat upright, placing his hand on Draco’s back, running his finger down his pointed spine, 

“ Does it matter what I say ?” Harry asked with his eyes closed, his chin resting on Draco’s shoulder. 

Draco shook his head and immediately turned to Harry, cupping his face in his own hands “It matters the most, what you say, it matters a lot” 

Harry blinked at Draco, taking his hands from the side of his face and kissing softly the inside of his palm, then his wrist, then his forearm over his mark, then his arms, then his shoulder, then behind his ear making Draco shudder with his eyes closing enjoying the feeling of Harry’s lips on his body, then Harry whispered in his ear 

“ I love you “ 

Draco opened his eyes instantly, creating a small distance to look at Harry and any signs of hesitation or reluctance or a forced look but there was none “ You love me ?”

“ I love you “ Harry nodded 

Draco blinked at Harry, then stared at him some more and then felt the tears prickle in his eyes, he didn’t know why he felt like crying but he felt like that, maybe it was the way Harry had said it, or maybe it was Harry had kissed him or maybe it was what Harry had said or maybe it was just Harry but the small tears that made his eyes glassy had been formed from peace and pleasure and love. 

“ I love you too “ Draco finally said it for the second time in his life to the same person but both the times had been so different, he had loved Harry even then but had he really loved him and meant it then, he wasn’t so sure but right now, he could move mountains to convince that he loved Harry and he did this time in a very real way. 

Harry’s eyes turned glossy too, his lips curved into a little smile. He enclosed any distance between them that their knees were touching and he kissed Draco’s ears again. 

“ Say that again” 

Draco’s head tipped back a little in pleasure but his hands finding their way into Harry’s hair and scratching his head a little, then traveling to behind his ear “ I love you “ 

“ Again “ Harry whispered kissing his mandible 

“ I love you “ Draco whispered his hands again in his hair. 

Harry separated from his body as if he still couldn’t believe that Draco had said it back, he smiled at him, then traced his fingers over his forehead, his eyebrows, his eyes, the curve of his nose, his cheekbones, the bottom of his lip, all over his face and Draco allowed Harry to as though in letting him touch him, he was confessing his I love you’s, still, as if he was the cloud and Harry had finally become lucky enough to touch them, run his hand through them. Harry touched him and Draco allowed himself to be touched and not just physically. 

Harry kissed his forehead then said it again “ I love you “ 

“ I love you too “ Draco sighed in calmness. 

“ I love you, “ Harry said again, kissing his eyes 

“ I love you too” “ It is real Harry, it is “ Draco replied, his eyes still shut. 

“ I know but I want to tell you I love you until my air runs out, I’ve waited long enough, I’ve wasted so much time and Days, I don’t want to this time, not this time,” Harry said kissing his cheeks, then his neck, then his clavicle, then his throat. 

“ I love you, “ Harry said it again and this time he kissed him over the lips. 

“ I love you too “ Draco sighed, falling back on the mattress taking Harry with him, allowing him to kiss every inch of his body and Harry kissed every inch of his body that even if Draco showered next morning, his love would still confide in every part of his body. Like his body was no longer just his own, it was embedded with Harry’s love and making sure every part of his body knew that Harry loved him and in the most real way that maybe even in his next life, his body would know it had been loved by none other than Harry. He was marking him and Draco allowed himself to be marked.  

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The next morning they both had woken up to the biggest smiles and smiled more when they remembered their night, it was so intimate that it was no imprinted in their heads that no matter wherever they might go, neither of them will be able to think of anything but that night of passion with each other. 

Draco prepared Harry breakfast in bed and they ended up repeating last nights event only it was repeated, everything from then on will be repeated because it was that one night and there can only exist that one night, the rest are just repetitions of event, a re-enactment of what had happened.  

They stayed in bed for the most part of the day, snuggled into the perfect christmas day until finally they had convinced themselves that they needed to get up eventually and Harry claimed that he needed to run some errands and some other things too, so they did get up. 

Draco was left alone for the most remaining part of the day because whatever Harry had left to do and the errands to run had been taking far too long but he kept himself busy, framing pictures of Harry he took the first time he came to Paris, sorted Harry’s sock drawer, made something to eat, watched a christmas movie and then had Harry returned. 

“Took too long “ Draco said as he entered the flat. 

Harry grinned at Draco then said “ Remember our Christmas plan, I have a surprise “ 

“ Now ?” Draco asked almost exasperated 

“ Yes, I’m taking you on a date so get ready,” Harry said hastily before kissing his face and dragging him to the bedroom. 

They both were dressing up and Harry had been putting on the shirt when Draco noticed “it's the same blowy shirt you took from me when we got together the first time “ 

Harry smiled, then nodded “ Still reminds me of you a lot, whenever you’re not here, I wear it and there you are” 

Draco smiled fondly and padded across the room and kissed Harry over the lips “ Now I’m here ” 

Harry only smiled. 

Once done with dressing up, Harry insisted Draco on wearing a blindfold and took him exactly where they needed to be, even though Draco expressed his worries a lot that he might fall. Harry only asked him to trust him. 

Upon reaching where they needed to be, Harry opened his blindfold and stuffed it in his pocket. 

“ so this is what you were doing after leaving me alone today” Draco teased after looking at the place Harry decorated, covered in snow too at the rooftop. 

“ Yeah, sorry about leaving you alone “ Harry rubbed the back of his neck chuckling, then asked for Draco’s hand to make him sit on the table he had arranged. 

“ You did all of this? alone ?” Draco asked curiously 

“ Thomas helped me “ Harry replied taking the chair in front of Draco’s “ Shall we?” he asked pointing to the food on the table. Draco nodded. 

“ So this was your special evening ?” Draco asked setting down his glass of champagne, then wiping his hand in a napkin. 

“ No actually- this is” Harry stood up from his chair and knelt down on one knee in front of Draco.

“ What-” 

“ Don’t worry it’s not a proposal “ Harry chuckled. 

Draco relaxed, then nodded for him to proceed but evidently couldn’t stop smiling. 

“ I thought of making a grand gesture but where we are, the grandest of them all is actually where we are so I decided to do this how I would’ve done it. I could’ve so easily done all of this anywhere else but this is where we are, right, in the heart of the city, right where we belong “ Harry smiled taking a short pause 

“ But I belong a lot more to you than anyone else and every time you go back to London you’re taking a piece of me away with you but it’d be soon when I’m not left with any but to take me and I want you to, I want you to take me with you, everywhere you go. So Draco, I’m asking you to move in with me wherever you want to because all that matters to me is that I’m with you “ 

Draco stared at Harry for a long moment before he broke into a grin and nodded “ I want to move in with you “ 

Harry smiled enthusiastically and immediately hugged Draco “I thought you’d had said it's too soon for us” 

“ But if not now, when, if not later, when “ Draco replied. 

Harry smiled then kissed him again. 

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“ Where to ?” he asked from behind the counter 

“ 2 tickets to London “ 

  <THE END>

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Hi , can I request for Prompt no. 17. “wHY DO YOU KEEP LYING TO ME ?” , no or light angst please.

i swear i faced a huge writer's block for this one and i don't even know how it turned out tbh.

Keys to a healthy relationship

“ Psychology today’s mentions in the blog that keys to a healthy relationship are trust, honesty and interaction in both negative and positive ways to keep the fire in the relationship burning and to keep love alive. Hear that Ron, interaction and honesty are the keys to a healthy relationship” Hermione eyed Ron, lifting her eyes from the newspaper she was reading from, in a way that she was taunting him about something. 

Ron groaned and just then Harry tagged along on the table “ What are we talking about?” he asked as he gave Hermione her cup of cappuccino and Ron his cup of lemonade while he himself sat down with his cup of normal hot coffee. 

“ Keys to a healthy relationship apparently that Hermione assumes I don’t know of” Ron rolled his eyes 

“Why is that ?” Harry hummed 

“ Tell him, Ron” she narrowed her eyes in a normal way she used to do all those years ago when she was annoyed by Ron or he had done something wrong, Harry was very much familiar with the look. 

“ I lied to her about not wanting to go to the ministry party, I told her I had somethings to do Ginny for Mum and Dad’s anniversary when instead I was watching quidditch match at home” Ron recited monotonously. 

“ See that was lying to me and not communicating to me” Hermione commented 

“ Can you blame him though, I mean have you seen the ministry Party’s, they’re boring as hell, all old wizards and witches and old boring crap” Harry frowned 

“ Exactly, Thank you Harry” Ron exaggerated 

“ But that’s not the point-” 

“ I’m sure he just didn’t want to hurt your feelings by telling you how pathetic those Party’s are and sometimes he just doesn’t like going to them you know. When he’s lying for your benefit then I don’t think they should fundamentally harm your relationship, all technicality you know “ Harry explained as he gulped the remaining of his coffee. 

Ron gave him an impressed smile and looking at Hermione in ‘see he gets it’ 

Hermione rolled her eyes “Fine, I’ll just go by myself-” 

“ That’s not what I meant-” Ron interrupted 

“ Seemed like to me” Hermione lopsidedly replied taking her cup back to the counter suggesting that she was slightly pissed. 

“ Thanks mate “ Ron rolled his eyes and went after Hermione. 

Harry laughed as he watched Ron trying to make upto Hermione and soothing her with words like ‘we’ll go to your favourite orchestra show’ 

Harry shook his head, picking the newspaper from the coffee table and had only read the first few headline when he heard. 

“ Hey “ 

Harry’s face immediately grew into a smile “ Hi babe “ and he immediately got up and pecked his lips quickly in a sweet affection. 

“ What’s up with them ?” Draco asked as he sat down next to Harry on the chair after ordering one of the waiters his regular

“Ron lied to Hermione to avoid a ministry party and now he’s trying to make up to her” Harry chuckled 

“ Can you blame him, those Party’s are as boring as Hagrid’s classes “ Draco and Harry chuckled along. 

“ They weren’t so bad you know “ Harry teased after a while 

“ Please, he left buckbeak on me” Draco rolled his eyes 

“ If we clearly remember-” 

“ We don’t need to get into details. One shall not remain in the past” Draco said and immediately thanked the waiter for bringing his usual coffee. Harry chuckled. 

“We’re still up for tonight ?” Harry asked suddenly 

“ Tonight ?” Draco asked 

“Yeah, We’re visiting Teddy’s recital, I told you that” Harry frowned. 

Draco face immediately formed into a mild shock of how he had absolutely forgotten about that “I totally forgot about that, I- I have some left over work at school to finish, and I have to arrange the test for tomorrow morning, I’m sorry, He won’t be upset if don’t make it through would he ?” Draco asked apologetically

Harry nodded disappointingly “ He’ll understand I think, still try to make it through” 

Draco smiled at Harry before he placed a soft kiss on his forehead and told him he’ll try to make it. 

When a few minutes later Draco left in a hurry claiming he completely forgot about something at work, Harry felt something was off. He had been feeling the vibe and something being off for a while but had not raised any doubt, in himself or in Draco because he knew how much they loved each other and he knew Draco would never do anything to hurt Harry, not purposely anyway, and Harry knew that very well, after all they had been together for a very long time almost 4 years in a couple weeks. 

“ What’s up with you ?” Harry immediately looked up at the question and nodded instantly that everything was fine and he was just thinking about what to wear for Teddy’s recital tonight.

“ Don’t you think Draco had been cancelling a few more plans than usual lately, I mean I didn’t want to say anything but it seems like it doesn’t it ?” Hermione asked settling into the seat where Draco was formerly sitting. 

Harry dazed Turned to Hermione " I've been trying not to think of it but its evident right ?"

Hermione hesitantly nodded " I'm pretty sure it's nothing though. I mean he wouldn't ever hurt you "

" I know but it's just a bit suspicious. Anyways- where did Ron go ?" Harry asked interjecting himself

" oh- he left for some work at office "

Harry nodded despite of it seeming fishy too.

Harry pretended as the days went by that he wasn't bothered by Draco cancelling plans over and over again, he pretended that he was oblivious of the fact that Draco was cancelling most of plans on purpose and surprisingly enough for the first time Ron was calm about the whole situation and told Harry to just relax and maybe see it from a different perspective. Easier said than done, when your boyfriend of 3, almost 4 years cancel on a routine saturday dinner’s for the 3rd time in a month, something felt fishy and he couldn’t help but wonder the worst possible scenarios and even though he hated himself to think of them, he couldn’t help but think of them.

“ Maybe you’re just thinking about it a lot, Maybe he is in fact busy at school. I mean Harry you do know how hard things can be before christmas breaks right, the whole winding up of syllabus and giving off tests and assessing everything. Its not easy being a Professor Harry. I’m sure he’ll make it upto you somehow “ Ron advised and for some reason Harry didn’t feel as though his words were genuine but he did understand the point of it but it was suspicious of how calm he really was being, he was normally the paranoid one in the whole thing but ever since he became an auror and started living with Hermione, he had changed a lot. 

“ Maybe you’re right” Harry sighed. Ron nodded understandably. 

“ But I can’t help but wonder you know “ Harry interrupted 

“ wonder what ?” Ron asked curiously. 

“ That he might be you know “ Harry raised his eyebrows suggestively. 

“ Draco- What. No, It’s Draco we’re talking about, he’d never. He loves you too much to do anything like that. Have a little faith in your boyfriend Harry. This is the same Draco we’re talking about who walked with his hands in your backpocket so people would stop staring at your ass “ Ron chuckled. Harry smiled at the memory. Draco really used to do that and he very much liked putting hands in back pocket to label their relationship. When in the beginning Harry had doubts about the relationship and Draco, he had done that to prove Harry how much he meant to him and how much serious he was about that and that was only back when they were in 8th year and even though everyone knew Harry was taken, Draco used to tag along because he feared one day Harry might find someone better and he hated to think of those times. Their relationship hadn’t been the easiest one’s in any sort, the complications, the humiliations, the fight, the taunts, the hate, everything they had to face to finally reach here, Harry knew Draco wouldn’t trade it for the whole world but with everything, Harry couldn’t help but wonder each time Draco cancelled a plan whether something went wrong in all the time they’ve been together and if Draco is finally bored of Harry after all. 

“Mate, relax. He loves you, its very cheesy but he really does and he reminds you like everyday, if not you then no one “ Ron reassured when Harry remained lost in his thoughts. 

Harry looked at Ron for a few moments before he realised that maybe Ron was right and he was just being more paranoid and again he let it slide and everything turned out fine infact. The next day Draco took both of them out on a nice fancy date and spoiled Harry and apologized a lot for being a terrible boyfriend and for not making time for him and how his activities are inexcusable and Harry knew then in his heart that Draco would never find it in himself to ever think of cheating on Harry or even leaving him because clearly he loved him too much. 

It was a couple of days before Christmas when after a casual meet up after days Harry had stayed over at Draco’s place. There was unsettling odd feeling about everything, and just Draco in general because after the last date he had been pretty distant or somewhat weird and not in a “ i love you less “ way but in a he’s hiding something way and that terrified Harry more than “ i love you less now “, so he wandered off in the apartment after Draco had fallen alseep and was snuggled closely in the blankets. Harry had wandered off just walking in the apartment and ended up scurrying through cabinets to find something to eat when he finally found it. 

Harry gasped as soon as he opened a small blue tiffany box and in it rested a key. 

“ OH - That’s why “ Harry grinned to himself in relief when he realised what it was and kept it back where he found it, smiling to himself. That night Harry slept well for the first time in a long time. 

The next morning events were as delightful as Harry’s mood and had resulted in a morning shower sex and a sweet complimentary breakfast simply because he was too happy to have found that Draco wasn’t cheating on him or anything else but had been apartment hunting and even if he allowed himself to just assume everything, he didn’t refuse to believe that he might be incredibly wrong but it didn’t cause any hurdles in the morning activities. 

“ You’re in a rather good mood today” Draco grinned as he lingered on Harry’s lips after the makeout session in the kitchen. 

“ What can I say, you have this effect on me” Harry whispered with his eyes closed and the sweet taste of Draco’s lips still over his own. 

“ Wow Harry- you- I so want you again right now” Draco bit Harry’s lip pressing him against the counter 

“ Then fucking have me “ 

And they did it again and definitely ended up being late for their respective work places. 

" Draco's going to ask me to move on with him " he suddenly told Hermione, not being able to keep it in anymore.

She gasped " what ?" Then broke into a huge grin

" I was wandering off in his kitchen last night and found a tiffany box with a key in it, so i think but I can't be sure and I am excited but I don't want to get too excited because you know I might have got it all wrong-"

" screw it he's gonna ask you to move in with him " Hermione immediately jumped up and hugged Harry who returned the hug just as affectionately.

" it makes sense you know then, everything- him cancelling plans" Hermione grinned excitedly after breaking apart.

" but we can't be too sure. I mean it's a possibility but-'

" yeah. If he asks you, act surprised" and she she clapped her hand together in excitement again. Harry ended up laughing with her and discussed all the time they were at the coffee shop about when and how he might ask Harry.

Despite Hermione's strict warning to keep it a secret and act natural, Harry couldn't help but smile each time his eyes laid on Draco and would end imagining all the scenarios about how he might ask him, anytime.

" Oh- Harry I forgot to tell you, my Mom's birthday coming up so I am buying her an apartment in central London, what do you think about that ?"Draco asked suddenly as he placed the bowl of spaghetti over bigger coaster and plates by the side.

" an apartment- oh- OH-" Harry face turned into a shock then disappointment upon connecting the dots that the key in the Tiffany box was actually for Narcissa " I- I think it's a lovely present "instead he fake grinned.

" I thought so too, it's the perfect apartment with enough sun light and well ventilation- it's absolutely perfect " Draco grinned.

Harry nodded abruptly immediately taking the plate from the table and immediately taking some of spaghetti in his plate.

" I'm sure it's gonna be great after all it's your choice " Harry gave him a neat smile before he picked up the remote and Turned on the TV and started watching to avoid Draco and thinking of how stupid it was to believe Draco would ask Harry to move in with him.

For the next few days only a couple before Christmas, Harry had visited Hogwarts for some work when he decided to surprise visit to Draco's room, but upon arrival he only heard harsh Whispers.

" You should've seen his face- I mean please He looked to hurt. I don't know how much longer can I hold onto this "

Harry frowned to himself, placing his ear more closely to the door.

" just trust the process Draco, you want it to be special right, then just trust me. He's gonna love it and he'll never deny it alright. Besides it's only a couple days later, just hold on alright. You love him right " a pause " and you want to live with him right" A pause again " then just 2 more days and then you can ask him and it'll finally be over "

" I swear to fucking Merlin I never saw the day would come when I'd take advice from a Weasley " Draco groaned and Harry just knew him too well that he knew Draco must be rolling off his eyes right now.

" Just till Christmas then you can do whatever with him. I'm just making it memorable for him okay. He's gonna love it " He who Harry knew by now was Ron, said.

" I'm gonna wreck your apartment if he doesn't agree to live with me after having practically ignored him all month. You should've seen him Ron- he's- Merlin'- I Love him and I can see it you know that it's hurting him and-"

" I know I know but I made him believe that teachers live's are hard so you're good "

" it better be "

And then in rushed Whispers Ron left the room claiming he needed to get back to work. This explained Ron's absence too from work and his weird faithful behaviour towards Draco. Harry immediately ran for the hallways and hid in one of the broom closet until he was sure Ron left and then finally visited Draco.

After everything he heard, he knew he never wanted to be with anyone more than Draco and there will never be Anyone who would love Harry more him and the thought made Harry so happy that he kept smiling to himself all day and prepared Draco's favourite dinner.

" I- I'm sorry I'm a bit late- wow- Do I smell curry ?" Draco hastily entered the kitchen.

" your favourite " Harry grinned as he leaned up a little and placed an open kiss on Draco's lips.

" What's the occassion?" Draco asked holding onto Harry's waist and stroking his cheek affectionately.

" I just love you that's why. Go freshen up though- I'll place the dinner in 5 minutes " Harry hastily said as he stirred the curry again.

'”oh and by the way Mom invited us for her party on her birthday and we'll give her the key but I'd like if you'd see it before I gave it to her as a present "

" okay " Harry smiled and soon enough Draco left the kitchen.

Within the next 10 minutes Draco and Harry were already sat in the living room, their legs crossed and eating peacefully watching TV together until Draco noticed Harry had been staring at him more than usual.

" what's up with you ? You've been looking at me all night, is there something on my face ?" Draco asked as he wiped his hands in napkin and reached for his face to examine if there was anything on it.

" why do you keep lying to me ?" Harry asked with a smile.

" what ? What makes you think I'm lying ?" Draco asked almost shocked, his ears turning a funny shade of pink like it did when he was flustered.

Harry smiled softly at Draco before he put his plate on the table and wiped his own hands with the napkin and scooted closer to Draco so he was sitting before him, face to face.

" I heard you and Ron today at your office"

Draco didn't reply, still lying that it wasn't what Harry knew it was.

" can you stop pretending please, it's killing me- I already found the Tiffany box in your kitchen " Harry grinned.

Draco wanted to keep up the facade of not being dazed by Harry at all but with a smile like Harry gave one, Nobody stood a chance.

" did you like it ?" Draco asked, talking Harry's hands in his own and tracing soft circles.

" I didn't see the apartment, I want to see it with you " Harry smiled, kissing Draco's knuckles.

Draco blushed naturally, nodding and agreeing that they'll see it soon then.

'" I had this whole thing planned, you know asking at the burrow in front of everyone, down on one knee " Draco groaned as he wrapped his arm around Harry shoulder and leaning his head over it.

" I don't care how fancy it all have to be you know. I Never cared about extravaganza, all I care is that I get to live with you and that I can't wait but if it means so much to you, you do it your way I'll act surprised " Harry chuckled, kissing Draco's ear.

" one problem though " Draco said

Harry moved away so he could see Draco clearly " what is it ?"

'" you're shit at acting "

Harry whined playfully hitting Draco with a pillow and turning into laughter. Eventually the night turned into a pillow fight and a lot of laughter and bunch of make out on the ground but as long as they were together, there was nothing that didn't make sense.

So 2 days after, Draco did get down on one knee at the burrow and asked Harry to move in with him, Harry acted surprised in the most natural way and answered a yes, making everyone hoot and cheering them on with opening bottle of champagne.

" you already knew, didn't you ?" Hermione asked

" Don't tell anyone that " Harry nodded and soon the night turned into how it always did, in laughter and love.

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