Superdumbfan - Just A Really Dumb Super Fan

I made an in-universe blog of my ARG.

So I'm big time into undertale right.

And I kept seeing this book pop-up. It was a undertale gore 'zine. And you know what they say curiosity killed the cat. Well, that bitch is definitely dead. So I read it out of curiosity.

First of all, I thought it was gonna be a horror project. I'm a huge fan of horror.

It wasn't a horror project.

Second of all, I read 2 of the stories. Coincidentally, both of them were about cannibalism. And now I don't think I'll ever be the same.

I literally read them before going to bed. And now I can't sleep.

And I kind of want to write a fan fiction based on one of the stories just to give it a happier ending.

I honestly don't know what to do with myself right now. I really thought it was just gonna be a silly goofy horror project. ITVWASNT!! 😭😭😭

Call me Error because I just crocheted my own Sans doll. And i'm planning on making me more.

I added a bow to his pants. Happy birthday, little guy.

Prototype design of t-shirts. Merch design.

@staff can I get some reporting system on ads. Or some kind of system to show that they add should probably be looked over more than once before being put on the platform. Because as someone who's nerodivergent if I see one more ad about how so-and-so causes some kind of mental impairment I'm going to kill someone. Me taking a vaccine as a kid did not make me autistic, Becky.

It's even weirder because this entire app/platform is known for being diverse and not discriminatory. I'm starting to think that that is not true. And I don't that this went through any kind of staff regulation cuz they wouldn't be putting on here if it was. Or at least do the same thing that Google does and use targeted ads so I don't have to see this. Whatever like two biggots on Tumblr can see it then.

Please please I am begging you. I get to hear enough of it from places like autism speaks and Peta of all people.

Two: mention of harming ones self (not major tho I'm fine)

So went to my therapist. Well more like medicine provider but I forgot the technical term for that. And I was talking about sleep meds cuz I've had to be on sleep meds and melatonin because I have really bad sensory issues. Like meltdown and sometimes even hurting myself kind of bad. So I talked to my therapist this time and she said that I might have OCD, but I'm kind of confused cuz I also had doctors labeled me with ADHD and autism. I honestly don't know what the problem is but I just got on OCD medicine see if that helps. I would love to get a psych eval, but the closest center that does a psychopath is two cities away. It'd be an 8-hour drive going there and back and it's a major city so hotel cost and stuff like that would probably bankrupt me. My mom says that she's going to try and take me as soon as possible but we just got a new car and she's afraid that I might break down during the trip. I honestly don't know what to do I love to have some kind of diagnosis so I know what to do. I want to be able to just live like a neurotypical person. I want to be able to do things like sit on my bed or wear leggings without literally wanting to rip off my skin. I've talked to my brother about this and he said that he could believe if I was autistic because of how I acted as a kid. Again I honestly don't know what I am I just want to know I want to find it out so I can fix it as soon as possible. Cuz not only is it exhausting but it is breaking me I need help bad. Oh the joy of being poor in a capitalist society so I can't fix my own fucking problems.