Autism Is Feeling Mature Compared To Your Peers As A Child And Then As An Adult Feeling Extremely Immature

Autism is feeling mature compared to your peers as a child and then as an adult feeling extremely immature and childish compared to your peers

sudden urge to burst into tears. im not a toddler i just agree with their beliefs

I'm an outwardly neutral person most of the time. But when I'm at my wit's end like autistic burnout, or I'm withdrawing off prescription meds (like I am now), I can feel the flood barrier in my eyes degrading. The mask comes off for a millisecond. And it's for the most random, stupid shit, too. Something just has to be joyful to make my eyes well. Literally, I just read:

"In 1972, a crack commando unit was sent to prison by a military court for a crime they didn’t commit. These men promptly escaped from a maximum security stockade to the Los Angeles underground. Today, still wanted by the government, they survive as soldiers of fortune. If you have a problem, If no one else can help and if you can find them. Maybe you can hire, The A-Team."

And my eyes welled up and I was momentarily faced with an overwhelming sadness combined with happy/sad tears trying to escape. My mind goes,

"The A-Team brought so much joy every Saturday morning to children and adults all over. It was all so beautiful then, and nobody can have it anymore. We'll never have that world back. Nothing will ever be the same again. It's just so nostalgic. I want everyone to be happy and watch The A-Team."

The point here is that I'm not known to cry by anyone I know. But even the seemingly emotionally strongest of us are just really good at hiding it and throwing it away. Could be from masking, could be from conditioning. Either way, the A-Team intro message momentarily brought tears to my eyes, and that was funny enough to me to post on Tumblr.

It's okay to experience moments or days or weeks of hypersensitivity, empathy on overdrive, or just random bursts or overwhelming emotions brought on by random things. That can just mean we've been holding it all in for too long. We're at max capacity.

Let yourself feel. I certainly don't. I shut it down immediately out of some sick instinct. Don't be like me. Have a full Häagen-Dazs cry fest about outdated action shows.

how dare the weather get warmer even though i have autistic in my bio

Real.

Neurodivergency ≠ lack of moral comprehension. You will never be coddled for intentionally being a bad person.

Stop using autism as an excuse for shitty behaviors. Truly, fuck off.

I don't give a fuck about your autism. Pathetic shit of an excuse if I've ever seen one. If you're seriously ok with going around telling people to go kill themselves, you have a morality problem, not an autism problem.

You're still an asshole even if you're autistic. You're just an autistic asshole. And you don't get to make the rest of us look bad, because you somehow think it's cool to weaponize autism in order to be a steaming shit pile of a person.

Autistic people are perfectly capable of distinguishing right from wrong.

Go fuck yourself.