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#27 THUNDER

Do you and Junpei ever have disagreements? If so how does that work considering your bond?

𝔸𝕥𝕤𝕦𝕙𝕒 𝕕𝕠𝕖𝕤𝕟'𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕝𝕖 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕤 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕨𝕖𝕝𝕝. 𝔸𝕥 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕥, 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕖𝕟𝕕 𝕚𝕟 𝕪𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘, 𝕒𝕓𝕣𝕦𝕡𝕥 𝕤𝕚𝕝𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕠𝕣 𝕒𝕟𝕪 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕞 𝕠𝕗 𝕧𝕚𝕠𝕝𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖. (ℙ𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕦𝕞𝕖 𝕀 𝕕𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖, 𝕞𝕒𝕪𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕪𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕥𝕚𝕞𝕖, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕀 𝕤𝕨𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕀 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕕𝕝𝕟'𝕥-)

Yeah, if we can reach a peaceful middle-term, or make things as clear as possible before things get ugly, it's better. But it's not like it happens that often or that violently, gladly.

𝕎𝕖 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕠𝕔𝕔𝕒𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝 𝕥𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕓𝕒𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣, 𝕒𝕤 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕠𝕗 𝕒 𝕤𝕚𝕓𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕣𝕖𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕡. (𝕀 𝕘𝕦𝕖𝕤𝕤, 𝕒𝕥 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕥.) 𝕀𝕥'𝕤 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕞𝕖𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕞 𝕟𝕖𝕚𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕠𝕗 𝕦𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙. 𝕀 𝕤𝕦𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕𝕟'𝕥 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕔𝕣𝕪 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟.

What can I say? I'm a big pile of emotions. It's part of the package.

hello! I have a question about hypersensitivity! What's it like to be hypersensitive? (Sorry if this is too personal)

Not too personal at all! I like that question! 😊 /pos

I can give you all of my most common experiences with hypersensitivity... but those are just my experiences. Since I also have ADHD, other neurodivergent people might have different experiences with hypersensitivity. :)

I'll go into detail-

for me personally: I just get extremely overstimulated, sometimes to an extent where my mood drops and/or I get headaches. When I'm overwhelmed in those cases, I tend to get easily irritated and annoyed... somewhat snappy too.

I can react sensitively to: smells, noises, brightness and textures...

textures don't get me overstimulated to the point of headaches, I just get extremely uncomfortable when I feel certain textures. Like oily textures for example: if I feel something oily, I get extremely uncomfortable and feel the need to immediately go wash my hands.. like intensely so I don't feel it anymore. It can also go hand in hand with food textures.. like I can't eat anything with a jelly or wobbly consistency, without gagging and getting sick to my stomach..

For noises: it starts off with more sudden and loud noises that build up to a really uncomfortable feeling in my ears.. which could build up to headaches or the weird feeling in my ears intensifying. (If they continue)

For smells: it happens especially often with things as simple as room freshener.. it could be any smell tho... I just get a weird feeling in my nose, I get extremely uncomfortable especially if it's a very overpowering smell... it could even go so far, thatvi feel somewhat sick in my stomach and/or get headaches... sometimes I also hold my breath and try to leave that area as quick as possible, if a smell is too overpowering... or if I simply don't like it.

Brightness is usually just a problem for me if I have a headache and/or already am overstimulated... it usually occurs when I'm trying to sleep. Being caused by screens and/or TV's for example.. I either have to turn them off or I turn away and somehow try to cover my eyes. sometimes it can also be the sky outside, like when the sky us intensely white... I cannot stand that because my eyes get distracted by the brightness, even if I don't focus on it.. which just leads me to having headaches..

In general tho, hyperstive people have the tendency to be easily overwhelmed by too much information. We aren't only influenced by physical stimuli but also emotional stimuli. Which means that we can feel emotions more intensely than people without hypersensitivity.

Hope that could give you an overall view of what it's like. If there's more you want to know you can ask anytime! 😊

I'm an outwardly neutral person most of the time. But when I'm at my wit's end like autistic burnout, or I'm withdrawing off prescription meds (like I am now), I can feel the flood barrier in my eyes degrading. The mask comes off for a millisecond. And it's for the most random, stupid shit, too. Something just has to be joyful to make my eyes well. Literally, I just read:

"In 1972, a crack commando unit was sent to prison by a military court for a crime they didn’t commit. These men promptly escaped from a maximum security stockade to the Los Angeles underground. Today, still wanted by the government, they survive as soldiers of fortune. If you have a problem, If no one else can help and if you can find them. Maybe you can hire, The A-Team."

And my eyes welled up and I was momentarily faced with an overwhelming sadness combined with happy/sad tears trying to escape. My mind goes,

"The A-Team brought so much joy every Saturday morning to children and adults all over. It was all so beautiful then, and nobody can have it anymore. We'll never have that world back. Nothing will ever be the same again. It's just so nostalgic. I want everyone to be happy and watch The A-Team."

The point here is that I'm not known to cry by anyone I know. But even the seemingly emotionally strongest of us are just really good at hiding it and throwing it away. Could be from masking, could be from conditioning. Either way, the A-Team intro message momentarily brought tears to my eyes, and that was funny enough to me to post on Tumblr.

It's okay to experience moments or days or weeks of hypersensitivity, empathy on overdrive, or just random bursts or overwhelming emotions brought on by random things. That can just mean we've been holding it all in for too long. We're at max capacity.

Let yourself feel. I certainly don't. I shut it down immediately out of some sick instinct. Don't be like me. Have a full Häagen-Dazs cry fest about outdated action shows.