[11:34 Pm]

[11:34 pm]

long distance boyfriend!jaehyun surprises you just as valentine’s day is about to end, holding a bouquet of red roses tied together by a huge red ribbon. his lovable dimples carve into his pink cheeks as he beams up at you from the bottom of the steps of your home.

“do you want to be my valentine, beautiful?”

you freeze for a moment, not being able to believe your eyes. you quickly run down your steps, the chilly february air making you shiver as you jump into jaehyun’s warm arms. you’re in your pajamas - you hadn’t expected jaehyun to come so far to see you, especially since he had been so busy with practice recently. “i can’t believe you’re here,” you exclaim, grinning uncontrollably and pressing large kisses to his cheeks that are pink from the cold. “happy birthday, love. if i knew you’d been coming...” you trail, looking into his eyes with regret that you hadn’t really prepared anything for his birthday besides that box with the album and his favorite chocolates you had shipped to him weeks ago.

“it’s absolutely okay. i suddenly had an uncontrollable urge to see my beautiful girlfriend,” jaehyun says cheekily as you entwine your fingers with his and pull him inside your cozy home, the both of you laughing as jaehyun almost trips over the doormat. hearing his deep, rich laugh in person; kissing his lovable dimple-cheeked smile; and feeling his heart pump just as fast as yours through the interweaved segments of your fingers makes you feel like the happiest valentine in the world.

2:50am

i switched my theme for jaehyun’s birthday (valentines day) 🥺🥰 - lovely date for a lovelier boy

happy birthday in korea boo your smile lights up my whole world 🥵💥✨

[6:04 pm]

boyfriend!johnny’s hands wrap around the back of your neck as he kisses you, his thumb grazing the bottom of your ear and the tips of his fingers supporting your head. butterflies churn in your stomach, threatening to explode through your beating heart, and you can barely think even after your lips separate from his, looking up at him with blank, lovestruck eyes. johnny laughs his signature chuckle that makes his pretty brown eyes curve into crescent moons, and gently pulls you to him, large hands on your waist. he leans down to whisper, “i love you,” by your ear and laughs as your ears turn red - but his cheeks turn even redder when you swiftly peck his cheek with a starry-eyed smile.

[11:05 am]

every time you and best friend!mark break into laughter at another stupid joke, both of you subconsciously smack best friend!johnny’s shoulder, causing johnny to playfully shout “ow!” as he leans back from the both of you.

!!!!

hi friends, i know i’ve been posting a lot of personal stuff recently and i really didn’t want to make this post but i don’t know what else to do.

my mom tested positive for the coronavirus and i haven’t heard anything about her condition since around early yesterday morning. my parents are still in korea so it’s just me and my sister at home but i’ve almost completely run out of money (i literally only have $10 in my account) for food / other necessities. i’m still sick so neither of my bosses have scheduled me for work and although my university has closed its campuses, my landlord hasn’t suspended my rent so most of my money has been going to my apartment + my utility bills on top of my parents’ utility bill + my sister’s athletic fees. i know that the easiest thing would be to ask for money from my parents but i really, really don’t want to add to everything that they’re already dealing with.

if you have a dollar or two you could donate, that would be so, so, so inexplicably appreciated like you don’t understand how much you would be helping us out. if you are able to donate, please feel free request a fic from me! i will write it asap and send it to you! if you aren’t able to, that’s completely okay too! i don’t want you to feel obligated to do anything. instead, if you could reblog and spread the word, that would be just as helpful!  

tldr: my parents are still out of the country because of covid-19 and my sister and i are running out of money for food / other necessities. if you are able to donate, send me a fic request and i’ll write it for you!

my paypal is paypal.me/seosoojin. again, please please please do not donate if you don’t have money to spare. focus on you and your needs first. this pandemic is tearing my world apart and i don’t want it to do the same to yours.

thank you guys so much. i know i’ve been posting a lot about my personal life and i promise i won’t post anything more after this. i’ve read all of your kind messages and i’ll get around to answering them after i figure everything out! i love you guys! please stay safe!

[10:48 PM]

seconds after a short text, johnny is already at your side.

you’re already sobbing when he pulls you into his arms. you close your eyes and sob even harder as he cups your face in his hands so gently that you barely feel it. you look into his soft brown eyes, unstoppable tears streaming down your flushed cheeks.

“oh dear,” he murmurs as he pulls you closer and lets your tears wet his light blue hoodie. “who hurt you?” his face is overwhelmed by concern for you and he strokes your swollen cheek with one hand. 

you don’t respond but clench onto the fabric by his waist tighter as you burrow inside what seems like a perfect paradise, safe and separated from the rest of the world. you’re shaking and sobbing and everything in-between, and johnny wraps his strong arms around you quietly.

“i-i can’t do this,” you say, your voice cracking as you speak the words. you’re looking at him, into his eyes that almost seem to reflect the hurt you feel. 

he listens.

you tangle your fingers with his, using all four clasped hands to wipe your tears. “i need to run away so bad.”

“i’d love to take you with me,” he breathes, “but you know i can’t.”

you would smile, but you can’t. “i know.” you know too well. you lean back into his chest as he leans his head on yours, and wrap your arms around his waist firmly - as if he’s a lifeline. “i know.” 

johnny presses a kiss to your head and gently pats your back as you continue to sob, each choked cry shattering his heart even more.