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Invisible

Am I invisible

Or just alone

Floating endlessly

In this static

Puzzle pieces

Two puzzle pieces, you and I,

And I want so desperately to fit together,

I crave away at me,

Force myself to slot into place,

I look in the mirror,

And who am I? 

Moon Child

You who paint your cheeks with stardust 

and dance among pale beams of light,

a constellation scattered across your skin. 

You whose eyes hold galaxies

Dark lashes framing their light

and in your smile the shimmer of stars.

You who can lighten any darkness

and bring warmth to the coldest of nights

Your soul a shining star.

You who creates joy

and lifts sprites

 A light too bright to be dimmed.

You who means more than you will ever know

You, my rose in the snow. 

Silence

Eyes are unseeing

I learnt to cry silently

Forever unknown

Heart of glass

Please do not hurt me

My soul is much too fragile 

A heart made of glass

Eclipsed

I look up to you,

And you look down on me,

I am eternally eclipsed by your shadow,

Yet grateful to have someone near,

Being alone, my only true fear.

I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it — to be fed so much love I couldn’t take any more. Just once.

Haruki Murakami (via goodreadss)

Mask

Smiling all the time

The mask can never come off

They must never know

Longing

This painful longing

Oh to be with you once more

What I would not give

I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling.

Haruki Murakami (via goodreadss)

Changes

We grew up together fingers intertwined 

We swapped tales of bitter stings and shimmering stars

We laughed till our lungs burned and faces reddened 

We stayed up till the moon welcomed us in its' glow.

You went out to find adventure and danger

You spoke of fame, fortune and flirtation

You met with monsters and danced with shadows

You infused yourself with poison and passion.

I confine myself within my walls of routine

I tire myself through endless hours

I settle in the sunlight of my solitude

 I find comfort pressed between these pages.

We no longer talk of days littered with stardust

You fall victim to the darkness you invited in

I hear of your shadows and offer a match in the inky depths

We find the solution but your demons whisper sweetly.

We are forgotten to each other, lost to the distance time brings

You say meaningless words of dull comfort and false regret

I release weary breaths that have been held for too long

We become fog gathered in the corners of the others mind.

We are not the we from our past

We have out grown one an other

We are separate now

We have changed.

You say to let go

But how can I do this when

You are everything

Closer

I miss you more than words can say,

But we get closer to seeing each other every day.

Velvet dark

You make your home in the velvet dark

and in your soul a spectacular spark

Loss

You have left me now

But in my heart you will stay

Forever remain

Go on

This is not so hard

I call out with silent tears

Deep breath and go on

Ash

Your overly sweet words taste like ash on my tongue,

I wish I could burn away the things you have done.

Nothingness

Sometimes I wish I could just melt into nothingness

become a spec of dust and drift away in the breeze

Be carried far away from pain and torment,

Finally free to do as I please.

It's dark here and so very cold

how did I get here I was so full of life

and yet I am not old

My body is not damaged or weak

my bones are not broken, they do not creak.

And yet, as I sit and think my mind consumes me

it is my soul that is weak and broken

my mind that is damaged

it plays like a skipping record,

over and over and over and over again

not enough and too much all at once

a never ending loop,

over whelmed and drowning in nothingness

always dark, black all consuming nothingness.

Hands

I know your hands,

so well

I walk holding them

And in the night, I reach out

To find them.

I touch each

Ring that I bought for your

Fingers,

I trace each nail

With my thumb.

I have watched them change,

Over the long years.

Girlfriend,

Lover,

Wife,

Mother,

Grandmother

But always

Friend, companion, soulmate.

Your hands

Please hold me when I die

Hold me.

Doug

Reach

I reach out to you

My fingers outstretched palms up

You see me and turn.

I’m sorry

I'm sorry I say,

but for what, you ask,

I'm sorry for feeling like this

I'm sorry I'm a burden

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough

I'm sorry that I cry

I'm sorry that I'm broken

I'm sorry for all of this

I don't know, I say

as you pull me closer.

Cut

The wound was healing

But then you cut me open 

You watch me bleed out

Sweet Poison

Such kindness,

Such lies,

Please I beg of you,

Fill my ears with your sweet poison.

Our Love

Our love is a walk in the woods,

It's mossy floor blankets,

and warm sunlight beams.

It's gentle bird song,

and endless winding paths.

It's quiet breezes that shake the tree leaves, 

and sharp breaths in morning air that leave your lungs crisp.

It's talking to no one as the world listens,

and sharing secrets that will never be heard. 

Our love is shooting new greenery,

and open fields of swaying wheat,

It’s fresh wild flowers,

and proud tall oak trees.

It’s branches snapping underfoot,

and you changing me if I stumble.

It’s sharing our hearts with one another,

and exploring with no destination.

It’s loving with everything you have,

walking hand in hand into the unknown.