Despite All Of This.I Did Not Fall In Love With Her Because She Was Broken. I Did Not Fall In Love With

Despite all of this. I did not fall in love with her because she was broken. I did not fall in love with her because I found it captivating how the light refracted of her broken pieces casting shadows and blinding colourful light dazzling those around her. No. Yes I loved her for her broken too. Because when you love someone with depression you love their monsters too. But no. I fell in love with her because she owned her broken. She did.not push it away. Try to drown it in her own tears. I fell in love with her because she knew that she was not broken. That she was fractured over and over again everyday and she knew that humans we're capable of amazing things. Like healing, and defying odds and learning to love again. I fell in love with her because she made the most of the time when she could breath. She talked. So much. She laughed. So loud. She smiled and ranted and dazzled those around her. And she did not need the light to refract off her to captivate people. Her jagged edges and smooth surface and her existence did that. She did that all on her own. When she spoke people rolled their eyes and smiled and listened. When she wrote. My god when she wrote. Their are no words to express the masterpieces she spinned with her thoughts fingers weaving unforgiving sentences that would hold you captive and you would love in every  gripping moment and sometimes you want to stop. You don't want to read  this anymore. Feelings  spilling over this dam you have built around your  soul and yet you cannot let go until they said you could. She wrote unimaginable joy and heart shattering grief, she wrote excruciating  pain with metaphors that made you gasp for air. On the bad days. On the bad days she is still broken glass. Fragile and breakable and jagged. Except their is no light. She lives in a box that removed her from the world blocks the light out. Everything seems dimmer un important not worth it. She feels dimmer un important not worth it. She stares at the pane of glass that is her heart. The serrated edges. The cracks that are still healing the chips in the glass that will take longer than forever to heal. She looks in the mirror and says how.ugly. what an awful sight. And so she cuts herself on her sharp edges trying to pull them off...but she applied to.much pressure all she does is bleed and break the glass even more. I don't understand but sometimes when all you have left is yourself self-destruction is such a sweet saviour.

I need more blogs to follow since I just unfollowed a bunch of inactive ones.Like and reblog if you post anything,

The Raven cycle 

The Foxhole court 

Beautiful creatures 

Percy Jackson

The Red Queen

The selection

Legend

The young elites 

The infernal devices, Mortal instruments, Shadowhunters 

The crowns game, The crowns fate

Six of crows, Crooked kingdom

The grisha trilogy

Acotar, Acomaf, Acowar

Ruby Red, Dream a little dream

Harry Potter

The chronicles of Narnia 

The lunar chronicles

Spellbound

She brought with herself the calm of the ocean but also the tidal waves 💙 (Kinda reminds me of the selection)

She was simply lovely the poems say. But she was not simply anything. And that is why i loved her. She was complex and interesting. She was unique and beautiful. And she was lovely but not simply she was a complex sort of beauty.   

Ghost girl

And she swore she lost pieces of herself to the wind. 💛

Updated List :)

Books I've read

Series:

Series of Unfortunate Events Series (Lemony snicket )

Chronicles of Narnia (CS Lewis)

Uglies series (Scott Westerfeild)

Matched trilogy (Allie Condie)

The selection series + happily ever after (Keira Cass)

Twilight saga + life and death (Stephine Myer)

Delirium Series (Lauren Oliver)

Shadow children series (Haddix)

Divergent trilogy + four (Veronica Roth)

Legend trilogy (Marie Lu)

The lunar chronicles + Fairest (Marisa Meyers)

Fifty shades series (EL James)

The hunger games trilogy (Suzanne Collins)

Slated trilogy (Teri Terry)

The giver quartet (Louis Lowery)

The darkest powers (Kelly Armstrong)

Juliette chronicles/shatter me series (Teharah Mafi)

Destroy Me + Fracture Me (shatter me)

Daughter of Smoke and Bone Trilogy (Lani Taylor)

The mortal instruments (Cassie Clare)

The infernal devices (ll)

The dark artifices (ll)

Shadowhunter academy + the shadowhunter codex+The bane CHRONICALS (ll)

Unwind Series (Neal Shusterman) Wake Series

Half Bad Series (Sally Green)

  Duoligy:

If I stay + where she went (Gayle Forman)

Slammed + point of retreat (Coleen Hoover)

End of days + regenesis (Eric Walters)

This Dark Endevour+Such Wicked Intent (Kenneth Oppel)

Hold Me like a Breath+ Break Me Like A Promise

Incarceron + sappique (Catherine Fisher)

  Single Books:

The host (Stephine Meyer)

Power Play (Eric Walters)

Chains (Laurie Halse Anderson)

How we fall (Kate Brauning)

Thirteen Reasons Why (Jay Asher)

Sins of the mother (Irene Kelly)

My heart and other black holes (Jasmine Warga)

Speechless (Hannah Harrington)

Eleanor and park (Rainbow Rowell)

November 9 (Coleen Hoover)

The girl with all the gifts (Mike Carey)

Dove arising (Karen Bao)

Red wolf (Jenifer Dance)

Enthralled (Kelly Armstrong, Melissa Marr and other authors)

Room (Emma donoghue)

What happened to goodbye (Sarah Dessen)

The Handmaid’s Tale (Margret Atwood)

Half Brother (Kenneth Oppel)

Diary of Anna Frank

Brave New World

We are all Made of Molecules

  Discontinued Books:

Red queen series (second book) (Victoria Aveyard)

Rule of three (first book) (Eric Walter)

You are mine (first book) (Janeal Falor)

Crewel World (first book)

  Currently Reading:

Half Wild - Sally Green (Half Bad book#2)