I Only Ever Wanted You To Be Okay

“i only ever wanted you to be okay

it’s tough. i know it is. but breathe anyway. just breathe and come home so that all the rest of us can breathe too.”

@n0miracleshere 

so the thing is, i only ever wanted you to be okay

i didn’t get it back then, but you didn’t either, so it’s hard to say who’s at fault

maybe you should’ve handled it better, maybe i should’ve said something, but we didn’t so we’re here

i think i finally get what people mean when they talk about being young and stupid. we thought we knew what we were doing but we were both too afraid to show the sides of us that weren’t as pretty and we let those sides consume us.

we could have helped each other. everything would have matched up perfectly, except fear has a funny way of seeping into things you don’t want it to touch. fear of judgment sewed my mouth shut, fear of not being good enough locked you behind a door of isolation, and we were just too young and dumb to fix it.

i know you and i aren’t what we used to be and that’s okay. but i also know we’re more alike than you pretend we are and i just wish you’d let me help. like you used to, until you rinse-and-repeated the same thing you did last time and left me wondering what it is you’re really running from.

look, i just want you to know i care, is all. i see things in you that worry me so i can’t help it if i don’t want to leave you alone with yourself. boy is just one letter away from body and i never want you to become that.

listen, what I’m trying to say is, your body is a temple so stop burning the altars. stop turning every bad idea into a lesson in self-destruction and learn to live with what you’ve got. i don’t want to have to cope with the aftermath of a split-second decision gone wrong, don’t want to have to worry that someone will end up pulling you off the side of the road or brining you home in handcuffs. yeah, yeah, it’s tough. i know it is. but breathe anyway. just breathe and come home so that all the rest of us can breathe too.

you’re not indestructible // k.

I want to be the friend you fall hopelessly in love with. The one you take into your arms and into your bed and into the private world you keep trapped in your head. I want to be that kind of friend...                                                                                                                                                 ...I want to convince you to design a smile just for me. Yes, I do want to be your friend. I want to be your best friend in the entire world.

Tahereh Mafi, Unravel Me

What in the World: How to Read the  Shadow Hunter Chronicles Chronologically

The Series:

The Infernal Devices (Tessa, Will, Jem)

Clockwork Angel

Clockwork Prince

Clockwork Princess

The Last Hours (Cordelia, Lucy, James)

Chain of Gold

Chain of Iron

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The Mortal Instruments (Clary, Jace)

City of Bones

City of Bones

City of Ashes

City of Glass

City of Fallen Angels

City of Lost Souls

City of Heavenly Fire

The Eldest Curses (Alec, Magnus)

The Red Scrolls of Magic

The Lost Book of The White

The Black Volume of The Dead unknown release

The Dark  Artifices (Emma, Julian)

Lady Midnight

Lord of Shadows

Queen of Air and Darkness

The Wicked Powers (Ty, Kit, Dru) unknown release

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The Short Stories:

The Bane Chronicles

The Tales from the Shadow Hunter Acadamy

Ghosts of the Shadow Market

*SPOILERS FOR QOAAD*

FINISHED QOAAD! CANNOT BELIEVE THEY ACTUALLY FINALLY GOT MARRIED! Like Catrina holding Magnus’s hand as he walked down the ile!? A shadow hunter-warlock wedding fusion!? Lightwood rings!? Jia performing the ceremony!? THE KIDS DANCING WITH THEM AFTER!? ALEC PROPOSING EVEN WHEN HE HAS SO MUCH ON HIS MIND WITH RE-BUILDING THE SHADOW HUNTER WORLD!? YES PLEASE!!!

truly an underappreciated moment between these two immortal husbands

The thing I know about Bipolar Disorder is that it's a label. One you give crazy people. Labels like 'Bipolar' say this is why you are the way you are. This is who you are. They explain people away as an illness.

All The Bright Places (Pg. 271-271)

pass the happy! 🌻🌈 when you receive this, list 5 things that make you happy and send this to ten of the last people in your notifications!

1. Books

2. Cake

3. Late night conversations

4. Random smiles

5. Laughing over anything and everything with friends