Still Learning To Play With Templates!

Still learning to play with templates!

--- My dream of an Elephant ---

I was on a night drive with my mom, though we didn’t know where we were going. I knew that we were to meet someone who had previously delivered something to us. But we recognized them as family that didn’t like us... so we decided against going in case that the situation would turn hostile.

We ended up going to the next house, which was the same situation, where the person also didn’t like us. Yet my mother approached the house anyway, because it was trickling with water; we saw a giant fountain in the shape of an elephant. My mom was met with an angry woman that I didn’t recognize, and I left after she followed her inside the house.

There was a beach nearby, but I had to cross this apartment complex that looked like a jungle gym... It was full of characters that reminded me of middle school. I tried to ignore them as they taunted me, but some of them flirted with me too. If I looked them in the eyes too long they would draw me in close-- like energetically. 

Each person seemed to dissipate as an abstract shape, while I climbed a scaffolding from the side of the apartment onto the beach... it wasn’t until I reached the top of the complex that I met someone on the beach who gave me the sweetest kiss ever.

---  July begins my personal month XVI ---

The Tower; with Neptune’s influence over the High-Heart. This arcana represents an event that miraculously shifts your reality... Which can be as subtle as lighting, or as harrowing as a puffy cloud. Neptune is a divine masculine sphere working to descend divine energy into the material plane. We can work with his powers of metaphysical emergence through the Soul Star. This is what allows us to have an immersive spiritual experience while we are on Earth.

Neptune’s influence over the High-Heart is meant to manifest a miracle in disguise. Most people are not open to receive miracles from the divine, because society has brainwashed them to sink into the 3rd dimension. Our higher-self works through the Soul Star, which is never blocked. Except our higher-self will act to support us through whatever level of consciousness that we can be reached. The beliefs that you are attached to can be a way for your guides to shield or protect you. However, people with very strong attachments will manifest huge bouts of struggle as the divine reclaims its presence in their life.

That’s why this card is pretty notorious for it’s symbolism. Neptune in your chart defines your highest potential, but you don’t get to experience it unless you’re doing the work to allow the divine some sacred space in your heart. The High-Heart chakra is even more-so distorted by people’s limited understanding because humanity is still going undergoing a Heart chakra awakening. You can’t expect to ascend into 5D overnight... there’s real 3D work to practice and only by turning to your innate divinity can you begin to witness real miracles on Earth.

--- The planet of my highest potential in my 5th house ---

This is the house of pleasure, where the expression of your soul desires attracts more of what you need. It’s where you grow into your power as a magnetic, creative force, or become engulfed in your own insatiable impulses. 

My 5th house is largely ruled by the sign of Self-actualization, which reinstates my sense of character. I’m someone who learned to be proud of myself, and see my own progress when others treated me like I’m disposable. Neptune has taught me that envy is a self-imposed illusion. It’s a perfect pill for escapists who need to deny that they set their own standards... I’ve struggled with my personality for so long because I kept expecting for people to make space for me to fit into their world. It wasn’t until I realized that I could make my own world-- that I belonged to my own lane and category, did I actually start to respect myself. 

A huge marker of my adolescent period was about my self-expression as a culturally displaced, visibly queer kid.

“can you tell me your opinion on this” -ghostreaper

There’s a nice stellium of planets over your 9th and 10th house, occupied by the sign of self-enlightenment. Sagittarius’ natural ruler Jupiter is included in that mix. That’s the planet of self-expansion within the house of your public image and career. He works to receive fulfillment and grow your attraction through the wisdom that you bring into whatever work you do. But his lessons will frustrate you if you have issues in the 4th house.

Have you ever been so attracted to something like a new hobby, but felt creatively blocked?

It’s like your desires are too strong to ignore so you spend time articulating your attraction, just to feel paralyzed by your own standards... Venus and Mars are conjunct in this house which can speak for your desire to shed limitations around what your career can look like. Because a lot of the time what holds us back are the ideas and perceptions of the people around us.

The 10th house is naturally ruled by Saturn, the planet of soul accountability. She sits on your ascendant, lording over your identity. I think she’s the key to actualization your potential. Otherwise your dreams will stay dreams unless you prove to yourself that you deserve them. You can do shadow work to release your blocks and connect with the divine. You would make yourself available to receive miracles.

The doodle I drew appears like a rooster. It feels like you have a heart chakra block, because maybe you were tired of your relationships or they don’t really inspire you. This could have to do with peers and co-workers specifically who you are in competition with.

Those type of connections should motivate you to be better than yourself, otherwise they are as good as mutual ego-trips that lead nowhere fast.

Saturn and Pluto both represent the divine feminine on a collective level, so they are heavily misunderstood as you can imagine. Our patriarchal society needs to heal the relationship we have with the divine in general, in order to act from our highest potential and create miracles.

~Good luck

I’ll be using my spectrum chart to make my personal 2022 transit calendar.

“wondering what this could mean spiritually?” -anon

I personally learned to read the placements through the houses they fall on, since that’s how I ground their messages. You would need an accurate birth time to get more specific interpretation.

But Mercury in Taurus, Venus in Gemini, Jupiter in Virgo, all stand out to me… I would suggest you to think about: your self-worth and really analyze your values. 

Taurus is a feminine sign receiving through the powers of a feminine element. A lot of people think it’s ruled by the planet of the heart’s desires but it’s more accurately ruled by Part of Fortune in the chart, which is calculated with a birth time.

Fortune is the point of our divine gifts! It is revealed to us through personal fulfillment of our deepest wishes... How you can connect to your deepest wishes depends on how you consciously realize them. Mercury is linked to the throat chakra, it’s splashing into your Venus and your Jupiter placements. 

Do you have an outlet to express your desires? 

There are some things that we just can’t go a single day without... For instance, people who love writing, could write pages and books without getting bored of it. Whatever we spend time doing should always energize us! 

The key to realizing our dreams comes in expressing our desires.

Now the planet of expansion will not let you create anything for yourself that you don’t really believe in... That means that until you connect with your conscious values and learn to express them in ways that liberate your feelings, then you won’t really understand what you want to do with your life.

The doodle I made appears to me like an elephant. It feels like you have a sacral chakra block, because maybe you have a vast imagination that you don’t know how to implement in your life. It’s important for you to remember what brings you joy, and start to share that joy with others who will bring you into new creative habits.

It will be challenging to see what you deeply desire, because the majority of the time we’ve been taught to suppress it. 

But you have to be brave and explore your impulses, so that you can grow in your understanding of how to fulfill yourself!

Again how this all manifests is more closely associated with the houses these planets are placed in.

Good luck~

a maurable render for my sibling + also their spectrum chart which I will use to teach them astrology