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Friendly advice for scorpio/8th house natives

Take this with a grain of salt, if you can relate to it then excellent. I have seen many 8th housers/scorpio placements who play mind games/emotional games with other people. They have indeed survived a tough childhood so they learn these tactics to survive and carry into adulthood.

Things like push-pull cycle, breaking up as a joke to see if the partner makes effort to get back, threatening with self harm to get attention, using victim story for love and special treatment, being suspicious and controlling because fear of rejection, being interfering in everything because fear of losing control, having idealistic tendencies to compensate for what lacked in childhood, having overwhelming emotions that are hard to control, being reactive emotionally to problems in life, being impulsive and falling in love with man you met last week, pouring your heart out to random man to create bond connection (trauma bond), feeling envious and competitive with other same sex people for desirability.

If you can identify yourself in these traits or have been this person in past, you would know how these behaviours can wreck up your life. If you are even more self aware you would be able to connect your psychological issues to your childhood and parents. If you are even luckier, you would know how to heal your trauma and transform into a different person.

Scorpio can be a blessing and a curse. Think about it!

Scorpio rising/sun/moon: "I am my own worst enemy"

It appears to me that scorpions dont just love/hate to the extreme but also feel every other impulse to the extreme. Whether it is power issues, anger issues, superiority/inferiority complex or else. They feel everything to 100% and beyond.

Similar to this, mars ruled Aries is the hallmark of feeling position. The difference lies in aries pursuing worldly goals while scorpio pursuing spiritual goals. This is my theory from what I have seen these placements playing out.

Clearly, this is very self destructive way to live life. I have seen scorpion taking things to heart and hold grudge for long times. I suggest doing self development and some physical output to release that energy like gym and sports. Also, journal your moods and see when the emotion spikes, which emotion spikes the most, see your pattern, know yourself better. The more you know yourself, the lesser self sabotage you will do.

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Scorpio Evolution

Instability

Personality and Persona come easily to others. But not Scorpios. They are holding a persona while panicking inside, hoping they don't lose control. Contrary to my classmate girls, I always struggled with a personality and relating to others. I tip toed around personas, sometimes too much of something, sometimes too less of something. Sometimes too humble and sweet but sometimes being a bad girl and bully. It surprised me too how unstable I was. I think it is the fire signs that are the best at holding personas, they can really play a character and convince you they are that persona. While the water signs are the ones who hate Persona the most, they prefer solitude so they don't have to "become somebody" - they rather stay dissolved in the spaces around them than put the effort in becoming a person.

Fakeness

An unevolved Scorpio can get a job identifying degrees of fakeness in other people. As if they are an AI monitor that scans each person for signs of inauthenticity in each context. Who is to determine what is "authentic" though? Is there a universally accepted benchmark for the most authentic personality that each human should embody and emulate? Look at this Scorpio trying to discover the most authentic formula for human personality:

Scorpio and Cucumbers

Evolution begins when Scorpios realize that they are triggered by everything and everyone because they are not trying to do the dirty work of self-analysis, identify the emotions, go back to the roots of their memories, practice skills to neutralize that emotion and wait until most of their triggers are neutralized. So that it does not shock them anymore to see their own void. But this way of life is not very delighting. Who wants to be dwelling in dark feelings and ruminate on past memories for years upon years? It is a painful lifestyle, it robs one off their happiness, especially in a society that encourages positivity and unconditional happiness.

Why Psychoanalyze?

It may be because of their constant transformations and perpetual turmoils. They are always unfolding and becoming. They are uncertain what the next transformation will be. Psychoanalysis, astrology, personality types help them make sense of their transformations. Because the transformations are not random, they are what the Scorpio has absorbed from their environment or their subconscious mind has picked up in a metro ride back in 2005. So, psychoanalysis gives them stability otherwise they might slip into the lands of unknowns. Imagine you have no name and everyone calls you a random name anytime, you would want to know what you are called at each passing hours because you know that your name changes all the time. For Scorpio, psychology is self identity, it is an unnecessary task to be living such an unstable life.

Black or White Perception

Scorpios either idealize someone, or even everyone, or they are cynical about everyone. They are quick to generalize because they can't imagine someone out there does not have the same intention as the person that hurt them, so they generalize their experience with 1 person on everyone - granted their life themes are also darker than average so it makes sense why they can be really cynical. When they idealize, they want unconditional love, perfection, dreamy state of nourishment, as if they want to unite with the Holy Mother, the source of all creations. The immature Scorpio sees everyone as a potential ideal person and gets betrayed. Do that long enough and he treats everyone with disdain and contempt. In Scorpio mind, you are either a black lab or a white:

If they see you as a white lab, they will ignore 1000 red flags, overlook all your flaws, become cute and goofy with you, treat you like a royalty. And then you betray them - OR - your intensity drops - OR - you've been together for some years, then Scorpio will replay every memory in their head and analyze the records with you. Everything will be scrutinized. Your intentions, actions, motives and everything you say will be judged. Then the council will give its decision - you are a BLACK lab. Scorpio withdraws, isolates, undergoes cognitive dissonance, undo everything, destroy all memories with you, analyze their own insecurities and begin healing their spiritual issues. OR, jump into next relationship without any inner work and find another white lab puppy until the puppy breaks their bubble. Quite fantasizers Scorpios are! Water does give intuitive and imaginative capabilities. The mature Scorpio is NOT intense because he begins to see both bad and good in everyone, you are a mixed puppy to them, neither perfect nor flawed. This Scorpio is self aware, has deep psychological insights into their own mind, obviously spiritually inclined and see you as mere human - neither God nor Demon, if both parties are mature and self aware, what a spiritually delightful couple:

Manipulative

Crocodile tears, storytelling, seeking pity - Scorpios love this pattern. They might not even know they are doing it because they are so unconscious. It is their attempt to receive instant confirmation and validation that they are seen, heard, important, relevant. This too can be fixed if they remind themselves that they are relevant even if nobody else says that. I think that Scorpios are the most complicated sign. Their group members Cancer and Pisces are similar but Scorpios are just dark and negative. They constantly dwell in fantasies of misfortune and feeling grief and sad about everything that could go wrong. One could say they are very aware of Karma and how everything that is good is a consequence of something; somehow they are afraid of their bad karma ripening and their good times over. One Scorpio placement is enough to create this perpetually disturbed person.

Maturity

For some reason, Scorpios are quite afraid of bad or wrong people. Maybe because being hurt makes them feel powerless and stupid. I recall scam victims bawling their heart out "I am so stupid I fell for that scam, why was I not alert 😭". It really breaks their self-confidence that they are not capable of decision making. Scorpios live with this fear all the time. They are anticipating your next moves and calculating their own reaction to always stay a step ahead of you. Their power drive is intense and they rather live a fantasy where everyone is subservient to them than face the reality. Also, they can be really demanding "Love me NOW!!!!" "LOVE ME TOOOOO MUCH, I said TOO MUCH". And who can love them toooo much and fill their black holes? Nobody. Eventually everyone will tire of them and Scorpio resorts to filling that void himself. Maturity and healing are a Work of Art. In Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka, Gregor Samsa turns into an insect one morning and stays in his room for months until one day he disappears. "Metamorphosis" means to transform, from one creature to the next stage. As you can see in this story, healing is never pretty. Your loved ones are disgusted at you, society mocks and ridicules you, people are amazed and even scared of you. Healing is the emotional turmoil, patience, healing, relapsing, relapsing and again relapsing until the wound stops hurting. I think this is how Scorpios heal. I dont know if Yoga, affirmations, healing courses, therapy can fix them; perhaps their psyche will rebirth itself, it is the most psychologically messy thing ever.

For this reason, Scorpio can be the emo, grunge, goth type. Not because they are faking it but because they actually feel that scared of being alive. Unless there are other lighter placements to cheer them up, Scorpios are just...the saddest person ever. They will just make things up in their head and imagine what it feels like to be born as a poor person in the state of Martian civilization with no family and education, just struggling all their life - oh, how sad! 😭 For this reason, they never really finish healing. First they heal their own traumas, then they heal the trauma of all their ancestors and finally they heal the trauma of every single person alive. As a result, they can be empathetic, healers, compassionate and understanding. This is of course only possible when planets placed in Scorpio sign are capable of giving good results and attain enlightenment; otherwise a lot of Scorpios never fix themselves. I think even Aquarius can be emo because of their humanitarian approach and helping everyone with whatever they can, combined with pisces placement they can definitely start charity foundation. I have seen Aquarius + Pisces and even 11h + 12h combination helping a lot of people with money and assistance, they don't even take it back, just giving money to help others open handedly.

I don’t know if this composite chart is healthy or will be the death of me

I don’t know if this composite chart is healthy or will be the death of me

🖤Moon - Pluto Aspects🔪

🖤Dives deeply into their feelings

🔪Their emotions are INTENSE and often feel all consuming

🖤fear is usually heightened and they may have strong anxiety or fear of loss, control or death

🔪They might experience emotional addiction (to others emotions or their own)

🖤Often need time to digest what they’re actually feeling and might have a hard time communicating to others what they’re feeling

🔪Might feel the need to control their emotions, wether this means repressing the or keeping a lid on them or controlling how others see them

🖤Might have an extreme fear of loss, change or the unknown (although it might show up in subtle ways)

🔪Usually they have a core need to feel safe, and to feel safe some sort of massive emotional deconstruction or reconstruction usually has to occur (not the easiest cycle)

🖤Often their home life is intense and they need space away from it (sadly a lot of people I know with this aspect have abusive families, but not all moon-Pluto people will)

🔪Those with the hard aspects (conjunction, square, opposition) might feel intruded upon or invaded especially by their family

🖤These people like to get to the root of why they feel the way they do, they want to eradicate the feeling at the source

🔪Are known for ‘killing’ their feelings and might appear cold to others

🖤However feelings aren’t usually killed, but more buried until they reappear later in a burst that can be destructive

🔪Their families might have a skeleton or a secret in their cupboard, some sort of trauma or violation or other messy situation, but again depends on the person

🖤These people are often charged with carrying their family’s secret and to heal them

🔪Can act as a sponge, soaking in any negativity or unexpressed feelings around them (they can easily get drained by being near people)

🖤Whenever there’s a crisis around them, even if it has nothing to do with them, they’ll usually somehow manage to get involved in it (they can smell trauma a mile away)

🔪Usually they are her strong and perceptive people, even if they aren’t vocal on what they observe. Others turn to them for advice especially in hard times

🖤Nothing ever really seems to shock them, they have seen, and more so felt it, all before

🔪Great at providing and safe space for people to express their emotions, can become amazing therapists

🖤Sadly they often attract unhealthy relationships. Relationships that are emotionally intense and dramatic

🔪Also seem to attract who are at polar opposites of the emotional scale, with the conjunction they might find someone who’s very emotionally repressed, who keeps their emotional world hidden or with the other aspects usually someone who feels helpless to their emotions, who’s controlled by their intense emotional swings

🖤They might also choose dramatic partners who can act out the Plutonian emotions that they are not comfortable with expressing yet

🔪On a side note they also tend to just find people who are opposite to them

🖤They often crave intense emotional interaction, and their personal life isn’t usually tranquil for long

🔪They are full of dark, seething undercurrents that can erupt at any minute

🖤They like to keep the details of their personal and domestic life to themselves, and not in public view. They might feel like there’s no need to trust the others with their feelings and secrets

🔪Many come from a background where it wasn’t safe to expose/express ones feelings. They might be used for manipulation, control or blackmail

🖤While they are amazing at detecting things like manipulation, control and blackmail they may use them consciously or unconsciously as well

🔪They might be obsessed with their mother in some way, or wanting to be a mother. Or their mother might be obsessed with them

🖤Mother figure might be controlling and over protective. She might over mother or invade the child’s space, allowing no hiding place, no secrets, no privacy

🔪The conjunction might signal that they won’t be accepted by their family, or that they need to leave their family/community to be authentically themselves

🖤Very in-tune with their subconscious and their primal feelings, and their subcnious is often VERY strong

🔪They might crash into or invade others feelings or be very frightened of doing so

🖤Might have an obsession with motives, what their motives are and what others motives are

🔪 A general philosophy they might have is “if I know the person thourougly, including their weaknesses, then they cannot hurt me, because I hold the power”

🖤They might have power struggles come up again and again in their relationships

🔪Can be very possessive

🖤Might be constantly told they are too sensitive, obsessive, emotional or serious

🔪Very resilient people with willpower of steel and often can uplift others

🖤The most difficult lesson they may need to learn is to let go of their feelings. They may have the urge to purge their destructive emotions like rage, hurt, suspicion and jealousy but their fear of letting go is often stronger

🔪Moon-Pluto people are Intense. Their emotions, home environment and the people that surround them can lead them to be controlling, manipulative and anxious people. However, because of their experience with the darker side of life they tend to be resilient and inspiring, and at their best they can squeeze out depth from every experience. They make powerful,impactful and loyal friends and partners🖤

🖤Moon - Pluto Aspects🔪

🖤Dives deeply into their feelings

🔪Their emotions are INTENSE and often feel all consuming

🖤fear is usually heightened and they may have strong anxiety or fear of loss, control or death

🔪They might experience emotional addiction (to others emotions or their own)

🖤Often need time to digest what they’re actually feeling and might have a hard time communicating to others what they’re feeling

🔪Might feel the need to control their emotions, wether this means repressing the or keeping a lid on them or controlling how others see them

🖤Might have an extreme fear of loss, change or the unknown (although it might show up in subtle ways)

🔪Usually they have a core need to feel safe, and to feel safe some sort of massive emotional deconstruction or reconstruction usually has to occur (not the easiest cycle)

🖤Often their home life is intense and they need space away from it (sadly a lot of people I know with this aspect have abusive families, but not all moon-Pluto people will)

🔪Those with the hard aspects (conjunction, square, opposition) might feel intruded upon or invaded especially by their family

🖤These people like to get to the root of why they feel the way they do, they want to eradicate the feeling at the source

🔪Are known for ‘killing’ their feelings and might appear cold to others

🖤However feelings aren’t usually killed, but more buried until they reappear later in a burst that can be destructive

🔪Their families might have a skeleton or a secret in their cupboard, some sort of trauma or violation or other messy situation, but again depends on the person

🖤These people are often charged with carrying their family’s secret and to heal them

🔪Can act as a sponge, soaking in any negativity or unexpressed feelings around them (they can easily get drained by being near people)

🖤Whenever there’s a crisis around them, even if it has nothing to do with them, they’ll usually somehow manage to get involved in it (they can smell trauma a mile away)

🔪Usually they are her strong and perceptive people, even if they aren’t vocal on what they observe. Others turn to them for advice especially in hard times

🖤Nothing ever really seems to shock them, they have seen, and more so felt it, all before

🔪Great at providing and safe space for people to express their emotions, can become amazing therapists

🖤Sadly they often attract unhealthy relationships. Relationships that are emotionally intense and dramatic

🔪Also seem to attract who are at polar opposites of the emotional scale, with the conjunction they might find someone who’s very emotionally repressed, who keeps their emotional world hidden or with the other aspects usually someone who feels helpless to their emotions, who’s controlled by their intense emotional swings

🖤They might also choose dramatic partners who can act out the Plutonian emotions that they are not comfortable with expressing yet

🔪On a side note they also tend to just find people who are opposite to them

🖤They often crave intense emotional interaction, and their personal life isn’t usually tranquil for long

🔪They are full of dark, seething undercurrents that can erupt at any minute

🖤They like to keep the details of their personal and domestic life to themselves, and not in public view. They might feel like there’s no need to trust the others with their feelings and secrets

🔪Many come from a background where it wasn’t safe to expose/express ones feelings. They might be used for manipulation, control or blackmail

🖤While they are amazing at detecting things like manipulation, control and blackmail they may use them consciously or unconsciously as well

🔪They might be obsessed with their mother in some way, or wanting to be a mother. Or their mother might be obsessed with them

🖤Mother figure might be controlling and over protective. She might over mother or invade the child’s space, allowing no hiding place, no secrets, no privacy

🔪The conjunction might signal that they won’t be accepted by their family, or that they need to leave their family/community to be authentically themselves

🖤Very in-tune with their subconscious and their primal feelings, and their subcnious is often VERY strong

🔪They might crash into or invade others feelings or be very frightened of doing so

🖤Might have an obsession with motives, what their motives are and what others motives are

🔪 A general philosophy they might have is “if I know the person thourougly, including their weaknesses, then they cannot hurt me, because I hold the power”

🖤They might have power struggles come up again and again in their relationships

🔪Can be very possessive

🖤Might be constantly told they are too sensitive, obsessive, emotional or serious

🔪Very resilient people with willpower of steel and often can uplift others

🖤The most difficult lesson they may need to learn is to let go of their feelings. They may have the urge to purge their destructive emotions like rage, hurt, suspicion and jealousy but their fear of letting go is often stronger

🔪Moon-Pluto people are Intense. Their emotions, home environment and the people that surround them can lead them to be controlling, manipulative and anxious people. However, because of their experience with the darker side of life they tend to be resilient and inspiring, and at their best they can squeeze out depth from every experience. They make powerful,impactful and loyal friends and partners🖤

Astrology observations pt 5🕷️

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🐈‍⬛Leo moons if underdeveloped are honestly one of the most toxic placements to deal with.

🐈‍⬛ personally, i find virgo women the fakest of all. Ive also observed that they're very insecure and honestly, they are quite bitchy if underdeveloped.🤡🤡

🐈‍⬛ I don't think Leo and Libra women rlly get along that well. There's always some unspoken air of tension bw them🥶🥶

🐈‍⬛ scorp and virgo sound like a disaster. sorry 😐🤷🏽‍♀️ hear me out, scorps are very emotional and honestly? Sensitive af whilst virgos are analytical and critical. When a scorp feels emotional, the virgo gets all analytical and this is where the problems start. There is a sense of misunderstanding bw the 2. Esp the moon and the venus underdeveloped.

Virgo is critical and scorps are very sensitive abt it.

🐈‍⬛ scorpio and virgo love to "be honest" and give "constructive criticism" but can't handle it if someone else does this to them. They get all sulky and petty. Ew.✋🤡😂

🐈‍⬛ everyone keeps talking abt how vengeful scorps are but have y'all seen cancers????? They're SOME crazy MFS. These MFS go 100 on a 20 once they've lost their shit 🛣️🚘

Astrology observations pt8 🐞

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🚨i think pisces placements look very confused or are very confused because pisces being ruled by Neptune can seem to be under some illusion. They seem lost for some reason. I have pisces in 6th and everytime we go out to buy things, i end up "looking" lost.😂

🚨Aries mars, venus, moon and mercury culture is telling/hoping ppl understand that getting angry and getting irritated are not the same✋😤😒😡🤡❤️

🚨having Aries placements such a struggle tbh, like IM JUST SPEAKING WITH A LOT OF PASSION. IT DOESNT MEAN IN ANGRY🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 thankyou i luv you 🥺🥺🤡💔

🚨 i said it before, I'll say it again, SCORPIO PLACEMENTS ARE NOT SCARY🤣✋❤️

🚨 I've observed scorpio placements are quite rude in a confrontation. They either don't know how to talk properly during an argument or they do it purposely to scare/ manipulate the other party. They also play alot of word games during an argument and tend to twist words alot esp the moon, mars, mercury and sun. Ew✋🥴 kinda more like undeveloped placements but I've seen even developed placements do it but most of the time restrain themselves. They're very self aware.👁️

It takes alot of time for these ppl to stop doing this and honestly? Sometimes it never stops.

A part reason for that could be that they're very emotional and intuitive.

🚨 cancer moon in 9th house means wanting to be close to home but wanting to move away simultaneously 😂🥴✋ it's a struggle y'all. It's a struggle✋🙃

Astro observations pt10🫖

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♨️Having moon in water sign is so exhausting sometimes. like, i feel all these emotions around me and it gets so confusing cause i be feeling happy one min and sad the another cause i felt someone else's personal emotions/ story and now i feel bad for them🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

♨️water mars 🤝 urge to cry in the middle of an argument cause you don't wanna murder them

♨️Aries mars 🤝urge to raise your voice/ scream cause you're genuinely not able to understand who is stupid you or them? 🤡❤️😂

♨️ Taurus/gem/virgo/cap mars🤝 thinking abt an argument afterwards and what you could have said.

Also, in very sorry for not posting very frequently. I have my practicals going on. I will be uploading more posts tho. So tune in❤️❤️❤️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Astrology observations pt 16🌀

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🔱 i personally feel that libras, Gemini, cancer, aquas, leos are the biggest people pleasers in the crowd when underdeveloped 😪😪😪. (Applicable to stelliums, mars and moon even sun sometimes)

🔱 alot of gemini's that i know, lie just to make themselves look deeper than usual. And if you end up catching their lie then they'll get all offended and start making up lies abt you if heavily underdeveloped.🤡🤣 (Bonus if it's mars and moon)

🔱 scorpios lie a lot. LMFAOOO esp mars and moon underdeveloped 🤣🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 I feel that it's majorly because they like to appear deepe than what they are.

🔱 worst signs to argue are honestly, scorpio not Aries. Like ik everyone gives Aries shit for being temperamental but I've personally seen that scorps don't know how the behave properly in an argument or confrontations. They're not only manipulative but also extremely disrespectful once they're caught they also loose their tempers easily and hold grudges and this is quite evident in sun, moon, mars and mercury underdeveloped. 🤠🤠🤠🙏🙏🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫

🔱 most paranoid sign I've personally seen is virgo and Gemini underdeveloped. Both being ruled by mercury tend to become extremely "in my head" rather than objective and seeking clarifications. 🤠🤠

Virgos develop a very critical and honestly , back biting demeanor and gemini's are also like that esp moon, sun, mars and mercury.

🔱 Having Aquarius in 4th house is like your fam asking where have you been😂😂🤠 like a detached approach towards fam is definitely present but they care. They care😌😌❤️🤍

A letter to my unrequited love - I

{Confessions of a scorpio moon}

I thought I loved you. It was dangerous. I was intimidated how severely you controlled my mind. I was willing to do anything to please you. To give up my freedom, my studies, my family, my friends, my foundation just to spend time with you. I'd stare at my phone with anxiety crawling up my skin, wondering if you were ignoring me on purpose. You always did it intently. It would drive me mad. I'd be so hurt and pissed knowing you'd read my messages but would never care to reply. I would never understand why I would reply to you in milliseconds when you'd make me wait for hours. Why I'd hurt after hurting you as a form of reactive abuse. I always wanted to soothe your pain, to ease your suffering, to make you feel loved because I saw past your facade. I knew how you'd be the cool guy, the life of the party, the social butterfly who could charm anyone. But I wanted to be the special one who'd lock eyes with you and make you mine. I never felt like I deserved you. I put you on a pedestal and worshipped you like God. I always felt like you were everything that was considered "cool" by the society. People would admire you. They would give in. I did too. You could draw in anyone you liked. You had the game. You could lay eyes on anyone and have them by sweet talking them into your trap. I knew you were playing me. My intuition tried to warn me several times. The red flags seemed dangerous every now and then but being the reckless lover that I am, I thought you'd be the right person to break my heart. Maybe, I expected too much from you. I wanted you to fill the voids I had. I wanted to be consumed by your love. I needed your attention constantly. I wanted to talk to you 24*7 although I never really had much to talk about. I was boring as hell but you, there would always be messages lined up for you. I felt privileged and honoured to receive a reply from you. It validated me. I felt seen. And heard. And appreciated. It was the best feeling ever. I had only been abandoned, discarded and used all my life. Being validated felt magical for a change. It made me want to surrender my life to you. I started living as per your terms. I'd do little things you'd mention in conversations to become your ideal lover in hopes of being noticed by you. But time and again, you'd fail to notice me. As if I was never there. But I was. I was always there for you. Through thick and thin. Right before your eyes.

-R

A Letter to my unrequited love - II

{Confessions of a scorpio moon}

You'd dump your trauma on me and I'd take it all happily, thinking it'd help you feel better, lighter. I thought you deserved to feel the happiest. And I'd easily swap your pain with the rare moments of joy I managed to feel. I stayed up at nights listening to you vent about your failed relationships, madly in love with you, shattering silently on the floor of my bedroom, ignoring my pain and paying heed to yours. You always came first, right? You were so dreamy, how could anyone ever hurt you? It felt absolutely cruel. I wanted to nurse your wounds and it was honestly too late when I realized that I was burning myself all throughout to warm you up. I didn't stop though. Why would I? You were someone I'd never want to lose. You made me feel wanted for a short amount of time. Your scraps of love and attention made me feel like a queen. I felt so loved. It touched my heart. No one ever expressed that kind of love to me before. I didn't even love myself half as much as I loved you. I was trained to be a giver, to cater to everyone else's needs and the same pattern unfolded here. You kept depleting me of the little love I had and I didn't mind it. We both would pour our love into you and I'd watch you bloom. You'd give your love to everyone except me. I wanted to claim a piece of your love. Your time. Your attention. I wanted to talk to you. I wanted to go deep into your psyche to understand and explore every bit of you. Everything you did made me fall for you harder and harder. It seemed to me like you enjoyed hurting me. Making me wait. Watching me get jealous. Triggering my childhood wounds. You'd feel cocky and arrogant knowing I was so desperate to talk to you. I'd sacrifice my self-respect and initiate a conversation all the time. You'd play it cool. You were cool. But you were cold. And distant too. You often called me names, insulted me and made me feel like trash. You didn't hesitate to walk all over me or use me like your punchbag. You took your anger out on me and I took the abuse not knowing how to pull myself out of the mess I got into.

I have spent sleepless nights trying to figure out why I wasn't enough. I questioned my worth several times. I never felt like I could match up to you. I could never meet you up there. The more I loved you, the more I began to hate myself. I didn't love myself even half as much as I loved you. It didn't make sense to me. But I didn't care. Until you broke my heart. Brutally. You stabbed my back with a smile on your face. Damn, your smile. It melted my broken heart. I couldn't bring myself to hate you. But I had to. I had to do something about it. I had nothing left. I felt hopeless and powerless. It was the last straw that broke the camel's back. Had it been a little sooner, I wouldn't have to move mountains to heal myself. Maybe it'd come easy.

Thank you for being the braver one among the two of us. One of us had to do it. One of us had to break my heart. Thankyou for leaving me broken. I've built it stronger this time. Don't bother knocking on the door. You're not welcome.

-R

I have 7 Scorpio placements in my Natal Chart and I can sense lies from a mile away. I also have a Taurus stellium which implies that not only do I have zero tolerance for lies, but I also thrive at finding them out. You lie, you die bitch. I don't give second chances to people. Come clean is all I say. Don't try to outsmart me because I know what's up with your lying ass. If I find you lying (which btw, I will) for futile, petty shit, you lose all my respect. And as a consequence, I will cut you off because I don't like an unequal give and take. Don't mess with me because I always know what's up. I see through a web of lies. Kind of a blessing as well as a curse, I'm not complaining though.

Confessions of Scorpio moon 🌙

I am ashamed of myself for doing everything I possibly could do to make you stay. To make you love me. To fight for your attention. Even in those weak moments when I knew that I deserved so much better than a lost soul who didn’t acknowledge how many hearts they were breaking. I knew exactly how cruel and selfish you were. And yet, I decided to stay. I don’t know why. Cause I never believed I could have you. The closest I could get to being a part of your life was by being your punching bag, or a friend you’d text whenever you were bored. I became the entertainment you needed in your life, but to me, you always were a star shining so bright in the sky, I wouldn’t mind freezing to death if it meant I could gaze at you all night. Little did I know, there were many more eyeing you. I probably was the last person in your priority list. Or maybe not that either. I don’t want to know the answer, I think it’ll break my heart. I try to sound rational, but I really let you break my heart a hundred times, did I not? Well, atleast there’s nothing left that can be broken anymore. I think about you so much, it’s crazy how I can’t get a grip on my fucking self. I wonder if you miss me. I know it’s so strange to think about you. I have so many questions to ask, but I’m not sure if my heart wants to know the answers anymore. I tear up whenever I think about you, rather about the love I had for you. I wish I could be a part of your life and didn’t just fade away. I was barely in the background anyway. I know I’ve acted in ugly ways and I hate how low I had stooped to get you to notice me, to pay attention to me and to give me some of your affection. I never understood what I lacked. Did I lack something? I remember you calling me mean and irritating. I have tried my best to overcome those in the last two years. I don’t know why I cared so much about your opinion of me. I remember you calling me problematic. Was I really problematic? Did you know how insecure I felt everytime you spoke about a new fling, or a new crush? I wouldn’t share you even with a fictional character. That’s probably my insecurity speaking but yeah. I don’t get to read your poems anymore. I wish I did. You have the gift of gab. Do you still write poetry? How have you been lately? I don’t want to make any small talk. I miss our deep conversations. I hope you’ve been able to heal. The idea of letting you go still scares me. But I’ve understood through therapy that letting me go is scarier. I wish we didn’t drift apart. I guess, we weren’t meant to be anyway. I cherish everything we had. I am trying to master detachment. Are you holding onto me tightly too? Cause there’s a reason I’m unable to let you go. I will though. Cause you’re gone. I don’t know if we’ll ever meet again. I don’t know if I want to. I don’t know anything. Why has loving you been such a painful experience even though you are so lovable? I hope no one’s hurt you when I was not around. Please protect your heart. You are precious. You deserve to heal. I wish healing onto you. I hope your inner child feels safe with you. If you have landed a job in these past few years, I want to congratulate you. I knew you were built for great things. And oh hey, belated happy birthday to you. I hope you had a blast. I am happy for you. I hope you continue to do amazing things in the future. Lastly, I hope you find the courage to be yourself. Know that you are loved. And ummm….. missed. Yeah, that’s it. Bye.

Astrological placements with Parental issues (imo)

Now take this with a grain of salt cause realistically I’m calling myself out a bit while I write this. Cause bruh I definitely got mommy issues but daddy issues I am not completely sure yet. Anyways let’s get into this.

100% (again take this with a grain of salt bruh)

Capricorn and Virgo Moons- Evidence: I am a Virgo moon and I know a couple of Capricorn moons who either have a dead mom or an emotionally absent parent (can be mom and dad)

Scorpio Mercury especially if they have a Capricorn placement as well: do I really need to say much. Scorpio is known for being mysterious or secretive and mercury is about how you think and communicate. They have something going on cause Scorpio placements can be intense and rough to have sometimes. Honestly I wanted to say scorpio and capricorn placements but I am not sure about Capricorn mars so I didn’t want to say a half hearted thing.

50% (it’s a coin flip from my experience)

Cancer Moon: Cancer moons as a whole have a polarizing relationship with their mom sometimes and I have met some cancer moons who have great relationships with their mom, But I have met cancer moons with the complete opposite but when I say bad relationships it tended to be a codependency onto their mother emotionally.

Taurus Moon: Honestly I feel like it depends on either the rest of their placements but also their sibling’s(if they have any) placements as well. I have three siblings and their moon signs are in order Cancer, Sagittarius, and Taurus with me as a middle child. Cause the Cancer moon sibling didn’t live with us. And the mommy issues are there for sure... Anyways I think Taurus moons tend to either have a stable family unit or felt like they had to basically become a rock emotionally to be the stability in their family.

Scorpio Moon: Kinda like what I said about Cancer moons but it seems like the Scorpio moons I have met their daddy issues seem to take a higher intensity than any bad blood they have with their mother. I feel like since Cancer is the ruler of the Moon the polarizing relationships with the mother just happens more than Scorpio moons. But i haven’t met too many Scorpio moons.

Aries Venus: I am only including this because I have an Aries Venus along with two of my siblings. While the other one has a Capricorn Venus. I again feel like this can depend on the rest of the person’s placements and if the Venus aspects their moon or even if they have it aspecting their parent’s Saturn. For instance, I have my moon, mercury, and Venus squaring my mother’s Saturn. Honestly I would recommend reading up on your own time from somewhere else because oof bruh...when I read up on it I wanted to cry a little from how much I resonated with it.

That’s it for now. I might come back to edit this later if I find out more about other placements lol

On Astrology and Queerness: Ocean Vuong

Just started “On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous” and Ocean Vuong’s Scorpio Moon is so loud!!

I feel like I’ve noticed it ever since I read “Time Is A Mother”. He has a thing for really violent imagery to convey emotions. This man must be a Cancer rising because it’s too strong!

This is from “The Bull” and this is one of my favorite lines in the whole book. This whole poem to me was about his relationship with queerness and other boys. As you can see it’s quite intense!

Speaking of queerness he gave a speech talking about queer folk that I think really highlighted his Scorpio Moon “For queer folk failure becomes a necessary practice towards success” I feel this make sense why the ancients say a detriment Moon or Venus can indicate queerness.

Moon and Venus are the two reproductive planets. He has both a Virgo Venus and Scorpio Moon. I find that queer people have to work a lot harder to find what works for them. As that knowledge is really not provided to them in this world. This quote truly exemplifies this fact A planet in detriment has no resources for the planet to function properly. So naturally this would cause a person with these placements to struggle with the themes of the planet and might go through a trial and error period to find what works for them.

Obviously these are not the end all be all placement for queerness (I’m queer and have none of these placements) but I felt it was interesting to look at!!

~✨TaTa for now✨

-Issiah

Astro Observations

- [ ] Venus conjunct Ascendant in Leo (Leo Rising) are just simply King/Queen. They exude Royalty Vibe.

- [ ] No matter What your rising sign is, if you have introverted Moon sign, you usually are an introvert.(not always tho)

- [ ] Mars RX people repress their anger inside and causes them depression.

- [ ] Scorpio moon people exude Scorpio Archetype.

- [ ] Venus in 12th house people are artistic at Soul Level.

- [ ] Sun square Uranus natal want to make sure they are different from the rest whether the way they dress or their posts on social media.

- [ ] If you ASC ruler resides in the 2nd house, people see you as a rich person or comes from a rich family. You look expensive no matter how you dress especially if your ASC ruler is the Sun(Leo Rising)

- [ ] Sun in 8th house people have strongly Scorpio Vibe. I know someone who has Sag ASC, Sun in Leo in 8th house, but He is really a Scorpio.( also his moon is Scorpio)

- [ ] Venus Trine Mars natal are just naturally Charming in Social Situation or at work. (Not sexually charming but likeable in my opinion, some find them sexually attractive though)

- [ ] Venus in Aries in 5th house = PLAYBOY/ PLAYGIRL.

- [ ] Venus in Aries in 5th house rush in and flirting with you and then also can leave you as quick.

- [ ] Uranus in 5th house natal is really Unique and weird in an very interesting way.

- [ ] Positive Sun-MC aspects, people see you as a successful person in your life in general ( either career or personal life)

- [ ] I’m sorry but Venus Square ASC people, you are beautiful but seem like you feel unsatisfied about your look (from the inside) and it shows. It’s like you don’t know exactly what fit your personality well in term of fashion sense. You should know how beautiful and charming you are, you really need to work on that and when you overcome it. The stage is yours.

- [ ] Leo moon, you are fun and loving. But if undeveloped, you tend to seek attention and validation from people.

- [ ] Any Planet Aspects to ASC( Conjunct, Square, Trine, Sextile, Opposite) affect your Appearance and physical traits in some way. For example, Pluto Square ASC can darken your rising and also has Intense gaze just like Scorpio.

- [ ] Mercury in Libra in 3rd house, you have good writing skills and also talkative when you’re with friends or coworker.

- [ ] Virgo risings look neat, clean, handsome/beautiful. To simplify, they look perfect. And also they Are observant, curious and very honest people.

- [ ] Mercury-Pluto, Pluto in 3rd house can kill you with words

- [ ] Venus-Pluto are se*y A F

“can you tell me your opinion on this” -ghostreaper

There’s a nice stellium of planets over your 9th and 10th house, occupied by the sign of self-enlightenment. Sagittarius’ natural ruler Jupiter is included in that mix. That’s the planet of self-expansion within the house of your public image and career. He works to receive fulfillment and grow your attraction through the wisdom that you bring into whatever work you do. But his lessons will frustrate you if you have issues in the 4th house.

Have you ever been so attracted to something like a new hobby, but felt creatively blocked?

It’s like your desires are too strong to ignore so you spend time articulating your attraction, just to feel paralyzed by your own standards... Venus and Mars are conjunct in this house which can speak for your desire to shed limitations around what your career can look like. Because a lot of the time what holds us back are the ideas and perceptions of the people around us.

The 10th house is naturally ruled by Saturn, the planet of soul accountability. She sits on your ascendant, lording over your identity. I think she’s the key to actualization your potential. Otherwise your dreams will stay dreams unless you prove to yourself that you deserve them. You can do shadow work to release your blocks and connect with the divine. You would make yourself available to receive miracles.

The doodle I drew appears like a rooster. It feels like you have a heart chakra block, because maybe you were tired of your relationships or they don’t really inspire you. This could have to do with peers and co-workers specifically who you are in competition with.

Those type of connections should motivate you to be better than yourself, otherwise they are as good as mutual ego-trips that lead nowhere fast.

Saturn and Pluto both represent the divine feminine on a collective level, so they are heavily misunderstood as you can imagine. Our patriarchal society needs to heal the relationship we have with the divine in general, in order to act from our highest potential and create miracles.

~Good luck

SCORPIO SZN

Sorry for being a little late but Happy Scorpio SZN!! here I made a little aesthetic board for you :]