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thoughts
from mulling on the train and after reading some poetry
people like to say to know someone is like reading a book... but I think it's more like a bookstore. finding your way to the bookstore, getting lost several times. and when you're there it almost feels surreal. spending the first 10 minutes of your stay marvelling over all the books you want to read, looking for treasures. appreciating the books you have neither seen nor read. leaning down to make friends with the little cat that lives in the bookstore. acquainting yourself with the smell of books, learning the different shelves.
reading my piece that was published, I remember the trepidation I felt while writing it. I'm still not really proud of it for some strange reason... but I think.. my voice was authentic there? everything I wrote still holds true lol. I realise the uncertainty I felt while writing it was really conveyed in the poem... in a way I still don't like it bc it's so unsure, but it's precisely bc it's so unsure that I also feel yeah, this is still my voice, this really is me finding the right words to talk about my family and roots and heritage. I think I'm still searching for the right words lol.
if Chinese is my mother tongue and Teochew is my father tongue and I am bad at both, whose tongue did I inherit? if I inherited them, where did I lose them, at what point in time? or if I never inherited them, how did they get lost? where? why?
what does a family photo show? what are we trying to preserve with family photos? is a family photo that is missing some members a family photo?
so I had an idea for a soulmate au but like the whole universe, not just one pairing
the idea is: at fifteen (15) years old, you get your soul link. Your link is different from everyone else's and is specifically about what is important to your soulmate(s) and is a prominent part of who they are as a person .
For example, if your soulmate is super into music and that is a constant in their life, you can hear the music they're listening to. If drawing is super important to them and has been a constant in their life, whatever they draw on their skin will show up on you.
But it doesn't go both ways. You can hear the music your soulmate is listening to, but they can't hear what you're listening to. You see what your soulmate draws, but they can't see you additions.
And I have a few other examples but those are the ones that I can remember enough to write out at 11 pm while my eyes try to remain open.
This may just be me but do any other nonbinary/ trans folk sometimes just hate the fact that everyone else gets to ignore gender norms except you and the second you do ignore them, you’re almost assured to never get perceived as nonbinary/trans enough to be nonbinary/trans (especially if you’re fat and/or a person of color)? Like if you’re cis, going against gender norms is this great achievement and you’re so cool. If you’re under the trans umbrella tho, going against the gender norms set for you means at best people having free reign to misgender you without ever having to feel bad and at worst, it leads to actual physically harm against you.