Anger Vent - Tumblr Posts
My strongest sin is anger. I get so angry, and I get so angry at my anger, I spiral into destruction. I cry, and curse, and do everything to hurt myself because my anger has nowhere else to go, and no one else to relate with. Fighting with the need to be heard and hurt, because it’s “not fair I have to feel this way alone?”
I got angry today, and I had to retreat into my room because I couldn’t stand the feeling of it all. Again. I sat down with my Bible now, writing verses about anger because it’s all that I can do. I also prayed, with tears in my eyes, because it was all frustrating to come back to this burning place within.
Anger, is a very unbecoming emotion for me. And often it has made me choose the worst alternatives to cure it. My anger is my ailment. Now I pray to the Lord that he is willing to take my anger and my reactions, turn it from a stone hitting water, into a stone skipping the surface. That instead of falling into brashness and insensitivity, I slip into patience and control. That my anger will not dwell, but sink, and slowly return me to the state of righteousness I know I can grow from.
In Jesus name, I surrender my anger, wrath, bitterness, irritability, and frustrations to your Holy spirit. Amen.
Running
I want to run.
I want to run as far as my body will take me,
Heaving lungs,
Thick spit,
Sore legs.
I want to run miles,
Off of pain,
Off of anger,
Off of sadness.
I want to run for hours,
Adrenaline keeping me going,
Until I am nothing left but sweat and tears.
I want to put my anger towards each step,
Carrying me until I collapse.
Or I want to run so I don't think,
About the anxiety,
The sadness,
The fear,
Of life.
I want my legs to feel shattered,
My lungs to feel broken,
My mind to be tired.
I want to feel the pain of it all,
For the pain of running is better than the pain of thinking.
I want to cry,
I want to scream,
I want to hurt,
I want to run.
This.
And the fact that you can even imitate other artists stile is infuriating. I see prompts as "Wlop art style" and I'm like hfuejjsidjr WLOP?! Have you any idea on how much Wlop is an influence in the artist community? Wlop makes masterpieces with animations and 3d modelling! The effort of that artist get thrown away to create your fucking hentai/porn shit.
Because, let's be clear, that is what mostly AI image generator is used for, i won't even call it "ai art".
Pixiv is invaded by such content, and so are social media, which makes it even worse.
"oH buT IM nOt sTeAliNG aRt!1! DO YoU knOW HoW diFficuLT iS to dEscRibe a chAr and HAve it lOOk the sAme?1? I wROte, it Is MiNe! CrEDiT MY ART!!”
Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
You know what is hard? 8 years passed studying anatomy and color theory, hours spent bent on a piece of paper or in front of a screen to see a crumb of improvements. months spent in canvas! Back that hurts, eyes that water and hands so cold they are almost blue! That needs credit. That is art!
*sigh* Reminding all of you once again...
AI art is stolen art.
If you're pro-AI art, you're harming human artists. Full stop.
At this point, I don't care if it's "real art" or not because that's not even what the real issue is, it's that it's already hard enough to succeed as an artist without having our work stolen, thrown into a digital blender, and spat back out in our faces, so we can be replaced because the value of our creativity and skill has been reduced to "content" and dollar signs. Do we mean nothing to you? Is your convenience worth telling us we don't matter?
These programs and everyone who uses them no matter how many times we've told you this can get fucked. I'm done being nice about it.
Sincerely, your salty neighborhood artist.
cant stress enough that two musical groups having the same name is annoying (GHOST and ghost and pals)
yes i am aware this is hardly related
Do you listen to GHOST (a vocaloid producer also known as Ghost and Pals)?
I need to say something or I feel like I never will get it out. Maybe I wish he could see this...
I loved him, I loved him so much. I loved him more than anybody could ever know. I love very deeply, and I hurt very deeply. I'm very hurt that he left.. But I'm way more hurt and pissed the f#ck off at the way that he left me. The disrespect that I feel is immense.. I don't know which emotion is stronger, the hurt or the anger. The worst part is that I have nobody to tell these feelings too because I never even got a chance.. fucking radio silence and empty promises for a month straight and he leaves, doesn't even give me a chance to say goodbye, does it In the middle of the night too. I don't feel sane and I'm STILL fuming with anger. I feel disrespected and as far as I'm concerned he's a coward in my book. I've been bottling these feelings for a week now but I feel like I'm losing it
Do my feelings sound justified ?