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Znowu nie mam siły
Dosłownie wszystko mnie męczy, brzydzę się jedzeniem, brzydzę się sobą
To nie tak, że widzę w lustrze tylko gruba świnie
Ja czuję, że nie zasługuje na to żeby jeść, chce juz poniedziałek żebym mogła chodzić cały dzień o jogurcie i wodzie..
Znowu nie mam siły
Dosłownie wszystko mnie męczy, brzydzę się jedzeniem, brzydzę się sobą
To nie tak, że widzę w lustrze tylko gruba świnie
Ja czuję, że nie zasługuje na to żeby jeść, chce juz poniedziałek żebym mogła chodzić cały dzień o jogurcie i wodzie..
I sometimes hate my parents for being so caring. Istg i skip one meal or refuse some snacks they offer me and they're all over me asking if im ok and shit .They just forced me to drink vitamins because i skipped dinner
I just feel like i dont want this bad enough bcs i just fucking binged. And i didnt even think twice before i showed the handful of crisps down my fucking throat. God i hate myself. Im such a fucking pig.
I've lost quite alot of weight and i'm quite happy, but still the fear of gaining it all back sits in the back of my mind, waiting for the day i get over my calorie limit so it can inveigh me about it, drive me to mark my thighs with scars that scream i hate myself.
It's so scary, but it is me who chose this, it is me who does this to myself, which makes it even more frightening.
These last couple of days have been so tough
I think i've lost my period, and ihqven't been able to poop for around 3 weeks now:/
I went to see a dermatologist because my skin has been just horrible and she basically told me i've got to eat more.I wish i didn't go because now i don't have an excuse to not eat as little as i used to.I went with my dad who is now making me eat 'for him' so i am basically being forced into recovery without even making it to my GW1:/ I'm still not sick enough. I'm not skinny enough to recover.
But i saw two of my friends i didn't see in a very long time and they both said i look smaller so that felt kind of nice :,)
I need a new aproach to all this.
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My steps to after binge self-care
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1. Stay calm. Don't spiral. You've got this; binges happen. Breathe in and out.
2. Go light a candle or some incense, turn on your essential oil diffuser. If fragrances aren't your thing, open a window to get some fresh air in.
3. Grab your water bottle and lay down on your back for a bit. Rehydrate yourself. Clear your mind.
4. Step in the shower or take a nice, long bath. Use your favorite shampoo and body wash. When you get out, do some skin care and brush your hair and teeth.
5. Put on clothes you feel comfortable in. It may be a hoodie or a crop top you feel skinny in; put something that'll make you feel safe.
6. Do some chores that don't require too much attention like folding laundry or washing the dishes. Now's the time to think. What made you binge? Reflect on what to do in the future. Maybe your next fast should be shorter. Maybe your omad plan is lacking nutrients. Maybe you should switch to a higher calorie limit for a bit. None of these changes are shameful; they'll only help you reach your gw quicker.
7. Do a fun activity. Some shopping, coloring, video games or reading… don't fall down the meansp0 hole! You deserve kindness. You deserve indulgence. St4rving is hard both for the body and the mind, it's not healthy, or normal. It's ok to make these mistakes sometimes; you'll only come out of it stronger.