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all the things wrong with me in your mind
do not try to save me if i have not asked to be saved. i take my shirt off in the dim morning light & trace my ribs. there is nothing underneath my skin that feels the way it should, disasters in the making the way everything spills out of my mouth. white tights & strong thighs & too many different emotions. when you work your muscles and body you are ripping yourself apart to create something new, the sickle twist of my foot in a shoe as i stand in two inch boxes with nothing on. my body is reshaping itself while i think it is growing & the muscles burn in everything. i can still fit two fingers underneath the cage of my ribs or two fingers in between my teeth like a kiss. the crack of my thighs is a tunnel, a cavern, a chasm, a divide we don’t speak about. this body is one i could be rid of. i don’t feel myself here & i’m still waiting for you to tell me i can come home to a place without this fear of living or jumping off of bridges. the things i have let into myself. the things i have yet to un-see. this image of myself in a mirror, rose-lips curled with skirts or stockings or dresses. a dysphoria of what i want & who i am to be. listen, my bones don’t know how to love in other way. they are fractured like the last time i jumped in my red shoes & you caught me wrong with hands under my arms or around my throat nobody cared which. witch. which? if i recall correctly you said i was. might’ve been bitch. i was too busy with the funhouse mirror aimed at my torso to notice any other perception of me. in a necktie with the sunrise i compete to see who burns faster first & i win because there’s nothing left to burn. for such confusion of these walls i can’t see myself think & in the dark it is a good thing because my edges don’t wear out. i never asked for this to happen & in all honesty i’m not broken i’m just waiting for the day when i can sleep without covering my body & these bones.
ahhrhgg this is abit outdated now.
i hope i didn’t condem myself by not doing flexersizes and yoga and such. I don’t even know which kind. just it messes up my posture when sitting, making sitting in a car uncomfortable and not easy, so driving is hard . I dangerosuly failed driving test and i kept faling the writen test, so I quit.
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