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so you found my dumpsterfire blog: a guide
I’m Jan, and I write things sometimes.
This is primarily a fandom blog, so I’ll rarely post about my original works or my personal life, but for the record, I’m an aspiring author with several novels in progress, and I also write poems and short stories on occasion. If I post about my original writing endeavors or my personal life, it’ll be tagged as #certified original jan thought.
I’m on AO3 as janthesevenette, where I post things about once a year lol
My current hyperfixation is Star Wars, where I have a lot of Thoughts and Emotions about Obi-Wan and Anakin and their relationship. They are dumbass brothers, and I love them.
I’ll also occasionally post about my other fandoms: the DSMP (mainly c!crimeboys) and Tolkien stuff (mainly the Fëanórian brothers). It’ll be tagged as #not star wars, if you’re just here for the Space Laser Fandom.
I’m here for a good time, so if I find you annoying or if your blog just doesn’t cater to my interests, there’s a good chance I’ll just block you. Also, don’t be a bigot, because that’s lame.
To that end, I tend to avoid fandom negativity, and though I’ll sometimes post about Real World issues (tagged under #real world shit), I’m not here to argue with people about fictional characters. I love posting meta, but my meta will tend to be very strictly about certain characters and their relationships, rather than about the fandom as a whole.
And with all that out of the way, I hope you all enjoy my insanity lol
The quote in my header is from this post.
As a queer cis woman who uses she/they, simply because my queerness is such a big part of my identity that I want it reflected in the way people refer to me, this made me feel very seen! Thank you <3
lowkey hate the shit “afab she/theys” catch. is it that hard to believe that some afab people are just more comfortable with she/they. or that they’re starting to explore their relationship with their gender or identity more. plenty of ftm people start their gender journey by exploring she/they pronouns. and some people just feel more comfortable with she/they pronouns.
honestly I don’t even care if it’s a phase. or if people think it seems like it isn’t “legitimate.” I’m not gonna question someone’s pronouns. I’m not gonna act like afab people have to “earn” their she/they pronouns. I don’t even care if they’re lying about it to seem cool or for attention. I don’t care. it’s not my job to scrutinize someone else’s pronouns. leave them alone.
Omg spam for your inbox incoming, what are your top 3 songs on repeat at the moment, go!!
Oh goodness I didn’t even see these! Thanks so much for the inbox spam - I will now spam you with answers lol
Top 3 songs are:
1) Sin Eater by Penelope Scott
2) WONDERLAND by Neoni
3) Please by EMM
I have to add that I am absolutely obsessed with Penelope Scott’s songs, and if you like alternative indie pop with super cryptic lyrics, you HAVE to check her out!
What is the largest animal you think you could take in a fight?? (my flatmate said he'd take a fish out of water but I'm not sure that counts...)
So fun fact about me: I’m 5’0, meaning that my height is gonna decide this way more than my strength lol
As an owner of 2 cats, I’m gonna say the largest animal I could take would be a moderately sized housecat. Yes, I think very highly of myself 💀
Which would you prefer, exploring space or exploring the ocean??
Space, 100 percent! Another fun fact about me: one of my parents is an astrophysicist, so I grew up surrounded by cool space facts. I feel like there would be something so special about drifting through the stars, away from all the conflict and suffering of Earth, and I wish I could expedience that in my lifetime.
Also the ocean is fucking terrifying lol
And last one! What is a piece of art, any type of art, that has spoken to you in the last month??
There’s a song called “Blood Filled Tears” by Maisy Kay. I didn’t discover it in the last month, so I hope it still counts, but I’ve been listening to it basically every week for several years at this point. It articulates my trauma in a way that I have never been able to do on my own, and it’s been really helpful in my healing journey - plus the song is an absolute banger in and of itself!
Thanks so much for these asks, and again, I’m sorry I didn’t see them until now! This was so much fun <3
Anyway, not-so-friendly reminder that nihilism/doomerism/accelerationism is a conspiracy theory meant to keep people complacent and docile in the event of an authoritarian regime, and the online Left really needs to start shunning these groups with the same vehemence that we shun radfem/terf groups.
The biggest threat to systemic evil is hope, and this nonsense “the world will never get better, so why bother trying to make it better” ideology literally exists to serve those systems. The doomerism movement is pro-capitalist, pro-fascist, pro-authoritarianism, etc. because they accept these systems as inherent to the nature of humanity, unable to be changed… which is exactly what the fascists running the system want. After all, why resist the rise of evil if evil is always inevitable? Why fight to make the world a better place if the world is just going to end soon anyway? Why not just stand aside and let the authoritarians do their thing? It doesn’t even matter anyway, right?
The point is, the Left is far too tolerant of doomerism, and it’s driving me insane.
You know what, I actually have more to say on this:
It’s natural to feel upset, angry, and sacred regarding all the terrible things happening all over the world right now. In fact, those feelings are vitally important to have, to prevent yourself from becoming numb and desensitized to tragedy. But if all you ever feel is upset, angry, and scared, and if all you can ever think about is The Bad Stuff, and if you truly want humanity to go extinct because you believe that humans are inherently evil, and if you genuinely believe that society will collapse in the near future… that’s not a natural response to current events. That’s depression, and it’s caused by a chemical imbalance in your brain, not by current events.
If you’re struggling with doomerism of this degree, I would urge you to seek professional help, if it’s within your means. But if you’re unable to do so, I have a few suggestions based on some things that helped me escape the trap of nihilism:
Opening Up: Confide in a loved one who you trust to support you about how you’re feeling, and do not spare them a single gory detail. This is also a good resource on alternatives to therapy.
The News: Schedule one day a week where you don’t look at any source of news about current events, from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to sleep. I promise you are not a bad person if you aren’t 100% tuned in to every single issue all of the time.
Online Spaces: Leave every single group/forum that doomer-posts, even the ones you have friends in because your mental health comes first. Block tags—yes, even the ones that you think would make you a horrible person for blocking—and people liberally, and unsubscribe from downer YouTube channels, no matter how informative they are. Join groups/forums with an explicit focus on positivity. This is a great list of positive subreddits. Join online communities centered around aspects of your life that are inherently positive, such as a hobby, a fandom you love, or niche scientific topic that fascinates you. Avoid online communities centered around aspects of your life that are NOT inherently positive, such as illnesses/disabilities and political beliefs.
Distraction: It’s a cliche piece of advice, but learning a new skill is a great way to ground yourself in the present and focus on what you can control. Pick up a new hobby, or learn a new language, or reorganize your entire bedroom, or any other simple activity that takes place entirely offline.
Community: It’s another cliche, but getting involved in your local community really does help ground yourself. If you’re in school/university, join a low-commitment club with a flexible schedule. If you’re not in school/university, get a membership ship to your local library. See if they have a book club you can join, or if you can volunteer there, or simply go to mingle with the other patrons in your free time.
Nature: Spend some time away from urbanized areas. It doesn’t need to be a full-hiking trail—you could go the lake at your local park, or literally just wander through a patch of forest on the side of the road.
If you can rediscover your love for this planet and the people on it, you will find that it’s worth fighting for. And if you join the fight, we’ll be one step closer to wining.
Anyway, not-so-friendly reminder that nihilism/doomerism/accelerationism is a conspiracy theory meant to keep people complacent and docile in the event of an authoritarian regime, and the online Left really needs to start shunning these groups with the same vehemence that we shun radfem/terf groups.
The biggest threat to systemic evil is hope, and this nonsense “the world will never get better, so why bother trying to make it better” ideology literally exists to serve those systems. The doomerism movement is pro-capitalist, pro-fascist, pro-authoritarianism, etc. because they accept these systems as inherent to the nature of humanity, unable to be changed… which is exactly what the fascists running the system want. After all, why resist the rise of evil if evil is always inevitable? Why fight to make the world a better place if the world is just going to end soon anyway? Why not just stand aside and let the authoritarians do their thing? It doesn’t even matter anyway, right?
The point is, the Left is far too tolerant of doomerism, and it’s driving me insane.
everybodys gotta get back into the practice of using pseudonyms online... i remember the time of screen names where u never ever told anyone ur real name and that was just understood as basic internet safety. plus having a screen name is fun because sometimes it sticks so well that it becomes part of ur identity that u can use in whatever facet of ur life you choose. it rocks to pick your own name
thanks so much for the tag @kurlyfrii <3
Favorite Color: blue
Last Song: ‘Don’t Wake Me Up’ by Cerussis (he’s underrated af you should check him out)
Currently Reading: the RotS novelization and a couple fics
Currently Watching: season 2 of Only Murders In The Building
Currently Craving: cheeseburger
Coffee or Tea: coffee!!! although I don’t drink either regularly, I basically only drink coffee when camping
Hobby You Would Love to Try: video editing - there are so many fan edits that I want to make so bad but haven’t yet had the motivation for, plus I kinda suck at PremierPro rn
An AU You’ve Been Plotting: a tcw au where anakin dies in battle but gets resurrected by the force and various eldritch-horror-esque experiences ensue! it’s like 5% written right now, but it would be my first ever longfic and I’m really excited for it!
gonna tag @mrv3000 @thewildballyntynesgrow @spacefinch @transmascanakin and anyone else who wants to join!
Get to know me tag game
Rules: answer + tag 9 people you want to get to know better and/or catch up with.
Tagged by @mereelskirata!
Favorite color : It fluctuates, but right now it's 212th orange.
Last song : Into the West by Annie Lennox
Currently reading : Dominoes on a03
Currently watching : contemplating a rewatch of TCW now that I'm done with TBB and gone through the prequels again.
Currently craving : ramen or goldfish grahams
Coffee or tea : unfortunate caf addict
A hobby you would like to try : I'm trying crochet but it's not going great.
An AU/Alternate universe you've been plotting for : Domino squad and Omega AU. That turns into Torrent and 212th and Omega AU. That also has a bit of Coruscant guard? (Only for the Fox and Omega bickering) Here's the first chapter if you'd like to read
npts: @bladelei @mire-draws-things @ofteasandherbs @ulchabhangorm @chedaar21
@wings-and-beskar @kimiheartblade @somewhere-on-kamino @spade-andthe-microwave
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Damn ok, I guess the gods have spoken! I’ll post one of my favorite poems later today, and start preparing some more to post later! Thanks guys!
@fionajames @spacefinch @thewildballyntynesgrow @techs-goggles9902 @kurlyfrii @perilmax @sevdidntdie
monody, by me, 2023
I wrote this poem around a year ago, and when deciding how to present it, I was very drawn to this idea of a disillusioned teenager taking things usually associated with childhood and innocence — stick figure drawings, hearts, school-issue notebook paper — and twisting them into an expression of the anger and resentment she feels. The hearts are broken, the stick figures are violent, the flower is wilting, the notebook paper is yellowed, and it amplifies the narrator’s loss of innocence, and her bitterness at that loss. The narrator is fictional, to clarify.
poetry tag list: @spacefinch @thewildballyntynesgrow @fionajames @sevdidntdie @transmascanakin @techs-goggles9902 @perilmax @kurlyfrii