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Found out I was being cheated on today... so yeah sitting there sobbing cause I couldn't stand drool coming out of my mouth. Whiles he's telling me to shut up.... I went through hell for this man absolutely shit... I would have given my soul for him. Yeah just Completely destroyed. So if you have a bad feeling trust it! I will never recover from this. I hope no one has to go through this but it is so big now a day people just cheat with anyone and don't care anymore. I can't relax. And yes for the people who wanna know she was prettier than me so yeah! I guess he level up great for him.
I am gorgeous I have a big heart I might be naive but at least I still have child like wonder and joy. You know when I imagined what it was like to be cheated on I thought I'd be insecure... I thought it'd completely break me. Yes I don't trust people as much now. I did cry don't get me wrong infect I sobbed it was ugly. I asked him why I guess that's the usual question. He went between trying to comfort me and telling me to shut the fuck up but when that was over clarity hit me... I told myself I never wanted to forget that feeling to know I don't deserve to be treated like that. I deserve better. That I can be okay. Yes I wanted him to beg for me I thought alot of stuff like that.... I wanted him to say he was sorry but I wanted him to mean it. But something he told me awhile ago about cheaters and this coming from a cheater is that they look for those exact traits in people.. someone niave and who have a big heart... I guess he thought I'd stay. Stay safe out there! ♥
I just wish things turned out differently I apart of me wishes I was still with you I loved you more than anything I never loved like that before and I promised myself I wouldn't ever again... I wish you reacted differently. I wish so many things but nothing can fix this I want to be your friend still I do I want to still talk every once and awhile I don't want to become strangers.. I just wish I could've gotten all that attention you gave other women it all just sucks... It just hurts... this was the first time I've cried since. Even if it was just a little cause you were my everything my everything... but apart of me still thinks if you didn't want to lose me you would've never done that. I don't know