Depressing Stuff - Tumblr Posts

I hate every single thing i loved

The closer i was to somebody

The more resentment i hold.

I’m not realistic, I’m pessimistic

Pretending to be something I’m not

Because I’m too afraid of you.

Afraid that everything that touches

these wicked hands of mine

Will turn into ashes.

Because I was the devil all along

And the god i feared so much

I’m the abyss I’m stuck in

And i am the outside world.

I’m the source of my misery

For my very existence

I’m the victim and the villain

The culprit is my soul.

Because

Every breath you take is heartache

And everything you say is painful.

And i have written this before…

But sweet words were never meant for me to hear.

Was love always meant to be a torture?

Not heartbreak, but love itself…

Oh… is this hell?

Just a poem i wrote the other day

people are like but you don't seem depressed then I pull out the "this is a fake smile and id I show my real emotions things will get wild card." is life uno?