Emotional Wreck - Tumblr Posts
I’ve been contemplating my depression insomnia a lot lately. Usually when I’m depressed all I can do is sleep for hours every day, but lately I can’t fall asleep (even with meds that should knock me right out and have in the past), or I just outright refuse to even try (like right now). I struggled to understand why, after such a rough, emotionally battering day, I wouldn’t just want it to stop and rest my weary mind. Then I remembered that sleep is what our brains need to shift our memories from the short term to the long term memory storage…and now it seems obvious that I just really don’t want to remember the truly rough days long term.
chapter 100 of all the young dudes. no words.
hot take: ttpd wasnt great until i started associating it with wolfstar
exhibit A: Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus - fits perfectly with wolfstar in atyd
Your hologram stumbled into my apartment Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus And I just watched it happen As the decade would play us for fools And you saw my bones out with somebody new
If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were'
If the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh Down that passage in time Back to the moment I crashed into you Like so many wrecks do Too impaired by my youth To know what to do
i can fix him (no really i can) except it's just the lyrics that relate to wolfstar
The smoke cloud billows out his mouth Like a freight train through a small town
His hand so calloused from his pistol Softly traces hearts on my face Come close, I'll show you heaven If you'll be an angel, all mine Trust me, I can handle me a dangerous man
(im convinced this album is abt them)
SO LONG LONDON IS LITERALLY WOLFSTAR WTAF
it literally describes all the atyd chapters approaching halloween 1981
I kept calm and carried the weight of the rift Pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away My spine split from carrying us up the hill Wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill I stopped trying to make him laugh Stopped trying to drill the safe Thinkin, how much sad did you think I had Did you think I had in me? Oh, the tragedy ... And I'm pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free
And you say I abandoned the ship But I was going down with it My white knuckle dying grip Holding tight to your quiet resentment and My friends said it isn't right to be scared Every day of a love affair Every breath feels like rarest air When you're not sure if he wants to be there So how much sad did you think I had, Did you think I had in me? How much tragedy?
You swore that you loved me but where were the clues? I died on the altar waiting for the proof You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days And I'm just getting color back into my face I'm just mad as hell cause I loved this place
For so long, London Had a good run A moment of warm sun But I'm not the one So long, London