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I’M BACK BABY! I’M SO EXCITED!
It seems I am finally off explicit status, and get ready for some shitposting, whump posting and writing postings! Thank you to every single person who supported me, especially @captivity-whump and @justtorturewhump, for helping staff and support to recognize I am a humble whump blog. I’ve missed you all so much, but I’ve got some good news. I am determined to finish Whumptober this year, it’s my first year, and I don’t know exactly if I will but I’ve got some great stories lined up. @jo-castle Every time I would want to stop and give up, I would look at your messages and keep going. You’re amazing and I can’t thank you enough!
If anyone’s got any questions, or you decided we’re going to be friends now, hit me up! I’m always down for someone to talk whump too! I love you all!
Okay but is it just me who thinks there's so much more to Carrie than we've been shown so far? She's just not the usual asshole popular girl.
Like in episode 3 when Nick said "You two used to be friends" and Carrie replies with a huge amount of salt like she's hurt that he would even remind her of that. Like something happened between Julie and Carrie that hurt Carrie so much she became cold and distant. Cause if you listen to the way Julie talks about the time when they were friends, you wouldn't believe she was talking about Carrie since the way she's shown from the outside is nothing like what Julie knew.
It's almost like Julie did something that she didn't realise hurt Carrie as much as it did, and Julie just thought Carrie became too cool to be friends with her. But also seems like she hasn't actually told anyone about it. The way Nick acts about it is the same way Julie acts about it. Like they think she's just a stuck up asshole. I think she's just really hurt and is trying to frame off her feelings from not only the world but herself.
I mean, something must have happened for their friendship to turn that sour, right?
Okay, I've just finished jatp for the 4th time in about two weeks... anyway, I realised something at the end of episode 9. This might just be me being the sap that I am, but the way Alex so instinctively grabs a hold of Luke's hand at the end of the Stand Tall performance is making me question everything. Like, I get that Reggie and Luke didn't grab onto Julie cause they couldn't, but it's just something in the way Alex grabbed Luke's hand that speaks differently than it usually does. It kinda reminds me of that scene from like the last episode of season 6 of teen wolf where Mason grabs Corey's hand when they're in the hospital
(I couldn't find a gif of the moment I was talking about but it's right after this lmao)
Anyway
That's all I had to say. Idk what I was trying to prove but to me it makes sense that Alex and Luke are exes. Just the way they act around and talk to each other differs from the way they act around and talk to Reggie. It's like their friendship and bond is made up of a different kind of string, if that makes sense
Just realised something else...
I might be kinda stupid for not realising this sooner but you know the Finally Free performance in the show, right?
In the last chorus when Julie's doing the adlibs, it's ducking Reggie who's singing the melody. I'm crying, Jeremy's voice is so good😭
And that's a high ass freaking melody too, it ain't easy doin, I'll tell you that
I'm a female and I have the vocal chords of a female and holy crap that melody is high for me, so the fact that Jeremy can sing it is really impressive to me
Hello! I'm new to this whole blogging thing. I've been lurking around for a while but I thought I might finally give it a try instead of just liking and reblogging occasionally.
A little backstory-I just got out of a long relationship where I was mentally, emotionally and socially abused by someone I loved and that I thought loved me back. Over the course of 10 years, I have been systematically torn down, isolated from my friends and family and made to feel that my only worthwhile task in life was to constantly cater to someone else's needs and wants. It was a very gradual spiral, so much so that I didn't even notice! Every facet of my life was so controlled that my only escape was work and even then I had a cell phone tether. I had to lock myself in the bathroom at home or sneak out my phone at work just to be able to have a little bit of time to read fanfiction and quickly browse through Tumblr. Hence the lurking. Lol.
The Zosan community and several writers (especially one in particular-you know who you are!) kept me sane and made me realize that a relationship or another person should never define you. They gave me the courage to finally stand up and yell at the top of my lungs "Enough!!!"
My counselor recently asked me what I like to do and I honestly couldn't answer the question. I could tell you everything that my ex liked to do but nothing about myself.
My homework was to go home and find out what matters to me. Just me-not my friends, not my family and most definitely not my ex. It was the hardest thing I've done in a long, long time.
Needless to say it feels amazing to have the ability to go out and do what I want whenever I want. Not saying that I am actually going out but it's nice to have the option if I so chose. =D
When I was younger, freedom was something I took for granted. I used to stay up all night reading and writing fanfiction, going out clubbing with friends, hanging out with my family and loving life in general. Now in my mid-thirties, I find myself alone for the first time; a shadow of the outgoing, independant and carefree person I used to be with no fucking clue as to what I even enjoy doing. Makes me cry just thinking about it.
It's going to be a long journey but I believe I am ready for it.
Anyways, thanks for listening (reading) and if (when!) I find something I love to do, I'll be sure to let you know.
Song lyrics from Julie and the Phantoms that are great for confidence
"Even if we hit the ground, we'll still fly" -Now or Never
"Wake up, wake up if its all you do" -Wake Up
"Fight through the dark, and find a spark" -Bright
"Dont care if everybody's watching g silence ain't an option" -I Got The Music
"Marching on proud, turn it up loud, cause now we know what we're worth" -Finally Free
"Let your colors blind their eyes, be who you are no compromise" -Edge of Great
"Whatever happens even if I'm the last standing image stand tall" -Stand Tall
Anything from Dirty Candi
