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Renascence: Hwang Hyunjin x OC

Part 4

Summary: The arcane are everywhere around you they are actually more normal than you think, but what of the anomalies in the arcane like Y/n? It definitely isn't easy. Specially when the nature is always out there to get you and the ones one you love. Loosing a loved one is difficult but when you've done it a couple of times. No matter how many births he took, watching Hyunjin fade wasn't easy for you. How far are you willing to go this time to protect him? Would things be different this time round?

A/n: there are mentions of blood

WC: 1k

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He couldn't stop drawing, he had to make it and he had to make it right. He had to paint it before he forgets. He could finally put a face to the voice, well at least eyes. And that is why Hyunjin is in the art-studio surrounded by his friends and brother who refuse to leave him as he refuses to leave this room unless he's made "it". He once again was disappointed with the drawing result and tore off the page and threw it not even bothering to see where still hitting Seungmin square in the face.

"Ouch" he groaned as he tried to shake off a sleepy Yunho off him.

"Remind me why he HAS to do it here again?" Yeosang asked him.

"Better supplies" Seungmin murmured.

Meanwhile, Yeonjun watched his brother having another 'Painting attack' as he called it. He's had this numerous times since they were kids. The time after their parents died, these attacks became frequent, thank God he had his friends who helped him to keep Hyunjin on check. Even though Changbin and Yeosang are passed out and snoring. Yeonjun knew better than to disturb or talk to his brother now, so he stayed silent.

Meanwhile Hyunjin was lost, at last he had managed it. To make exactly what he saw, down to the mole under the eye of the woman who visits him. Calls him. Soothes him. He started using paint, remembering every detail of those beautiful eyes, deep as the ocean by heart.

He smiled as he mixed the colors, getting the exact shades. Yeonjun watched his brother, Hyunjin was in deep concentration. He watches as Hyunjin keeps mixing colors and applying them, he only hopes this is his final try.

2 hours later, the sound of a thud was heard, Yeonjun and Seungmin looked up to find Hyunjin finally sitting down. As he looked around and took in his surroundings. It was way past 12, almost 1.

"Are you done?" Seungmin asked, waking Yunho, who sat up groggily.

Hyunjin nodded, eyes back on the canvas.

"Can we see it?" Yeonjun asked, earning a nod again.

The three rushed to see Hyunjin's new creation. A pair of eyes. They'd be damn if they didn't say it was a beautiful pair of eyes. And the detailing that Hyunjin did, was breath taking.

"Okay, Yunho pick the canvas up carefully, it's wet. Lets go, I'm hungry. Please wake Yeosang up and bring him"

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3 days later

"What do you mean all time security?" Y/n asked

"It means you are to be escorted at all times" Taehyung, your Appa said.

"But dad Minho is in general always with me!" You complaint

"That didn't help, did it" he said through gritted teeth.

"Amber and Jungwon will always be with you! You've taken 3 days to heal!" Jin said

"Why him?" Jeongin piped with a pout.

"Cause I need you on missions" You said ruffling his hair.

"Amber is actually a good choice" Bangchan said, "she could accompany Y/n in places even Minho and Jungwon can't. Like the washroom"

"Shut up Chan!" You said and looked at Amber who's eyes were already on you and had a blush on her face.

"Okay let's go, I have work in the centre. Any leads on the dogs" you said, no it didn't offend Chan and Amber as they know what you meant.

"Seonghwa is still looking into it. We suspect that rogue beta Bambam is involved. But why?" Jin said.

"Let's see. Anyway Appa and dad until when are you here?" You asked

"So eager to shake us off? Don't worry I have my eyes everywhere. But I'll leave today evening" Taehyung came to hug you as you stood up "Your Dad will stay to make sure of your full recovery and then he'll go back. Take care, Sunshine" he said.

You walked inside the 143 Facility, with Minho beside you and Amber and Jungwon behind you. The workers greeted you as Hongjoong Seonghwa's PA (who manages your work more) approached you and told you that days agendas.

You walked in to the research centre, and looked through the updates.

"Our new intern will present the updates" the Head doctor mentioned.

"Hello, I'm Kim Seungmin, so the replecation of the structure is on progress, but we have been able to make the structures into more stable compounds…" (lots of science stuff that I'm not smart enough to write)

The whole time rhat he spoke, rhe guy looked at you with known eyes. As you had a mild smile for this guy you've been acquainted to and with again and again for ages. And at that moment both Y/n and Minho knew a small reason why suddenly there was so much chaos.

"So he's here again" Minho said, he seemed agitated. He did for the whole day and didn't even speak until now that you've reached home.

You nodded, looking distant. Actually you were in deep thoughts.

"You do know, you can move away this time, the research is very close" Jungwon said.

"Um.. what's going on?" Amber asked

"Come and sit here Amber, let me tell you a story" you said, as Amber and out of nowhere Felix and Jeongin also turned up and also joined her.

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"So you're saying these eyes seem familiar to you?" Yunho asked still pointing on the painting sitting on Hyunjin's desk "Why it even here and not in the art room?" He asked, thunking the idea of two painted eyes watching him 24/7.

Hyunjin returned to his room with 3 cans of coke and pointed at Seungmin "Where have you seen her?"

"I don't know man. I can pinpoint where but I have" Seungmin said "Anyway Director Liliac praised me today"

"Oh the hot one?" Yunho asked

"I never said, she's hot. Just beautiful" he collected and found Hyunjin staring into the painting.

And he decided to do it himself.

"I'll put it in the attic studio of yours with the other paintings" Seungmin said and walked away with it before Hyunjin could protest.

He looked around the studio to see the various other paintings. Up until now Hyunjin had only drawn paintings of places. A meadow, a castle looking place, a pre-victorian market, stables. A few places were familiar to him and few weren't. It was the first time he drew her.

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Renascence: Hwang Hyunjin x OC

Part 5

Summary: The arcane are everywhere around you they are actually more normal than you think, but what of the anomalies in the arcane like Y/n? It definitely isn't easy. Specially when the nature is always out there to get you and the ones one you love. Loosing a loved one is difficult but when you've done it a couple of times. No matter how many births he took, watching Hyunjin fade wasn't easy for you. How far are you willing to go this time to protect him? Would things be different this time round?

A/n: It took me long huh?

WC: 1.1k

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“What?” Y/n asked, “Why would I do that?”

“Because you have been leading the research for over 300 years” Head doctor Hongjoong said.

“I know that! But why do I have to go?! I don’t want to!” Y/n repeated

“Liliac, when was the lasttime you spoke to someone outside the arcanes or the company” Seonghwa said, she was about to open her mouth but he bet her to it and said “And no the baristas don’t count” he smiled a bit to find her quiet

“Do I need to? Isn’t it better that way?” Y/n protested. 

“No! Not for your sanity!” he said

“Please Director you wouldn’t even have to talk. Just be there, you are getting paler due to the lack of natural air” Hongjoong pressed.

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“You guys are attending today’s seminar right?” Seungmin asked

“I am!” Jisung said raising his hand as Yunho and Yeosang nodded their head a yes, while Hyunjin sat silent.

“Yah! What are you planning! You have to come okay!” Seungmin told Hyunjin “I will be speaking, it’s important!”

“But what will an art student like me will do there?” he asked

“Hey! Han Jisung is also going!” Seungmin said to make a point

“He just wants to see you Dr. Liliac” Hyunjin reminded him

“And you don’t want to?” Seungmin asked, to which Hyunjin shook a no.

“I swear to God Hyunjin, if you’re not there, I’ll tell YEonjun Hyung how you fainted that day and didn’t tell him” Seungmin said. The whole exchange was noticed closely by Yeosang as the rest two were busy discussing something vague. 

Thus, after making sure that Hyunjin would indeed attend, Seungmin smiled and made his way towards the auditorium when he heard a voice call him from the back

“What do you want Yeo?” he asked

“Dude, why were you so fixated to bring Hyunjin to the seminar?” He asked

“Because I have a duty” he said

“To the company?” Yeosand asked, to which Seungmin smiled and shook his head and said “To fate” and continued on his way to find the preparations are almost done.

“Thank you for your work Ryujin” Seungmin said and she nodded in acknowledgement.

“Hey Seungmin” Jay, another intern called his name to get his attention. The speakers went to their speeches again. Soon, Amber and Jeongin were seen on the school grouds doing a perimeter check along with Felix and San. While Bangchan and Jungwon assisted Y/n indoors.

“Why do you all have to be here?” y/n hissed

“Its for the best Y/n-ah” MInho said as the principle stepped out to welcome them. Minho was the star of the day who would be speaking and Y/n was only a spectator, but she too had to interact, she bowed and greeted the school staff as they were lead to the seminar room where their interns had set up. As soon as they entered the interns came up to them as Seungmin gave them a brief outline of the whole seminar. Students started to pile in and Y/n felt a little nervousshe had not faced such a crowd in a long time. Seungmin waited anxiously, looking towards the door way to often, sighing in relief when he finally saw his friends enter with Hyunjin as they took seats in a corner. The principle walked in to introduce everyone, as Minho and Seungmin started their presentation. Even while working Seungmin’s eyes noticed the movement of the students and audience infront of him very closely specially that of his handsome painter friend, who had his eyes stuck on a certain woman. Somehow, Y/n was unaware of this whole ordeal, she was unaware of the presence Hyunjin. That was partly because it was difficult for her to notice the person in the corner of the crowd and partly because she was panicked as now she realised why she found Intern Kim Seungmin so familiar. 

How could she forget this face?

If he is here. Could it be-? No right?

May be he is not?

But what if he is and that is why the activities restarted. Things were pretty calm up until now. Y/n was lost in thoughts. Seeing her so preoccupied Amber moved to her side and asked “Are you okay?”

“Yeah Kinda” Y/n replied

“If you’re then tell me. We’ll discreetly walk out” Amber said brining a smile to Y/n’s face  

“As much as I’d like that Minho would kill me” she said and side looked a Minho who was in the middle of his lecture.

The seminar went as planned, however, Seungmin was shocked to see no reactions from Hyunjin. Did he go wrong somewhere? He thought to himself as he walked up to his friends after his boss and seniors had departed.

“Damn she is something man” Jisung said

“She’s radiant” Yunho added

“I must say she is a rare beauty,” even Yeosang said.

"She was okay" Hyujin said

"Sorry?" Seungmin said looking surprised at Hyunjin, he has seen many reactions from this boy throughout his life or lives but this reaction was a first.

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Ryujin left home earlly so that by the time the other students start coming she would be done with at least the skectch of their current assignment. She greeted the security guards and walked in, the fact that the art building was always open for the students from 6am to 2am was a blessing. She switched on the lights and her eyes went wide at what she saw.

The whole art studio was littered with papers and one person was lying unconscious in the middle, she rushed to person and found him unconscious but breathing. Instinctively she called Felix and San whom she knew where in the building’s dance studios. They rushed in with lighting speed and were shocked. Felix picked up Hyunjin bridal style and placed him on the teacher’s desk as Ryujin and San were picking up the papers and throwing them away as most were scribbled or crushed anyway. They were contemplating to the possibilities of what could have caused Hyunjin to do this and if they should take him to a hospital

“WAIT” suddenly Felix said. See this he said and showed the others, of a drawing of what looked like an eye. Soon they looked through the others un scribbled and uncrushed pictures. San suddenly realised and rushed to the bin to collect a paper he had previously discarded. They were all shocked when the pictures were found to be completing each other like a jigsaw, their shocks escalade when they realised what the picture completed into

“We need to take these to her” Felix said

“I think we should take these to Chan” San said, referring to their alpha

“What about him though?” Felix pointed at Hyujin.

“Grab him. We need to know why he was drawing a picture of our Madam Y/n” Ryujin said as she grabbed the unconscious boy by his collar. 

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Renascence: Hwang Hyunjin x OC

Part 6

Summary: The arcanes are everywhere around you they are actually more normal than you think, but what of the anomalies in the arcane like Y/n? It definitely isn't easy. Especially when nature is always out there to get you and the ones you love. Losing a loved one is difficult but when you've done it a couple of times. No matter how many births he took, watching Hyunjin fade wasn't easy for you. How far are you willing to go this time to protect him? Would things be different this time around?

A/n: Happy Birthday Jinnie! a late upload cause of my procrastinating ass!

WC: roughly 1k

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Ever since the attack you couldn't sleep alone at night. You've had either Minho or Amber to sleep beside you. You felt safer around them, their smell calmed you down.

So here you were cuddled up in bed with Amber, her strong arms holding your torso, as light snores left your mouth. A ringtone sharpened both of your senses as you both jumped up. She stood up and walked to the window with the phone. "San, this better be important," she said as soon as she picked up. "What?! Okay" she hung up "We need to rush to the pack house. They brought someone in" Amber said.

"Brought someone in?" You said rubbing your eyes and grabbing onto Amber's waist and smelling her. "You hungry?" She asked. "Nope" you said, "You just smell nice". Slowly the two of you got up, putting on some jackets as it was way too early to get dressed. You pulled up your hood and left your room to find Jungwon and Jeongin in sweats and Jackets. "Why are you two up?" you asked. "We'll go with you" Jungwon and Jeongin said together. "Were you eavesdropping?" Amber asked in shock. "No but we heard shuffling and you spoke loudly" Jeongin answered and you nodded.

As you inched closer to the pack house (which is huge, mind you) you saw a very familiar car, "she called him too? It must be serious" Amber said. "She called at 5 in the morning, I'd kill her if this wasn't serious" you said yawning. You all exited the car and walked inside. A well known smell reached you, one that you haven't got up close for a long time. You walked in to find Ryujin and Felix with a person tied up on a chair. Jungwon smartly walked up and pulled up the guy's head for and you screamed "OH MY GOD!".

"Ryujin!" You tried to scold her but the girl started explaining. "He was drawing your portrait.. portraits! And that too for DAYS!". "Looks like it's started again" Minho said as he stepped out of a room with Chan and San on tow. "I'll stay out here, you fill them in. They need to know" He said looking at you, and you nodded.

You took one last glance at the guy tied to the chair and walked inside the room again with the others. They all took a seat, Jeongin and Jungwon smartly rushed to the three-seater and patted the middle seat for you. You looked at Amber smiled and took a seat on the other one as you sat between these two. "So um..... I" you fumbled, you kept this part of your life in dark for a long time. Jeongin and Jungwon held onto your hands for support, and you took a sigh. "He is my mate" you finally said. "What?" everybody spoke out almost in sync, everybody but Amber, she knew, not the details that you were about to spill, but she knew.

"He is a muhang and mostly unaware of that.." you went into explaining how you met him for the first time, until he went missing then when you met him a few years later you saw him and the situation. "That whimp is a Muhang?" San said, more like he didn't intend to but oh well. And you nodded. "So is this the first he appeared in 130 years?" Jeongin asked, as he has been with you for that long and never heard of Hyunjin, until you told him a few days back. "No, I have been running away for the past 2 lives," you said, and his face lit up with realization as to why you kept moving from place to place a few decades ago. "But why? And you can't leave this time" Ryujin said and you nodded. "His life was always short when I was in it, I heard an elder say that the luck of my anomaly affects his as he is not an Arcane, Muhang yes, but he is practically still a human. And it's always so painful to keep losing him, especially the last time" you said and took a breath and started.

"There was an underground organisation, they said it was some humans, they were trapping arcanes, mainly muhangs who are easier to find it records are checked it was the mid-1700s." You said and Felix spoke up "After the witch trials and stuff" to make things clear, and you nodded as he motioned you to continue. "This organization was said to be a project that was being handled by generation after generation. They had taken hold of a handful of Muhangs, but those were never seen again to this date. Now, this was around 1750, and the organization called themselves some Black Knights that will supposedly purify the earth. They started actively tracking down Hyunjin. And after a point, they got so big that we started meeting dead ends, and one evening they cornered us, it was either let them take him or we both die trying. He made me" your throat got dry and eyes stung with tears. "I... had to kill him, with my own hands, By the time Seoghwa had tracked me with the help of Minho, it was too late" you said and broke down and the 2J from both sides immediately hugged you. They all wore worried expressions. That was when you heard a commotion from outside and a very irritated Minho saying "Shut up! I swear I'll slit your throat if you make one more sound"

All of you rushed out and you exclaimed "Minho? Why is there tissue in his mouth?"

He whipped head to look at you and pointed at Hyunjin and said "He woke up and started screaming, I had to shut him up"

"Now what do we do with him?" Felix asked, in a deep intemidating voice.

The moment Hyunjin's eyes fell on you they went wide and he fell silent, staring at you soundlessly.

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"Are you sure he is not at any other of your friend's house?"Yeonjun asked again. As Seungmin passed through the art studio, "Yes hyung, he probably stayed here for the night and went for a coffee, I'll call you when I find him" he said, "the Bin had too many paper" he said to himself when the strokes seemed familiar and he knew why. That was when he saw something beside Hyunjin's workstation, a student ID card that read:

"LEE FELIX"

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Part 6 uploaded. Will try to put up the next sometime next week.

Renascence: Hwang Hyunjin x OC

Summary: The arcane are everywhere around you they are actually more normal than you think, but what of the anomalies in the arcane like Y/n? It definitely isn't easy. Specially when the nature is always out there to get you and the ones one you love. Loosing a loved one is difficult but when you've done it a couple of times. No matter how many births he took, watching Hyunjin fade wasn't easy for you. How far are you willing to go this time to protect him? Would things be different this time round?

A/n: I got some sudden inspiration for this, let's see how it goes

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Part 7

Summary: The arcane are everywhere around you they are actually more normal than you think, but what of the anomalies in the arcane like Y/n? It definitely isn't easy. Specially when the nature is always out there to get you and the ones one you love. Loosing a loved one is difficult but when you've done it a couple of times. No matter how many births he took, watching Hyunjin fade wasn't easy for you. How far are you willing to go this time to protect him? Would things be different this time round?

A/n: Slow updates!! Not like anybody is waiting. (I assume that cause there's no interaction lol)

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"We need to return him. Get him away from here" you said quickly as you rushed out of the house. Amber and Minho hot at your heels and Jungwon and Jeongin walking within a distance. "Minho, erase his memory for the past few hours" you said. "Y/n! You can't keep doing this he's your mate!" Minho said. "Just because someone is a mate doesn't mean you're bound to stick to them" Amber defended you. "Yeah, wouldn't you say that" Minho chided at her, both glaring at each other. "Minho please, just this once" you said, "We'll talk after that, do it before people start looking for him. I don't want us to get into a kidnapping case. Go with them, meet me at the facility, later" he nodded and walked off.

Muffled screams were heard as San and Minho dragged the guy, Hyunjin away. "You still love him, don't you?" Amber asked, taking your hand. "You know" you said and sighed and walked off towards your house. As She drive back with Jungwom and Jeongin in the back seat your eyes closed.

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"I missed you" you said running into Hyunjin's outstretched arms. "Thank you for keeping him safe, Master Lee" you said while bowing as soon as you left Hyunjin's embrace. "Please just call me Minho" he said with a charming smile. "We need to move Y/n" Seonghwa came in huffing, "I did a perimeter swipe and the men are on the Northern side of the Fortress, you guys can make it if we plant an ambush" he said.

"You go South west towards Safehouse. We'll join you" Minho said. But things don't get planned, you couldn't take the route to that said safe house as you smelt it reeking with humans. You rushed into the forest with Hyunjin and reached a cliff, there was no way, they drove you here. And soon you found yourselves surrounded by the Black Knights. You pulled out your sword to protect your love. "Lady Y/n, we request you to move, we only have issues with the reincarnating monster with the face of a man behind you" the leader said, fuck they were too many. "He stays here, You have to go through me to touch him" you said and the people stopped momentarily. "So be it!" The man said. "NO!" Hyunjin shouted and it all happened within seconds, he turned you and hugged you and a grunt left his mouth. "H-h-h-Hyun-Hyunjin!" You screamed, as you watched slowly his silk white shirt turn red and your sword that was grasped in your hand inside him.

"No! No! Nooo!!" You screamed. "The others are coming! Retreat!" You heard the men say as they piled away and you fell to your knees with him on your lap. He slowly brought his hand up to your cheek putting pressure to pull you and kiss your teary face. "It's over!" He said. "Why?! Why?!" You repeated, unable to form anymore words. "I can take birth again, you'll be here, I can't let you get hurt for-uh- me. Let's - meet- again, my love-" he said and slowly his eyes closed. "No-no-no" Seonghwa came running and slid down beside you. "Y/n?" He just said. "He-he-he jumped into my sword! Oppa! I couldn't do anything! I couldn't! I lost him again! Again!" you sobbed and he hugged you.

Your eyes opened in a jolt. That nightmare, again?

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"Hyunjin!" Seungmin whisper yelled, as he shook a groggy Hyunjin. "We've been looking everywhere for you! What the fuck man?" He said.

"I was at the studio the whole night, couldn't get this specific piece done, and then I cane here, I must have dozed off. Uh! I had this weird dream" he said shaking his head. "What dream" he asked. "I don't remember much it's all foggy, I just remember her, the voice I hear, and the oerson whose voice it is, your Director Liliac was in it" Hyunjin said with a small smile.

"Wait, so you're saying that voice is of Director Liliac? Are you sure" he asked and Hyunjin nodded. "I need to get to know her Seungmin" he said in desperation. "Let's see, if I can do something. But first talk to Yeonjun hyung and go home, don't forget to charge your phone" Seungmin said and motioned Hyunjin to join him.

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You were passing by the interns lab, you walked in and said "Kim intern, please step outside for a bit please" he looked at you with a hint of smile and walked out with you, one look at Amber and Felix, behind you he asked "yes director?"

"You're woken aren't you?" You asked him, "I always was" he admitted. "Keep him away from me" you said and started to leave, but he stopped you and asked "But why?". "Why?! Why?! Haven't you seen him die, life after life?! For me?!" You said, doing your level best to not yell. "He was happy each time he died. You avoided him for 2 lives, one he lived miserably and the other he killed himself at the age of 17. At least he had a happy life with you!" He said. You stayed silent, "You're ID fell when you tried to nicked Hyunjin" Seungmin added, handing a card to Felix, and walking in.

His teammates asked him what's up and he told them you asked him about some reagents and stuff.

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Hyunjin sat and drew a beautiful meadow filled with flowers, two kids playing in it. The landscape looked very familiar to him, but he has never been to a place like this. At least he remembers never to have been to such places.

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A guide to being kidnapped and escaping 101

Prologue

Chapter 1

𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐇𝐎

𝑙𝑜𝑎𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑎...

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A guide to falling in love with a traitor while being a mafia leader [PREVIEW]

Chapter 1

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Blue indicates: Angst

Hyunjins buff???🤣🤣

he’s actually so pretty. like actually

ᯓ★ 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ― 𝐇𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧

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𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: idol!Hyunjin x GN!reader, established relationship

𝙂𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚: Fluff, suggestive

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𝙏𝙒/𝘾𝙒: suggestive at the end, mentions of drinking alcohol

𝘼/𝙉: This was my first request for Hyunjin! Jisung's version is coming soon. Hopefully you'll like it! :)

⤷ 𝘊𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘏𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘫𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘢𝘺.

⋮ 𝗠𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁 | 𝗛𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗷𝗶𝗻'𝘀 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 | 𝗝𝗶𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗴'𝘀 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻

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When Hyunjin opened the door to your shared apartment, the smell of different spices hit him first. A little bit confused, he took off his shoes and put down his stuff before walking further into the apartment. He could hear your daily Spotify playlist playing over the speakers in the living room. His feet carried him through the apartment in search of you.

Hyunjin had a long day at work and couldn’t wait to feel your arms wrap around him while he took you into his embrace. He had to stay in the studio a few hours longer than expected because the songs they were working on were not really coming along as they had hoped. Chan tried his best to get it done as fast as possible, but he’s no superhero with superpowers. Sometimes it takes a little bit more work and time to get things done.

Normally, Hyunjin didn’t mind working a few hours longer than planned. That was before he met you, though. Before he met you, he often felt lonely. Sometimes it wasn’t a bad feeling, knowing he could be home as late as he wanted without having to consider anyone else with whom he shared his private life. At other times, he longed for the touch of a partner. He longed for intimate touches but also quick, fleeting ones—kissing his partner goodbye before leaving for work, coming home to cuddle in the late hours of the night, moonlight peeking through the bedroom window.

He found all of that when he met you, and he couldn’t be more grateful for it.

The tension and stress of the long workday began to settle in the muscles of his shoulders and neck. He could use a massage, preferably from you while you left soft kisses on his skin in between, he thought.

As he approached the kitchen, he could hear you humming along with the music. A soft smile graced his face as he stopped to just listen to you. You hadn’t heard him come in yet and were still focused on preparing Hyunjin’s favorite home-cooked meal. Cutting up the ingredients, you added them to the pan on the stove before seasoning everything just right.

Hyunjin watched you work for a few minutes before making himself known. Hearing his footsteps approaching, you let out a small yelp, placing a hand over your heart. “Oh my god, you scared me for a second, Hyune.” His face showed amusement at your reaction. “I didn’t hear you come in. I’m making your favorite meal, though.” You set down the cutlery and wiped your hands with a kitchen towel.

“I figured, but I didn’t want to disturb you. I love to watch you cook.” He took you in his embrace, and you wrapped your arms around him. By the way he leaned into you, you could feel how tired he was. “Long day?”

You felt him nod against you, still holding you close. “So busy, it’s stressful.” You peeked at his face and saw tiredness etched across his features. Giving him a soft peck on the lips, you stepped out of his arms and turned your attention back to the food on the stove, stirring it. Hyunjin came up behind you and wrapped his arms around your frame again, resting his head on your shoulder to watch as you cooked. You hummed along to the music once more, and Hyunjin soaked in the moment. Coming home to you cooking his favorite meal and taking care of him after such a long day was one of the best things in his life.

He absolutely loved his idol life, his career, and all the opportunities he’d had since debuting, but nothing beat this feeling with you—coming home to you, holding you, loving you, and being loved by you. He thanked the gods for the day when he bumped into you after you walked out of the coffee shop. Your drink had spilled all over you, and you were ready to get angry at the person who’d caused the mess. When you looked up, it felt like time stood still for a moment. He was the most beautiful man you’d ever laid eyes on, and you almost wanted to apologize for him bumping into you.

Hyunjin felt the same spark when your eyes met, and his breath caught in his throat. Even with your drink spilled all over your white shirt —which was totally his fault— you still looked gorgeous. Eventually, he made it up to you by buying you a new drink. You two started talking and haven’t stopped to this day.

“Go sit down, baby. I’ll pour you a glass of wine and finish up cooking.” Hyunjin let out a soft sigh as you turned around to get him a glass. He smiled to himself and headed to the bedroom to change. After returning to the living room, he saw a glass of red wine on the coffee table and noticed his favorite movie was already starting on the TV.

“What would I do without them,” he whispered to himself. He settled down on the couch, in his favorite spot, and took a sip of the wine. Finally relaxing, he thought, turning his attention to the TV. After a few minutes, he felt your hands on his shoulders. Softly, you began to massage his tense muscles, and he let his head fall back, closing his eyes. Your hands felt like heaven.

You continued the massage in silence, with the sounds of the TV and your playlist in the background. “Do you want to talk about your day?” you asked after a minute. A sigh left his lips, and he opened his eyes to look up at you. “Nothing special, we just needed to finish this song. It was just a long day.” You nodded and gave him a quick kiss on the forehead. “I’ll get two plates, and we can eat in front of the TV. Don’t move, mister.” Hyunjin chuckled, already missing your touch as you went back into the kitchen.

He heard you rummaging around, and after a few minutes, you reappeared with two plates. Sitting down next to him, you handed him his. You ate in comfortable silence, watching the movie you’d put on for him. After dinner, you quickly cleaned the plates and loaded the dishwasher. Hyunjin tried to help, but you motioned for him to stay seated and relax.

“You’re the best, you know that?” he said as you came back with more wine. You sat down and poured him another glass. “You work so hard. I thought I’d surprise you with your favorite meal. It’s the least I could do.”

You smiled softly at him and tucked a strand of hair behind his ear. His hand came up to hold yours, and he left a small kiss on the back of your hand. Even though the gesture was small, it still gave you butterflies. Setting down your glass, you turned to him. “Are you fully relaxed now?” He nodded. “I think so. Thank you for taking care of me, baby.”

“Always.” You leaned closer and gave him a soft kiss. “I thought about running you a hot bath, and maybe I can join you?” Hyunjin hummed in agreement and kissed you again. “I think that’s a great idea. Afterward, I can properly thank you for taking care of me.” He pulled back with a smirk on his lips. You saw his gaze darken slightly and nodded, your hands running up his chest before resting at the nape of his neck. Leaning in for another kiss, you whispered seductively, “I think I love that proposal.”

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Ⓒ︎ 𝗶𝘁𝘀𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗹𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿. 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦𝘥. 𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘺 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵.

─ .✦ 𝐀𝐜𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐁𝐅𝐅!𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐧𝐮𝐝𝐞 📲

𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: bff!Hyunjin x fem!reader

𝙎𝙎:

𝙂𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚: suggestive, fluff-ish

𝙏𝙒/𝘾𝙒: suggestive, some cursing

𝘼/𝙉: requested! Hopefully, you'll love it :)

⤷ 𝘈𝘤𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘯𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘵.

𝗠𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁 | 𝗛𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗷𝗶𝗻'𝘀 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 | 𝗝𝗶𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗴'𝘀 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻

Ⓒ︎ 𝗶𝘁𝘀𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗹𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿. 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦𝘥. 𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘺 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵.

ᯓ★ 𝐂𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 ― 𝐇𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖

𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: idol!Hyunjin x fem!reader

𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩: 3,2k (got a little carried away lol) — 𝟮𝟮 𝙢𝙞𝙣 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙

𝙂𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚: angst, comfort

𝙏𝙒/𝘾𝙒: hurt/comfort, reader's insecure and hyunjin is being oblivious most of the time

𝘼/𝙉: This is also a request. I normally don't really like reading angst but writing it is so much fun lol. Hope you'll enjoy this one!

⤷ 𝘏𝘺𝘶𝘯𝘫𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘺.

⋮ 𝗠𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖

You were heading to the studio with lunch for Hyunjin and the others. He didn’t reply to your texts all morning so you thought you’d surprise him and the others with lunch. You know how they can be when they are busy, so they probably appreciate it if you bring them something to eat.

You entered the building and down the hall to the studio they’d probably be at. Stopping in front of the door, you see it was not fully closed. Raising your hand to knock before entering, your hand comes to a halt when you hear your boyfriend’s voice.

You didn’t mean to eavesdrop, really. It was just that his voice was a little louder than usual, and you happened to stop by at the wrong time.

“Man, it’s so annoying. My phone keeps blowing up and she won’t leave me alone,” you could hear him let out a frustrating groan. “Sometimes she’s just… too clingy, you know? As if she can’t do anything by herself. ‘S driving me crazy.”

Murmurs followed your boyfriend's confession, but your heart was pounding so loud to hear their responses. Hyunjin said it so casually, but his words hit you like a punch to the gut.

Clingy? He thought you were being too clingy?

You thought you were just showing how much you cared for him — it hadn’t felt like too much. But now it felt like you overstayed your welcome like everything you did and every touch had been one too many.

Fighting back the sudden tightness in your chest, you swallowed hard. You stood by the door for a minute gathering your thoughts, before silently turning around to walk away. Your heart now aching with a newfound distance you weren’t sure how to close.

Apparently, your lingering by the door hadn’t gone unnoticed by one of the members. Felix saw something from the corner of his eye and before he could say something, he saw you turn around and walk away from the studio.

He frowned at the words of his friend and the thought of you possibly overhearing him. “She just cares about you,” Felix spoke up before getting out his phone to text you. He didn’t get a response from the older boy, at least not a verbal one.

You arrived back home when you heard your phone going off. Could it be Hyunjin? Did he text you a lie about how he was just busy and didn’t see your texts coming through?

You hated this. You hated this feeling of being lied to. If he thought it was too much, he should have just said so instead of going to his members behind your back.

Sure, he can vent to his friends. It’s not like you don’t do this with your girlfriends. But complaining about your partner and being actually hurtful? You wouldn’t do that.

You set down the bags that contained the lunch boxes before getting your phone out of your purse. It was Felix, asking if you just stopped by. He had seen you turn around and walk away instead of coming in.

You quickly typed a reply, saying you did want to stop by but forgot something at home. It wasn’t really a lie that he would believe, but at this point, you didn’t want to talk about it.

Your heart felt heavy and when you finally sat down on your couch, you felt the pressure behind your eyes building up.

Maybe you were overreacting? No, this was a valid reaction to something that felt so hurtful. This started a spiral of overthinking.

Were you really that clingy? And was it so bad that he might consider breaking up with you? He knew your last boyfriend said one of the reasons he broke up with you was because you were so overbearing towards him. But it was just because you love to show people you care about them.

In the beginning, Hyunjin assured you multiple times that you weren’t overbearing. He said he loved it when all your attention was on him and that you made him feel so loved and special with every little thing you did for him.

So what has changed?

You had hoped your afternoon would be filled with spending some time with your boyfriend, his friends and good food. Instead, it was filled with overthinking and tears.

In the days that followed you tried to act as if nothing was wrong. You tried to continue on, but his words echoed in your head and it made it impossible for you to be as relaxed as before.

Hyunjin could feel you were pulling back slowly, creating distance between the two of you.

The thing that stood out the most was how your frequent texting went from constant texting him things to a few texts a day to almost radio silence during the day.

Normally, you’d always ask him how his day was going, if he needed something to eat, if you could stop by to see what they were working on and even random things you’ve seen during the day that reminded you of him.

Now it felt like you only texted him out of necessity and not because you wanted to talk to your boyfriend.

The week continued, and it seems like the rift between you and Hyunjin has grown even wider. The tension kept knotting in your stomach and your hands kept fidgeting when you were alone together.

You were asleep, or pretended to be, when Hyunjin left for work and the dinners you had together were being eaten in an uncomfortable silence.

You cancelled a date night with the excuse of not feeling great and went straight to the bedroom. You didn’t come out for the rest of the night, leaving Hyunjin alone with his thoughts.

He felt like you were on edge, but he couldn’t figure out why or what had happened for you to be acting this way towards him. The sudden coldness and distance.

He had to admit, he missed your blabbing during dinner, or when you’re watching a movie and you tell him random fun facts about it. He just could not dwell long on your behaviour, because work still demanded a lot of his time and energy.

This resulted in the members deciding to go out to dinner together when they finished the last remaining details for the comeback. Felix suggested asking you along too; he got the feeling from his friend that something was going on between you.

Hyunjin hasn't talked much about you and what you guys have been up to lately, but he hasn't seen you in the studio during lunch lately either. You would normally come to surprise your boyfriend and the members while they were working hard on their comeback.

This also raised suspicions that you might have overheard Hyunjin's harsh words.

That brings you to here right now, at a table in a fancy restaurant, sitting next to Felix and Hyunjin. Your hands started fidgeting again, a habit you picked up the past few days.

Hyunjin sitting next to you, oblivious to your fidgeting, laughing and chatting with his friends - like hadn’t shattered your confidence with one careless comment.

“Hey, are you alright?” Felix’s voice was soft as he leaned closer, his concern clear. You gave him a small, forced smile.

“Yeah, just tired,” you mumbled. The lie felt heavy, but the ache in your chest felt even heavier.

Hyunjin’s laughter pulled your attention back to him. He looked so carefree and completely unaware of the hurt he’d caused. That’s what stung the most—how easy it was for him to say something that lingered with you, while he didn’t seem bothered at all.

Did he really not notice? Or does he not care enough to do something about it. Then again, you didn’t know if you should bring it up to him.

Felix spoke up again, “I haven’t seen you at our studio during lunchtime lately. What’s up with that?”

His attention was fully on you, trying to figure out what was going on in that head of yours. The question seems to caught you off guard. He observed you telling a forced lie to him about your absence. Suspicion confirmed.

Your eyes strayed quickly to Hyunjin but it seemed you didn't want to focus your attention on your boyfriend. His attention went to your hands, which were still fidgeting. He knew now that you indeed heard your boyfriend tell his members that he thought you were clingy and it was eating away at you.

This needs to be resolved quickly, he thought, but he didn’t want to intervene right now. It seems like you need a friend in this moment and he wanted to help you not have the troubling thoughts in your head for a moment.

He switched up the conversation with a different question to ease your mind, and you seemed to be eager to change the topic.

And this did work for a while, you were having good food and good conversations with the rest of the group. Except for Hyunijn, and it didn’t go unnoticed by him.

After the dinner ended, and everyone went their separate ways home, you fell back into an uncomfortable silence again. The car ride home seemed to last hours when it was in fact only a 20-minute drive.

Hyunjin tried to place his hand on your leg, but you just slightly turned your body the other way and faced the window the entire ride home.

When you stepped foot into your apartment, you immediately headed to your bedroom to change into your pyjamas. Hyunjin still was a little confused and watched you disappear into the bedroom.

Deciding to confront you about the distance he felt, he went after you. You were already in the bathroom, removing your make-up.

“Hey,” Hyunjin’s voice was cautious, a little hesitant. “Is something wrong?”

You didn’t answer him straight away. Your eyes found his and you looked at him through the mirror, before settling back to your own reflection to continue removing your make-up.

Should you admit that you’d heard everything? The hurt twisted inside you, mingling with the fear of pushing him away even more.

Finally, you turned to face him, your voice barely audible. “Do you really think I’m clingy?”

The question clearly caught him off guard, he just stood there and blinked at you. It seemed like he wanted to say something, but the words didn’t leave his lips.

The silence followed by your question was suffocating and it made you second — no, triple—guess all the thoughts and emotions you’ve felt for the past days. The reaction he gave you made your mind wonder if you might be overreacting to five simple words.

‘Sometimes she’s just too clingy’.

You felt so vulnerable, but you couldn’t hide your unspoken thoughts anymore. Your eyes stayed focused on Hyunjin. He swallowed thickly before parting his lips to speak. “You’ve heard?”

He had no idea you were at the studio, or near the studio when he was venting to his members.

A sad and tired sigh left your lips and you turned your attention back to your reflection, continuing your skincare. It felt weird, acting as if it was just a normal question, meanwhile the words chipped away at your confidence.

“It’s just... sometimes...” His voice finally broke the tension, but it didn’t sound as sure as you’d hoped. Running a hand through his hair, frustration flickering across his features.

You could see him trying to find the right words, but every second he hesitated only making your chest tighten more.

“What? Sometimes what?” you pressed on. “I’m sometimes too much? Am I too close all the time? Overbearing? I can’t do anything by myself?” Though your voice was quieter now, he could hear the hurt and uncertainty bleeding through.

He winced slightly at your words and pressed his lips together. He let out another sigh, “No, it’s not like that. I- I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just…” He trailed off, trying to find the right words.

You didn’t respond to his words, just waiting for an explanation as to why he said you were ‘too clingy’ and ‘couldn’t do anything by yourself’. But the explanation never seemed to come, the words stuck in his throat.

Though, you weren’t sure what you wanted to hear. His silence felt louder than any explanation he could have given.

“I was venting, and I just… I didn’t know you heard that... I’m sorry.” Frustration was seeping into his features. “It doesn’t mean I don’t care about you or- or what you do!” His voice softened and his eyes searched yours.

He didn’t know whether to take a step towards you and reach out or keep his distance, though the latter option is something you already succeeded in the past few days.

It didn’t feel good enough for you. The words fell flat between you, without meaning. You felt your chest tighten again and the suffocating feeling in your throat came back. The burning sensation of fresh tears behind your eyes was building up, ready to be released down your cheeks.

Turning away from him and nodded, “I get it, Hyunjin.” The man winced at the sound of your voice and hearing his name coming from your lips. “It’s fine. My ex said the same things, I’m used to it by now.”

It wasn’t fine. You weren’t used to it, not by a long shot. But you didn’t know if you could handle hearing more, or even if you wanted to.

Pushing past him, you went back into your bedroom. Turning on the lamp on your bedside table, you pulled back the covers and got into bed. Hyunjin lingered in the bathroom, trying to gather his thoughts on how he could explain to you he didn’t mean it like that.

He didn’t mean to hurt you, it was just in the heat of the moment and being stressed out because of work didn’t help either. Not that it should be an excuse.

You reminded him of the words your ex had said to you tugging at his heartstrings. That hurt. He knew it was a bad and rough break-up for you.

Even though it was so significantly small for him, something said in passing when he was stressed, holds an entirely different meaning and feeling for you.

You lay in bed staring at the window, silently letting the salty tears run down your face, and onto your pillowcase. From your position in bed, you reached out to turn off your light. The darkness engulfed you.

Hyunjin came into the bedroom after a minute. You felt the bed dip behind you, and he softly reached out to you. He rested his hand on your shoulder, trying to be comforting to you.

He could hear your breathing, uneven and heavy. Without seeing your face, he knew tears were rolling down.

The moonlight is peeking through the see-through curtains in front of the window., and it lit up your face. Right now, that was the only light in the room. You stayed quiet, not trusting your voice to say anything to your boyfriend.

“It’s not fine,” he murmured, almost like he was talking more to himself than to you. “I didn’t mean to make you feel like that.” When he didn’t hear anything from you, he continued.

“I just…” He exhaled slowly, clearly struggling. “I didn’t know how to explain it. Sometimes, when I’m stressed or overwhelmed, I don’t know how to handle things. But it’s not about you. It’s never about you.”

His words hovered between you. The sting of what you’d overheard lingered, reminding you of how easy it was for him to call you clingy in front of the others.

You wondered if he even realized how much that had hurt, or if he was just trying to smooth things over now that he knew you’d overheard.

“Then why say it at all?” you whispered, barely able to keep your voice steady. “If it wasn’t about me, why say it like that? Why make me feel like… like I’m too much?”

Hyunjin looked pained, his eyes flickering with regret as he gently pulled you to him in the dark. “You’re not too much. You never are.” At his words, you turned to face him.

Carefully he reaches for your hair to brush the loose strands from your face. “I know it's not an excuse to say I was stressed, but I really didn't mean it. The past few days I felt the distance between us and it ate away at me. I didn't know what was going on and what I had done to make you distance yourself from me.”

Your silence urges him to continue, “I didn't know how to bring this up, but I understand why you've been so distant these past few days. I was just venting to my friends without realizing this could hurt you. Especially after your break-up with your ex, I'm so sorry...”

His fingertips traced the side of your face before wiping away the tears that ran free. You swallowed hard, you wanted to believe him. You really did, because it is normal for people to vent about their feelings, good and bad.

But another part, the part that heard him so casually say you were clingy, kept you guarded.

Your hand reached out for his that was still lightly tracing your face, “I don’t want to feel like I’m smothering you, Hyunjin. I just… I don’t know what to do now.”

“You know, I missed your random texts. The one you always send if you see something that reminds you of me. And when you ask me how my day is going. The boys also have been asking about you, y’know.”

The sincerity in his voice made you look up at him. “They miss you at lunch too, just like I do.” For the first time since this conversation started, you saw the cracks in his usual confidence.

“It really hurt, the way you said it so casually too. And it felt like a punch in the gut after you know what my ex said to me. But it is my insecurity, not yours. I just need to figure out how to deal with it.”

He gently shook his head. “If you feel hurt about what I said, that is completely valid. I know it is an insecurity of yours, and I shouldn’t have been so casual about it.”

You let out a sigh and initiated intertwining your fingers with his. The small act brought a soft smile to his face. Watching your features, being lit up by the moonlight, he felt his racing heartbeat calm down.

“We’ll figure it out together baby. If I feel like I don’t need a distraction during work, I’ll put on my do-not-disturb mode on my phone, okay?” His words made you nod in agreement.

“And I will try to communicate my feelings more, especially when it comes to something like this. I realize now that I just have to talk about this when it bothers me.”

In response to your words, he nodded. “I love you, baby, so much.” Before you could respond he drew you closer, his lips brushing yours in a lingering kiss. “I love you too Jinnie.” You tugged him closer, kissing him with tender, quiet softness. You finally felt the tightness in your chest melt away.

He wanted to do better for you. His hand in yours felt like a promise—one he wasn’t going to let slip away.

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