I Have Problems - Tumblr Posts
XD, why is he so pretty š
He is talking to himself jajajjs
my contribution to our talk jsjjsj.
@stellavesperis @dfwbwfbbwfbwf The repost were very long so im putting this here lol
Listening to music and making cookies late at night might not solve all my problems but I can pretend like it does
I have an evil women problem. Please help
Who needs friends when you have balls of yarn that you bought to crochet with but now they just sit there and stare at you waiting for you to use them while you sit on your sofa and watch your teen years fly away as you scroll through this hell hole
And once again I'm saying that older means better.
I'm not sure if it has been said before but apparently Kat is 40 in the book
YES MADAME!!!!
Why do I imagine Ox is the one that's gonna be wearing a dress in marriage-
Me, not wanting to draw my own ocs, but wanting to draw other people's ocs, but not wanting to do the commission of someone's oc:
arrived like an hour early to uni today jokes on you if you thought it was to study i literally took a bus and felt a sudden wave of creativity and started writing fanfiction on dan and phil oh my god why am i like this
The fact that tumblr is my primary social media is proof that Iām far gone
Why did this fucker have a full fucking choke hold on me before I even watch the film?!?!?!
mayhaps I just spent hours on this for my best friend who I dragged into the fandom recently. she asked for a few videos she could watch.... I think I got a bit carried away
I was vividly imagining the world ending and I imagined the lyctors came and said āyou fucked it upā and they came up like flying on little saucers and wearing helmets and it really fucked my mind like think about that situation
Me, constantly: oh Iām gonna draw this fandom related thing, itāll be so cool and fun, and then Iāll post it on tumblr so that I can get validation
Also me: never draws anything that I say I will and only draws ocs that I havenāt talked about on here ever
Which ones of these arbitrary trauma-induced rules do you follow?
No spending money, ever. what if you need it later and your life depends on it.
Assume that all strangers are 3 seconds close to becoming hostile. fawn to keep them friendly.
No delegating tasks. no telling other people to do things you could potentially do yourself. what if they mess up.
Assume that everyone will consider you a burden if you do 1 single mistake that inconveniences them. do all that is possible to not make that mistake.
Do not admit when things are going wrong. wait until theres no other option but to ask for help, and even then consider not doing that.
Always act like you're okay. not doing so might make you seem 'not normal' and 'accused of being crazy and unstable'.
Do anything for friends, even if it sounds weird, dodgy, illegal. you want to prove that you're fun and easy going and helpful and useful and extremely cool with anything.
Never let it show if you're suspicious of someone. never say out loud that you think their intentions are bad. that might set them off.
If hurt, hide and isolate. Do not let anyone see you hurt.
Do not ask help for problems you feel are your own responsibility to solve. Even if you don't see yourself solving them successfully. If you can't do it, assume nobody can help you.
Help others to try and build positive relationships. Don't accept help so you don't end up relying on them for anything.
Do not start things that involve help or participation from other people. People are not reliable.
Assume that institutions, government, police, social services, and any kind of groups of people are all considering you a nuisance, and would attack you on sight, in every single situation. Never rely on them or assume they would do anything else.
No arguing, confronting, or standing up for yourself unless the situation is absolutely unsurvivable otherwise. Lay low until doing otherwise is seriously damaging your mental health and ability to live.
Give up on hopeful social encounters before they disappoint you. If you have to interact with people, assume the worst is about to happen.
No allowing yourself to idealize, or dream of positive future with people. It's a trap and your expectations need to be either extremely realistic or low.
Assume that fancy and expensive things don't exist for you. Despise them and get away from them.
No comparing yourself and your life to how other people live. It causes depression and despair. Other people's lives and standards of living are none of your business.
Do not showcase any skill or brag about any achievement. Jealous people can destroy you for satisfaction.
Assume people think the worst of you and don't consider changing their mind. Just try to keep out of their way.
Do not display anger. You don't want to be called insane or get arrested. You don't know what people could potentially blame you for if you're openly angry. But other angry people are dangerous and you need to get away from them.
If you follow more than half of these, you have a trauma-induced problem. These are not normal or healthy. These are not developed in a healthy environment. These are extremely self-protective, isolating, ruled by terror of the world and the people living in it. If you follow these, something bad has been done to you.
Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.
Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?
Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.
Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?
Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?
Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?
Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out
People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?
Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.
It's all a defence mechanism
"no, I don't have a type."
HUH
HUH??!!
MERMAY 2024 MAIN CAST- look at my stupid, idiot little children, I love them so much. If I can keep up, this year is gonna be fun; I have angsty plots >:3
MerMay 2024 Masterpost
Relative size reference and anatomical ramblings below cut.
Hereās a vague size comparison thing for all of them. And a human for perspective
I really, desperately want to make an illustrated guide to my merfolk lore, because itās extensive and Iām really proud of it. But that sounds slightly overwhelming, so idk, but here are some random scraps that pertain to these four. My fish mers arenāt allowed to have hair; they have a variety of different fins on their head to mimic it instead. Oviparous fish (e.g. remora) lay their eggs and their mer counterparts do likewise, and therefore donāt have nipples and/or breasts. Eggs of ovoviviparous fish (e.g. manta ray) hatch shortly before giving birth and do not consume anything resembling milk, so their mer counterparts do not have nipples and/or breasts. Viviparous fish (e.g. lemon shark) essentially nurse when in the womb, so their mer counterparts nurse after having given birth and have nipples and/or breasts. Mammals (e.g. monk seal) are self explanatory.
Also most animals hatch or are born with navels, because even in eggs, thereās a cord from the embryo to the yolk sack. Oviparous and ovoviviparous creatures just tend to be better at healing the scar. However, Iāve decided that mers are not as good at healing the scar, and thus, have bellybuttons.
Thanks for coming to my TED Talk.
I love the idea of being suicidal,and having mental disorders because people would start paying attention to me if I did.