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I am redoing my annotations on trc and I cannot explain to you how important the initial description of Monmouth is to me and I’m going to explain that to you right now in great detail because that is what I do so strap in brothers
First off we learn that Monmouth was abandoned because whatever it created was “something that the world no longer needed.” Monmouth was abandoned because whatever was created inside of it was no longer needed but now it is inhabited by Richard Campbell Gansey III. Gansey is something that his friends and the world as a whole NEEDS. Monmouth Manufacturing is just another one of those things (like Noah) that is displaced to simply make room for Gansey and what he WILL do for other people and the world. The same way that Noah died so that Gansey could live, Monmouth shut down so that he would have a place to create everything that he does whether that is physical objects or simply a space for people. Monmouth is important to the entire gangsey because even if it isn’t where they live it is their home despite the fridge in the bathroom and the lack of habitable furniture
Secondly, “Gansey’s invented apartment was a dreamer’s laboratory.” Obviously that applies to Ronan, this is where he lives, where he creates, where he feels safe, as a dreamer but it also applies so fucking much to Gansey himself. Gansey has so many dreams both for himself and for his friends, he as a person just WANTS so much. There are books covering every surface and maps on the walls, telescopes and insomnia-fueled scaled down version of the town they live in. It is Gansey’s mind placed into a physical setting and a reflection of how much he craves everything around him. He wants to know about the ley lines, and Glendower, Cabeswater, and Ronan’s abilities, and anything he can get his hands on because he has such a deep seated need to know things. He dreams of what will happen when he finally does know these things and how the people around him will be affected by that. He dreams of what Ronan could do and the type of person he could become if he recovers from the trauma of his father’s murder, he dreams of Adam completing all his goals in life without the restrictions of money, of Blue doing whatever it is that she wants to do in life, and he dreams that he can be a part of all of these things. Ronan is a dreamer in the way that he can make things from his dreams real, but Gansey is a dreamer in the way that he so desperately wants his dreams to come true
do u guys fw fiddlestan.
Ok I always thought the "I am ---" trilogy and the Clé trilogy were two separate things but I've also always been confused by "I am YOU," the featured track from the final "I am ---" album. Like, it's sweet and all, and it makes a little sense (the line "I see myself in you" really clears things up for that one tbh), but it's never really felt like a resolution.
If I think about it, though, the Clé trilogy seems to be another identity-finding journey that centers on separating your identity from others. I don't mean, like, uniqueness, but rather not relying on others for your sense of identity. If I'm right, then Clé is actually a continuation of the "I am ---" albums.
However, the I am WHO album kind of doesn't fit very well here, because the main featured track is "My Pace," which is about not paying attention to like. peer pressure and stuff and doing the things you want to how you want to do them instead without comparing yourself to others. That kind of feels like it fits better with the whole separating self from others thing Clé has going on.
I vaguely remember hearing that the other song they were considering making the main track for I am WHO was "Awkward Silence," which, don't get me wrong, I LOVE that song, but it does not fit the vibe of the album so I'm kind of glad they did not do that, but it's also about not feeling pressured in social situations.
I guess you could say "My Pace" and "Awkward Silence" fit the progression of the "I am ---" albums, in a way, because they're starting to realize who they are, but I feel like they're too far ahead for having a whole 'nother album left. To be honest, I've always thought "Question" fits the vibes the best.
Anyways, I have a sort of theory for how the progression goes and ties together between these 6 albums:
I am NOT - hold on a minute who do I really want to be? what do I want in life? are the things I want really the things people tell me I should/do?
Representative songs: "NOT!" "Awaken"
I am WHO - if I'm not who everyone says I am, then who am I? (starts discovering self a bit)
Representative songs: "WHO?" "Question"
I am YOU - forming a good relationship (of any kind; could be significant other, friend, parent, whatever), or perhaps returning to one. it could be like a new relationship they're very happy with or it could be reaching an understanding with the people they rejected in I am NOT. part of their identity comes from this relationship. a large part of their identity, actually, probably, because like. it's. I am you. uh yeah
Representative songs: "YOU." "I am YOU" "Hero's Soup"
Clé 1: MIROH - whoah guys I'm pretty rad amirite
Representative songs: "MIROH" "Victory Song" "Boxer"
Clé 2: Yellow Wood - wait actually something is wrong? life is not as easy as I thought (kind of like that)
Representative songs: "Side Effects" "TMT" (not gonna count any of the mixtapes bc they're really more like singles that just happened to be released in this album)
Clé: LEVANTER - I defined myself too much by my relationship with this person (maybe the person from I am YOU) and lost sight of what I wanted for myself, so when they left me (possibly in Clé 2) I no longer knew what I to do. However, I now realize this and can take hold of my desires for myself.
Representative songs: "STOP" "Levanter" (most of the other songs carry similar 'I'm gonna do what I want now' sentiments, however, they do not include the same ideas about breaking free as "Levanter" and "STOP," while it also does not in words, the fact that it is pretty close to being the same song as "Road Not Taken" from Clé 2 but with mostly different lyrics indicates a connection to the unsureness of that album with a sense of moving on from it)
From the resolution of the Clé albums, most of their albums follow a trend of confidence, like that in Clé: MIROH except they haven't gone back to an uncertain theme afterward. Not every song is so confident, but there were confident songs in the beginning, so why shouldn't it be the other way around?. Case in point: "Grow Up," from I am NOT didn't start with confidence, but it ended with it, and there's also "YAYAYA" from the album from even before their debut. In TOP, which, yes, is now like 3 years old or something (I'm really behind on their newer albums so idk what most of the songs are but I am literally actively working on it right at this moment) and was for an anime, there's "SLUMP," which was written/composed/arranged by Han and Chan so it definitely fully counts, and it's fully super not confident. Nevertheless, the fact that I knew all the songs up through, like, THUNDEROUS, and still had a really hard time thinking of less confident stuff means there's definitely a trend of confidence since the resolution of the clé albums.
This!!
i don't think we as a society do enough with suga, kageyama, and oikawa as a trio. like... foils/parallels/etc aside, they'd just be so funny. gimme suga sensing that oikawa is about to make some mean comment about kageyama and staring him down. gimme suga and oikawa embarrassing kageyama in public. gimme suga and kageyama making fun of oikawa together. i want it all.
jeon jungkook, stop making my heart flutter like this
Brahms literally begged Greta to stay w him, and the fact that he was able to word it out? Because he was that desperate for company? Literally makes me want to bear hug him and never let go.
okay I just had a thought that will keep me awake with how cool it is so I'm sharing it
Dark and Second are like polaropposites, but also have a lot of parallels. So what if, if you look deep enough into Seconds code you'll find a mission command that simply says [PROTECT] it doesn't specify what or who, so it would be the first living things Second meets. Their friends.
Thats why they are so worried about them constantly.
Thats why they get that sense of dread and light understanding of the danger happening in the sky block episode in AvM
That's why their powers awakened
Because they have to protect. Like how Dark has to destroy. I imagine it's like a compulsive need that drives them every day and leads their thoughts on needs and wants. They need and want to keep their friends safe, so they have to at all costs.
But Dark has the need to destroy and the want to be friends with Chosen. Those two things conflict and cause him to build ViraBots to destroy for him. Then he can focus his want. But when Chosen says no to the idea of the ViraBots and attacks him, his need takes over. His need to destroy Chosen.
(while writing this I fleshed it out even more in my head so it's a full headcanon now and feel free to ask about it cause I accidentally made it really complicated, whoops!)
Welp, it’s official. JORGE IS PAYING FOR MY THERAPY!
I just came back from watching the glassworker (2024) and oh. My. GOD. It's was SO FKN GOOD. The commentary on war and it's effects, what it means to be an artist during a time of conflict, Vincent and Alliz's love, the casual representation of Pakistani culture, the jaw droppingly stunning animation reminiscent of ghibli. Pls pls PLS watch this movie if you haven't already, you'll love it I swear. I can't wait for more films coming from Mano Studios. And as a Pakistani, I'm so goddam proud of this movie :3
https://screenrant.com/the-rings-of-power-sauron-love-interest-celebrimbor-not-galadriel/#:~:text=Celebrimbor%20And%20Sauron%20Developed%20A,for%20its%20Halbrand%2DGaladriel%20arc.
Hell yes.
I'm pretty sure people have already thought about this but like imagine a Miraculous X Fruits Basket au.
Give me Marinette transforming into a tiny ladybug when under stress. Give me her rejecting the idea of having a boyfriend because then her secret identity wouldn't be safe. Give me Adrien feeling even more isolated from the outside world, he cant even hug his female friends. Him finding comfort in the bunch of cats that are always around him. Him transforming into a cat and wondering through Paris (marichat?)
Give me both of them finding solace ín each other under the mask because they can hug each other without any problems and they are the only ones who know what this whole thing feels like. Them patroling at night and just hugging each other for infinite minutes.
And these are just the off the top of my head! There are so many possibilites for both angst and comedy.
(if there is already a fanfiction around this concept, please send it to me I'll be forever grateful)
So here I am, feel free to ignore if I'm breaking any boundaries.
Your story actually made me think of Tim’s process through the trauma and mainly how he processes most adult things. I do like soft, hurt, self-sacrificing Tim like any hot, red blooded fan, of course.
But let me argue that Tim Drake is not a child child, he has been his own responsible adult since he was six. He learned budgeting and bills and taxes and stranger danger and all the things adults eventually teach children from TV/the internet and he is not ashamed of it.
Kinda that when Jack and Janet left him alone with a housekeepr, he basically parentified himself.
So in comes the 12/13 year old who sees Batman tiptoeing the edge and goes: I can fix this dude so hard!
And yeah, Bruce is almost lost to his grief and barely conscious of the utter shitshow around him, “sure, whatever kid, be Robin, but train with other adults, I’m too broken hearted to adult right now. Oh, you learned from Alfred and Dick, great, Imma teach you and oh, you disappeared for a while, huh, you got even better, I wonder what you did, well whatever let’s go on patrol.”
And years pass, Bruce heals, he gets his family back, he gains allies and perspective.
And maybe one day he is high as a kite on some scarecrow or ivy drug or whatever, he beat the villain, he did the justice, weee~
And he realizes he is home and Tim’s tiny hand is pulling hin towards the bathroom and he is confused.
Tim, on the other hand, is so used to Bruce’s shit, that he simply taps him on the back of the knees to make him kneel by the toilet bowl and goes: “Okay, you feel up to puking on your own or should I make you?”
And Bruce is even more confused because his children usually weren’t like this, they were soft and depended on his stability, none of his children should see him this vulnerable.
And maybe he takes a little too long to reply because suddenly Tim is shoving two fingers down his throat while holding the back of his head and suddenly Bruce is vomiting and Tim pats his heaving back and makes sure none of it goes in his hair while TSKING because “Really Bruce? Don’t be a baby, my hand can’t hurt that much, I’m like 13.”
And Bruce, for once, realizes he is not the parent in this relationship and he is not sure how it happened.
You can extrapolate Bruce Mommy/Daddy-issues Wayne would definitely fall for that scarily inteligent teen that has become his highly unimpressed new mommy if you like.
Or he simply tries (and fails) to parent this child who somehow doesn’t need him like Dick and Jason and Damian ever did and he is frightened that if Tim doesn’t need him he will leave.
Which is why Tim gets more benefits than Dick and Jason ever did at his age COMBINED.
A car? You got it.
A Ducatti? Red, black or both?
Your own team instead of integrating you to Dick’s? SURE THING!
It is quite telling that even if Dick is Bruce’s oldest adopted child and the one he is trusting the mission to, TIM is the one who is supposed to inherit the company and thus Batman’s biggest source of income and Bruce’s charity and social justice pet projects in case of Bruce’s death.
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just read the comment you left on ‘here cometh the iceman’ and i cannot tell you how happy i was to be greeted by this in my inbox!!!!!!! 😍 😍 😍 😍 😍 😍!!!!
i love your tim HC so much because it reallly does align with how he behaves so often! tim is a child who has, often, had to parent himself. in the comics it’s implied that the majority of his developmental years in school were spent in boarding schools where his only supervisors were teachers and the few adults whose job were to look out for them. but even then tim would’ve had to learn how to deal with a lot of things himself- he had to put himself to bed, decide what and how to regulate his diet, how to deal with interpersonal issues along with any tension that came with living with another kid his age. tim is essentially a young adult in a child’s body. and to contrast that is bruce. who arguably, while he is an adult, lacks a lot of the landmark developmental milestones that tim has already had (through no choice of his own).
bruce has alfred as a kind of crutch so many of the “adult” things tim experienced were things he never learned or developed the skills for. hence why when they came together, tim who was the more responsible, mature, and developed “adult” took care of bruce. it’s such an upside down pineapple situation where bruce is the grown up but the child and tim is the child but the grown up. so tim caring for bruce like when he gets poisoned and needs to vomit, tim treats him like a child who has swallowed something he wasn’t supposed to. he falls into caring for bruce like it’s a routine and bruce is struck with the realization of what had been happening while his head was buried in the sand from his grief.
bruce has sooo many hangups about his parents and their deaths, his relationship with them has guided so much of his life and how he expresses (or doesn’t express) his love. alfred had cared for and loved him but always maintained him an arm’s length away perhaos out of respect for bruce and the relationship he had with his parents. but tim! tim treats him in that soft way his mother did, taking a rag and dabbing away the sweat from his brow when bruce starts sweating buckets after vomiting. so many things tim does for him reminds bruce so starkly of his mother and father and it kind of makes him uncomfortable but that feeling gets trampled by and is the reason he never puts a stop to it - he likes it. he likes being doted on and cared for, he like that tim feeds him warm broths, oatmeals, and chicken soup. he likes that tim presses featherlight kisses to his scrapes and cleaned wounds. with tim there’s no expectation of him to make the first move, be responsible, or be the parent. not like there was with jason or dick.
but there’s also the fact that bruce no longer offers something to tim. safety, protection, etc. the things you expect from a parent. tim doesn’t want them, in fact he’s the one who provides them because bruce startles awake from a bad dream and tim is already there to comfort him.
bruce attempting to become the parent in their dynamic similarly failing leaves him scrambling and leaves him scared about the fact that tim could leave him.
this fundamentally changing their dynamic is so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its why tim gets more leeway than the others, why he’s treated differently and “allowed” so much independence. i think if jason and dick weren’t so preoccupied with their own lives and issues they might stop and be like “hey wtfff”.
tim and bruce’s relationship and dynamic is one of the most fascinating to me because the two of them are mirrors, foils, and almost caricatures of each other in some cases. the two of them share so much in common but are also fundamentally different people. if tim had been in bruce’s shoes from birth he would’ve likely followed the same path but been different. same with bruce. if he had been the little idealistic boy whose parents more or less neglected him, he would’ve followed the same path as tim had but been….different. the two of them are such good characters, their shared history and dynamic is fascinating and thank you so much for this really good deep dive into their character and relationship!!!!!!! it’s so good!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESS DUDE OMG she’d be such a daddy’s girl (just like how Jack is a momma’s boy) and I feel like if she survived the cannon timeline she would actually be interested in the herding, hunting, fishing, and gunslinging that John always tried to get Jack involved in. Their relationship would probably be a lot like Bonnie’s relationship with her dad lol (he’s stern and protective of her)
I feel like everyone making a Modern AU of RDR LOOOVES to make sure Issac is alive (which I love too I want to see Issac) but EVERYONE forgets about John’s daughter who died too :( like what about her? Can’t she live too? What would yall name her? I wanna know 🙏🙏
I am a women with simple wants
BARRY KEOGHAN as DRUIG Eternals (2021) dir. Chloé Zhao
Man I really need to stop posting that I’m gonna do things cause I just don’t. I’m sorry but my life is constant game of hyperfixation roulette and I’m loosing.
Okay so I should be trying to go to sleep right now but hey TBOSBAS ATLA au.
Sejanus is the avatar cause he’s my favorite.
So the people of the capitol are majority non benders (don’t ask how they got control I started this like twenty minutes ago) but they use energy bending to control the people of the districts to keep them from uprising too much or something like that. Look man I haven’t watched Avatar or LOK in at least 3 years my memory is spotty.
But anyways I made a list of the tributes (and my boy) and their elements and if they use subtypes much:
Sejanus- the avatar
Facet- earth (metal and lava)
Velvereen- water (mostly healing)
Marcus- earth (lava)
Sabyn- water (or air my minds not made up)
Circ- earth (metal)
Teslee- fire (lightning)
Coral- water (blood bends)
Mizzen- water
Hy- water
Sol- fire (lightning)
Otto- air
Ginnee- earth (metal)
Treech- water (plants)
Lamina- air
Wovey- air
Bobbin- earth (not sure really)
Panlo- earth
Sheaf- water (plants)
Tanner- fire (occasionally combustion)
Brandy- water (blood)
Reaper- earth
Dill- water (plants)
Lucy Gray- air
Jessup- earth (lava sometimes)
I felt like sharing, if you have any ideas please share. Plot wise I’ve got nothing but yknow I never write anyways.
Admitting to the world that I do regularly think about Sejanus Plinth as part of the Criminal Minds BAU because my brain is hyperfixation rotting out of my head. I’ve never put pen to paper for it but it’s a thought, I have a few sketches too.
I’ve been working on the inter dimensions transport and time line stuff because I was straight up using the Magic Tree House from the Magic Tree House book series. I needed a device and that’s what I thought of.
Someone needs to stop me, or tell me to go deeper in. Either works.
I think Sej would like being able to save people and he could use some of his D2 background (that I made up cause I still haven’t read or watched TBOSBAS) and things. I just love him so much and I want him to do something that makes him happy and also I love criminal minds so much that it makes me really happy. I’ve been creating horror crossover since age 7 and I am not stopping now.
Sup guys, between failing NaNo, not doing art fight even though I want to, and ignoring my homework I’ve continued having TBOSBAS thoughts so here’s my new one:
Sejanus and Iphigenia in a marriage arranged by both their fathers that neither is really interested in. They bond over time and become close friends, not sure if I want it to go romantic.
As with all things I do think of them in context with my hunger games / criminal minds crossover (it’s really just Sejanus and criminal minds but still) and I just feel like they could be happy, at least happy enough. Personal growth and friendship brought on by a shitty situation.
May post more soon since I’m actually trying to write things this month.
Whumpee-Coryo x Reluctant Caretaker-Sejanus my beloved. Been thinking about this one thing I read once that I can’t find for the life me where Coriolanus was avoxed instead of being sent off as a peacekeeper and the idea of Avox-Snow has stuck with me.
Currently thinking about a post betrayal situation where Sejanus didn’t get hanged but found out how he was caught and then Coriolanus did something else, possibly running off with Lucy-Grey, and was avoxed for it. Sejanus is given this newly Avoxed Coryo as a gift and has to deal with the complicated emotions he has surrounding Snow and the delicate situation the other is in.
Also me and my Criminal Minds crossover brain rot is just picturing the two sitting awkwardly in Sejanus’s Virginia apartment. And Coriolanus getting to see that world and how different yet similar it is to the one he knows. I’m thinking of them walking to like a grocery store or something and Coryo just looking around shocked by all the people and then all the food, the abundance of it, and Sejanus letting him pick stuff out that his family hadn’t been able to afford since before the war that’s common place here. He is befuddled and Sejanus is in emotion distress.