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Cynthia thought Curt died in that weapons facility. Just for a couple of hours.
She didn't have enough evidence to draw any hard conclusions, but what she did have was enough to convince her that something was wrong. That night, there'd been something about an explosion called in, followed shortly by about ten minutes of dead air. In that time, Cynthia tried over and over again to get ahold of Curt, silence in response.
She was just about to march over and find him herself when she got his transmission.
I don't know how it went, but I can imagine how it might have sounded. "Cynthia, Owen is...oh my god."
And even though she'd heard his voice, that was the moment that convinced her completely that Curt was dead. He must've been kidnapped, he must've been being tortured. Because the way he wailed then sounded just like a dying man.
i was gonna watch the Truman show with my mom but sheās getting mad at me for no reason and saying Iām āmaking facesā when I wasnāt. how was I supposed to know she was joking? she was being really rude to my dad. I canāt do this rn.
Idea that has been simmering like beef stew in my brain:
Okay so hypothetically imagine if Dazai was the one to get sent (back) to the mafia for the trade, and hes in the office with Mori, pissed off(and probably having an internal meltdown), Chuuya screaming at Mori or him yip yapping about not wanting to see Dazai or work with him ever again(hes lying but he doesn't know that), Dazai tunes it alllll out because all he can think of is "Im going to break my Promise. Odasaku would be disappointed" AND THEN time skip Chuuya is walking with Dazai to show him his "bought in advance apartment", they don't talk, just walk beside eachother(Chuuya covering his blindspot bc Dazai put the eyepatch bandages back on, with an extra bandage running across his nose/cheek) and they stop. "This is the apartment, Boss said something about it being familiar or whatever. Moving truck will be here tomorrow. Have a nice nap on the floor" and Chuuya storms off in a hurry to think about everything while Dazai just stares.
It was Odasaku's old apartment. Completely empty, dust and cobwebs in the corner. "Oh, Dazai, we already bought you a new apartment. Chuuya will lead you there, I think you'll find it,,,familiar"
And for the second time in his life, he sits on the small staircase, dressed in all black, waiting. But no one is coming to save him this time, and he knows that.
Do you think Bilbo lies awake at night blaming himself for what happened to Thorin, Fili, & Kili? Do you think he stopped considering himself a good man after his adventure? Do you think he thinks about going back to Erebor all the time but never goes because it's too painful? Do you think he kept in contact with Balin & some of the others? Do you think he still wakes up in confusion that he's alone? Do you think part of the reason why he agreed to take Frodo in was because being alone was no longer a comfort? Do you think he slept with a fire going even in the summer because he kept seeing the shadows of orcs & Gollum in the dark? Do you think he formed a habit of sleeping in the front of the house in his chair because a part of him kept expecting Fili & Kili to knock on his door again? Do you think he actually didn't plant the acorn after all & instead kept it in a lockbox, it's own "coffin", because to him what it represented died with Thorin?
Because I think that. I think grief and PTSD affected him more than he maybe even realized.