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OHH LORD I THINK I RUINED MY BACK OHHHHHHHHHH MY POSTURE OBHBHHHHDBDBDBD D SDJDDJNDND IT’S SORE SJDBDBDBDBDVXHGXGBSNS
NOW MY ELBOW FEELS WEIRD OBVBBHDHHHDHDHHDBBDBR NOOOOOKKKKKDHDHHSSUXGDVDBDX
Wine, weed, ibuprofen, and Tylenol. Surely one of them will fix my incapacitating pain
Breaking News: local idiot surprised when slapping their phone against their leg hurts
BRUH
WHY DO SOME OF MY FRIENDS THINK I DONT SHOWER, I LITERALLY SHOWERED YESTERDAY AND GOT SHAMPOO INNMY EYE JXNX IM ANGRY NOW THAT I GOT SHAMPOO IN MY EYE IT BURNT FOR HOURS I FEOT LIKE I WAS GONNA DIE BRIRHHRJRJRURUEURURUUR
Cynthia thought Curt died in that weapons facility. Just for a couple of hours.
She didn't have enough evidence to draw any hard conclusions, but what she did have was enough to convince her that something was wrong. That night, there'd been something about an explosion called in, followed shortly by about ten minutes of dead air. In that time, Cynthia tried over and over again to get ahold of Curt, silence in response.
She was just about to march over and find him herself when she got his transmission.
I don't know how it went, but I can imagine how it might have sounded. "Cynthia, Owen is...oh my god."
And even though she'd heard his voice, that was the moment that convinced her completely that Curt was dead. He must've been kidnapped, he must've been being tortured. Because the way he wailed then sounded just like a dying man.
On the one hand, this was stunning and I’m hugging this affirmation to my metaphorical chest. On the other...this assumes that the major concern, for the kid struggling to turn in an assignment, is the grade. I can assure you that it’s not (or not for many of us).
The smartest kids who still don’t seem to comprehend that 60% will help you not fail? They know that. They are not scared of a bad grade, or not only of that. They’re scared of disappointing their professor and of the threat that they might not really be all that smart. A bad grade earned because of a late assignment isn’t as threatening as a bad grade earned by a bad paper. One is about their behavior, which theoretically can change; the other seems to be an indictment of their capabilities, which are less fluid. (This is flawed logic, because turning in assignments consistently late would indicate a deficit in life skills, but it’s hard to see that when you’re in the weeds.)
I once turned in a paper so late it got me a C+ for the whole class - my only C ever - but I didn’t mind so much, because <i>at least my professor still thought I had good ideas in my paper</i>. At least my paper was honest and well researched.
So unfortunately, this inspiring post wouldn’t have really helped me, when I was stuck in that mentality. It wouldn’t have mattered if my prof had explained to me that I could bump up to a B- in the class if I turned it in two days earlier but 5 points worse. I was completely willing to sacrifice the grade for his good opinion of my scholarship, and for my own intellectual curiosity and pride in the assignment.
What might have helped is if he or someone else had sat me down and said “featherofeeling, I’ve seen the work you’ve done in other assignments, and I know you’re a good writer and capable of research. What I need from you now is to demonstrate that you can fulfill requirements, including sacrificing quality for timeliness if necessary. I probably won’t remember these topics in 6 months anyway, but I’ll remember your presence in my class.”
Certainly no one was obligated to tell me that, and no one really did; but if someone had wanted to help, it’s that kind of advice that might have gotten through.
A reminder that turning in assignments for partial credit is better than not turning them in at all. It is. Even if you think you’ve done a bad job and are ashamed of your work, or it’s way overdue, you take whatever you can get. Partial credit dramatically improves your grade over a zero, and I’m always astounded by how often even the smartest kids don’t really comprehend that. 60% is worlds better than 0%. Even 10% is going to help you. Letter grades are misleading and are not created equal. “F"s are mathematically valuable. Turn that late assignment in.
What if ...
... Hopper and Neil Hargrove had been in the army together?
I don't know anything about the army and all I know is that the war at least Hopper went to was the one in Vietnam, but let's play with the thought that the two of them were there together. And did NOT get along, like at ALL; Hopper thought Neil was deceitful and untrustworthy, too proud and manipulative. Overestimating his own importance and competence, and too happy to cause pain in others.
They both survived the war and went back to their own lives, only like 20 years later or so, the Hargroves show up in Hawkins and Hopper meets Neil Hargrove again.
Despite telling himself that they're older now; that they're adults who have had time to grow into themselves, Hopper STILL doesn't like Neil. Like, his skin is crawling when he sees the man, even after all these years. But it's not like he has a good reason to dislike him now; outwardly, Neil Hargrove seems to be just a normal family man, setting down in Hawkins with his family. No one else has had any complaints. And either way, Hopper can't explain it, it's just a feeling. He just doesn't LIKE him.
And the thing is, that the guy has KIDS now, too. Or - as Hopper learns, as soon as he gets the documents he pulled from California - a son, at least (the girl being Neil Hargrove's new wife's kid). And by the file that Hopper has to pull some strings to get his hands on, the kid is shaping up to be a bad seed, just like his dad. Reports on fights, trespassing, shoplifting, underage drinking, reckless driving.
Hopper doesn't want that kind of bad influence in his town. So what, if he wants to nip it in the bud? So what, if he pulls the kid over as soon as he gets the chance, just to get a feel of him? The kid is tense, obviously hiding something, and speaking so respectfully that it borders on sarcasm - strike that, it's definitely sarcasm.
So what, if Hopper feels the need to put the fear of god into the kid? He's here, and his father is not - Hopper can't touch Neil, who never officially puts a toe out of line, but a teenager with a bad attitude? It's basically Hopper's JOB to do something about that.
So he goes hard on the kid. Tells himself it's for the kid's own good; keeping him on the straight and narrow and teach him what's right and what's wrong. And hey, if he gets to bring the kid home to the Hargrove doorstep sometimes and look Neil Hargrove in the eye while he lets him know what his son has done now (Not so perfect now, are you Hargrove?), well, then that's just a bonus. Perks of being the Chief of Police.
It becomes personal, in the way that he will take any chance to gte on the kid's case for SOMETHING. But also the opposite of personal, because the kid - Billy - isn't really a person in his own right in Hopper's eyes. He's just an angry kid. Neil Junior. A chip of the Hargrove block. He is simply a means to an end. The best way to get to Neil in a way that doesn't seem unreasonable, or petty, in the eyes of everyone else.
And of course, I want the Moment of Realization. I don't know where or when; maybe Hopper stumbles over Billy's car parked out at the Quarry, or maybe he nabs him after a party, or maybe he sees him out walking by the side of the road late one night and pulls up next to him.
And maybe that's the time when Billy has had ENOUGH. When he either gets angry and starts yelling, 'What do you have against me, man?? What have I ever done to you?", or maybe he tries to run because he can't do this right now, or maybe it's a Bad Night and he's tired and terrified and he breaks down crying (but tries to hide it).
Maybe it's all three.
And, I don't know, but maybe Billy's hurt and wincing and Hopper notices, and maybe when Billy refuses Hopper (not very gently) demands to see, and -
Maybe there are bruises. Maybe there's a burn scar somewhere on Billy where he couldn't have put it himself (like between his shoulder blades), the one you get from a red-hot lighter. A mark that Hopper remembers from his time in the the army, from when a buddy of his made a bet with Neil and lost, and Neil let his lighter burn for a long time and then pressed the hot metal against the guy's back. That too scarred, and it looked just like this.
And maybe that's when Hopper lets his memories boil over, and his voice is rough when he asks what happened, who did that, and maybe that's when Billy mutters something about Hopper and Neil being army buddies and Hopper doesn't have to worry, Billy isn't a snitch, he can keep his mouth shut.
And that's when things slot into place in Hopper's brain, and he realizes that the kid is just a KID, that the anger comes from hopelessness, that the attitude is a mask to hide his fear. Because even now, he's cowering in Hopper's grip - but still keeping eye contact, back straight, hands to the side. Learned behaviour.
And that's when Hopper realizes he has Fucked Up.
Billy very deliberately takes up space and I think that this says so much about him? He drives a big, loud muscle car impossible to ignore both on and off the road. He cranks his stereo as loud as it will go to the same effect. In a house that is still very much new, that his family has very much just started moving into, his things are everywhere, workout equipment and stereo hulking in the living room. He walks through crowds of people with his chest puffed out and his chin up, fully expecting them to make room for him, commanding them to part like the Red Sea without saying a single word. He gets in Steve’s business on and off the court, encroaching on Steve’s personal space, going as far as to turn off Steve’s shower as a display of power.
The only time we ever see him shrink, the only time we ever see him make him smaller or wish to be imperceptible, is when Neil is actively attacking him. In all other areas of his life, Billy puts on the biggest show and takes up the most space possible.
And I feel like there’s a lot of ways to read this. Of course, there’s the angle that he’s vying for power and control in all areas of his life because he has none at home. He could just be peacocking, just a 17-year-old boy showing off. But for me I think it shows his resilience and his strength. This is a stubborn kid who has been physically and emotionally beat down for his entire life who slammed his foot down and said, “You won’t break me.” Even when he feels broken!!! He turns around and puts on this persona and demands the attention, the respects, the recognition that he doesn’t get from his father.
It also feels like…such a cry for help? Like, “I’m going to make people notice me.” He’s forcing people to look at him. He’s forcing people to see him. Because maybe, if someone is intrigued enough to do a double take, they might finally see that something is wrong. Maybe, if this boy who is loud and crass and impossible to ignore, hooks the right person, he might finally be able to escape.
Anyway, we are emotional here this afternoon.
Slavic Cossack dancing known as Hopak
Warning: Do not try this at home unless you were born with super Slavic knee strength
actually can we acknowledge “if you punish yourself, everywhere becomes hell” because GOD DAMN EDWIN that is. a very good line.
Do you think if you looked through Cam and Pal's correspondence their handwriting would gradually become more and more similar
When there’s only tea to remember…
when it all burns down….
When it finally hits.
(headcanon moment, give them time to cry m a t t h e w)
Overwhelmed by sorrow, he sank to his knees, his heart unraveling as a storm of dark unbidden tears poured freely. His heartbroken sobs reverberated through the cold, shadowed walls of the chapel.
𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳?
𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳?
𝘞𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳?
𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳?
If 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘭?
I am so sorry! I just can't leave poor Frater Imperator in peace!😫
Is it weird to say that his melancholy is somehow very beautiful to me? There's something about it that grabs me, I don't know.🥺
I just love to express his sadness (loneliness?) a little more intensely!😭💜
I hope you like it!💜
hello character who is desperate to be a good person; i want to play a game. in front of you is the one person you will never be able to save. you have the rest of your life to make peace with this. there are no defined repercussions if you fail, but we both know you're going to attempt to win regardless. your time starts now
my mouth hurts like hell
I want to punch my orthodontist and tear out his jaw
.... but that'd be mean, so maybe not