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1 year ago

Happy Valentine's Day.

Happy Valentine's Day.

TW: Depressed thoughts.

Confessed to the person I love and rejected.

Rejection doesn't matter to me, but the problem is

He's my best friend, we know each other 5 years. Confession went normal and rejection doesn't matter but I still have classic "extreme discomfort and in regret after express yourself/tell your feelings" thing. Idk why am I feeling like that at this point. I can't say if it's cause of BPD or my weak personality. Wish I never told. He didn't even distressed or something, it'll going fine. I know it'll be fine and go normal. It's about me. I'm stupid and always trying to express myself.

I choose wrong decide again... as always.

Just, idk y'all just don't be like me don't regret anything after you did or at least think a lot, be sure about it. I'm extremely stupid when topic comes being patient and think carefully. I hate myself ngl.

Nothing changed, nothing destroyed, but still. I wish I never confessed. I'm stupid. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I wish I hid my feelings until death of these feelings.

I'm sorry


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