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just as they were finally about to revoke my membership card for the Certified Derek Shepherd Haters Club, i started rewatching bits of season one and two with the knowledge of what comes later and i i kind of want to rip out all his fingernails one by one
near-drowning is such a good whump trope, not just on its own but also for what comes after
convulsive coughing or vomiting water after being pulled out
violent shivering and/or hypothermia (or concern about potential hypothermia)
bruised or cracked ribs from CPR
rapid breathing and heart-rate for hours afterwards, even if their body is tired and achy
Exhaustion and chest pain - they're limp, lethargic, but still needy for touch and comfort
Chest infections settling in their lungs from the cold and the dirty water they inhaled
Lingering trauma about the event- nightmares of sinking, panic attacks in darkness, nervousness around water, claustrophobia
something something meredith being forgotten by her family, ellis’s alzheimers and thatcher’s abandonment, but addison remembers every single tiny detail abt her. addison fixating on the minutest details abt meredith. all the ways theyre completely the same and all the ways theyre completely different. the way meredith takes her coffee, her cocoa, her tequila. the scent of her shampoo. every freckle and birthmark and scar on her body. all the stories shes shared. all the things that make her laugh and all the things that make her cry. and she remembers EVERYTHING. even after all these years. it catches meredith off guard, not used to being Remembered. Known.
she may not be a lesbian in canon, but she is a lesbian in my heart
TOP 5/10 CHARACTERS PER SHOW (as voted by my followers) ↳ grey's anatomy edition #5. Meredith Grey portrayed by Ellen Pompeo
i need a touch starvation meredith character study. a touch starvation disorder, if you will. walk with me,
THE ERA
i don't care what anyone says.
nothing (not even jackson and april) will ever top this era.
IT'S HER PEOPLE!!!
this was a love letter. btw.
Thatcher Grey is the fucking worst and I doubt his wife is much better.
I mean, yeah his wife cheated but why does he get to abandon his child and then, one day show up with his do over family?
And then, he has the nerve to talk to everyone about her. Literally everyone but her.
He asks George to tell him about her instead of owning up to his mistakes and talk to her directly.
Why does he get to do that?
I can't believe I'm really crying in front of grey's anatomy.
Like literally, what has become of me?
You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be – white dress, prince charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You’d lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming –they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true.
- Grey’s anatomy (via queen-c-96)
sandra oh and brooke smith, in a play sometime during the 90s. i found these photos here but couldn’t find out where they’re from specifically - maybe “stop kiss”, which sandra starred in in 1998. brooke smith played erica hahn on grey’s anatomy, the mentor to sandra’s character and later one half of grey’s anatomy’s first same gender couple. rumour has it that sandra’s character was meant to be the other half, given her history of romantic relationships with her mentors.
Today I dreamt Meredith Grey was a medicine student who was also a dutchess who wanted to escape from her royal duties and have a normal life. In this story, her mother also did not approve any of her choices and Meredith was also estranged from her mother. They had a very difficult relationship.
If there are any Grey's anatomy fans out there who want to turn this into a fanfic, go for it - if there isn't already on of those out there.
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Hi I love your work so I thought that i would request something. A meredith one where after dereks death she doesn’t want a relationship so she pushes anyone that is interested in her away. But the reader (male or g!n I don’t mind) comes as an new neurosurgeon and makes her fall in love with them. But Meredith being Meredith feels bad about moving on from Derek and tries to distance herself. So the reader tries to explain and to show her that she deserves being loved and that Derek would want her to move on. You can add some soft smut at the end if you want, like reader is trying to make her feel loved and wanted. (btw sorry for the long request)
You deserve a second chance
Meredith Grey x gn!reader
A/N: hello and thank you! it turned into a kinda one-sided-hate to lovers cause I think it's fitting, also I had to separate this into two parts because it came out too long
Warnings: slight angst, cursing
Word count: 3.1k
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Everything felt new.
The halls were the same, the rooms were the same, Meredith could map the entire building with her eyes closed and could tell you the quickest route to any elevator or the best on-call room for every floor. That's how much she knew the hospital.
But as she walked through the corridors she couldn't help but feel like a stranger. Every patient she was treating was gone and there were some new faces among the nurses too. Despite her indisputable abilities Meredith felt like an intern all over again.
That's what a year away from everyone can do to you.
But she felt the need to come back, she had to; so there she was, looking at the board to check her next surgery.
"I thought Amelia had a day off" she whispered with furrowed eyebrows, remembering how the Shepherd offered to babysit her kids while she was at work, so the aneurysm scheduled for noon was confusing.
But as she moved her eyes to the doctor's name in charge of the surgery, she felt an unhealthy amount of bile forming up in her throat.
- - - -
"You hired a new neurosurgeon?" it didn't take long for Meredith to find Webber, and talk to him in a way that was too loud to be professional, and too angry to be directed at her boss.
"Meredith" he couldn't say he was surprised, in fact he was almost expecting the outburst. So he asked the resident he was talking to leave them alone before turning to look at her "you know we had to" he already knew what to say
"there's already Amelia. There's no need to hire someone else" her eyes were frantic as they searched Webber's, and maybe somewhere in her head she knew she was being unreasonable, but all she could see right now was her husband being replaced without a care.
"Derek wasn't working here anymore Meredith" Richard kept his tone even, while subtly trying to get everyone's attention off them "you know how many people come to this hospital every day, Amelia couldn't do it all on her own" Amelia, because using the brunette's last name wouldn't be a great move right now. "and (y/l/n) is a very capable surgeon so I want them working here."
The blonde loudly sighed and squeezed her eyes shut "I have a surgery" that technically wasn't a lie, but her main goal was to get out of there
The man watched her leave with a sigh. Hopefully with time Meredith would see he made the right choice.
- - - -
For the next few weeks Meredith avoided you, she saw you talking to your patients, she saw your face, so she knew who to avoid. This was a big hospital, it shouldn't be hard to do it for as long as she needed to, even if that was forever.
But she was never that lucky.
She opened the door to the x-ray room where Amelia told her she would be, her head lowered to look at her patient's scans. "Amelia can you take a look at this, I think-" she stopped mid sentence when she found you looking at her, arm propped up on the armrest of the chair with a curious look on your face. An empty chair next to you.
This was the first time she looked into your eyes.
"you're not Amelia"
"clearly not" you chuckled. The first time she heard your voice. "she just got called into surgery, but you can ask me if you need a consult" you offered, peering at the scans in her hands.
"no it's okay" she shook her head after a second "I'll just wait for her"
"oh I don't think you want to" you interjected, getting up from your seat "she should be in there for hours and if it's urgent you better ask me" you gently took the scans from her and started esaminating them, earning a stern look from the surgeon. "what do you think it is?"
Even though you just asked it to know her opinion, Meredith took that as a sign you didn't know how to do your job. Just what she needed to hate you more.
"an aneurysm." she answered anyway "They brought her to me because she was complaining about stomach pain, but as I was talking to her I noticed-"
"It's a tumor" you stated with confidence, not raising your head from the papers.
"what? no I think-" she started, but you cut her off once more.
"is her vision blurry?"
Meredith rolled her eyes "dark spots around the corner of her eyes"
You quietly nodded to yourself "it's almost touching the optic nerve. We need to operate soon if we don't want her going blind" you gave her the scans back, and she instantly took them "I'll book an O.R. for tomorrow"
She bit her tongue to prevent herself from mentioning that 'we' you used. Instead she nodded, murmured a 'thanks' and got out of the room.
- - - -
"this is an aneurysm, right?"
Amelia's eyes fell on the scans Meredith showed her as soon as she got out of surgery, gloves still on. She gave the woman a confused look, but didn't say anything, and freed her hands to flip through the papers.
"I tried asking (Y/l/n) but they seemed uncertain so I want a second op-"
"nop, it's a tumor" she quickly answered, with the same confidence you showed a couple of hours before "and it's close to the optic nerve, have you booked an O.R. yet?"
Meredith sighed and started following Amelia through the halls "yes, (Y/l/n) did"
"good, then you're all set. Why did you ask me?"
she wasn't expecting Meredith to tell her the truth. She often bragged about her ability to keep her feelings hidden, but she asked anyway.
And she did it this time too "I told you they seemed uncertain"
"you don't like them" Amelia stopped in front of the other woman, almost making her bump into her. She saw the defensive stance the blonde took, and continued talking. "you don't like that they're a neurosurgeon like Derek was, and you don't like that they work here, like Derek did"
Meredith shook her head, not liking the look on the brunette's face. She tried to deny her, but couldn't find an excuse believable enough for Amelia to drop it. So she kept silent.
"trust me, I know because I did too" her voice turned somewhat softer "it took me weeks not to cuss them out every chance I got." she stopped for a second, her old feelings resurfacing "they're not trying to replace Derek, okay? they're just doing their job, and we should let them" she ended with a shrug and raised the scans in her hands "and this is a tumor, so trust them in the O.R."
- - - -
The next day, Meredith reluctantly scrubbed in with you, and let you work on her patient's brain while she worked on her liver. It was a standard procedure on her part, so she had no problem in keeping an eye on you from time to time.
Your hands were steady and your eyes were focused, never wavering from your work, your voice soft as you talked to your resident, explaining your steps to him and asking him questions.
Your voice held the same softness whenever you tried to make small talk with Meredith, and every time, she shot you down. She didn't sound particularly rude - Amelia's words echoing in her head - but she wasn't craving to chitchat.
- - - -
It was only when the patient was discharged that she willingly started a conversation with you.
"thanks for the help, by the way" was all she said, so gently you thought she was talking to someone else. But you shook your head and smiled at her regardless, claiming it was a pleasure. She offered you a polite smile, and went off to do her own thing.
From that moment on you started talking more and more each day, and it wasn't always job-related.
You started hanging out with Amelia so she often found you sitting on her couch when she got back from work; you told her you would stop if it made her uncomfortable, but she assured you it was fine. Besides, it was Amelia's house too, so she had every right to invite you any time she wanted.
That's what she told herself, the only reason why she didn't mind you being at her place.
Actually, that was not the only reason.
"Bailey loves when you play with him, and it actually gives me a break from keeping an eye on all three of them, so really, don't worry about it" in the time you spent at her place, you also met her kids, and they seemed to love you. Well, of course kids like someone who plays with them and hands them candies while their mother isn't looking.
But that's it. Meredith didn't have any ulterior motives for wanting you near her all the time.
You, on the other end, wanted to be near Meredith without hiding behind the excuse of hanging out with Amelia or helping her babysit.
When you first came to grey sloan memorial you had already heard about Meredith and her mother. Sure, you learned from experience to never trust rumors and to only believe what happened right in front of your eyes.
But you saw Meredith Grey operate, you saw how her brain worked while in the O.R., and how it worked outside of it. And you wanted to see more of it.
You couldn't say you were the only one, or at least you thought- hoped so.
Meredith kept on giving you mixed signals, and after what Amelia told you about Derek and what happened to him you decided to go at her pace, and only ask her out directly once you were sure she liked you back and was ready.
But that didn't stop you from testing the waters.
- - - -
"so you think we should go for the heart first?" he raised his eyebrows
"I mean, yea but you'd have to be quick, I can't waste time" you could feel Riggs' eyes on you as you observed the charts
"quantify quick"
You shrugged "I don't know, an hour? We can't leave him open for too long"
"no that's not enough time, if I rush things I could kill him" And with a shake of the man's head, you were back to square one.
Impossible cases were fun only once you found a way to make them possible. But after two hours in the same room with Riggs, you were still in that gray area between the two.
"what are you two grumbling about?" a familiar voice made itself known, making the both of you turn to the door.
"brainstorming" Riggs replied simply "you wanted something?"
"hi Mer" you interjected, your smile growing in size when she reciprocated.
"Maggie wanted you to take a look at these, they're not urgent but page her as soon as you do" she handed him three charts, probably Maggie's patients' "everyone seems to be delegating today" she added with a sigh.
While the cardiac surgeon started flipping through the pages, you took in Meredith's hooded eyes and loose ponytail "you okay?"
She was silent for a second, before shrugging "Zola didn't want to go to sleep last night and didn't want to go to school today, Ellis cried all night and Bailey gave me two of her patients-"
"Bailey your son?"
"the chief" she squinted her eyes unamused, while Riggs' laugh echoed between the two of you "so I'll be better once I get home" she resumed
You glanced at the man, making sure he was invested in the papers Maggie gave him, before clearing your throat "hey, uhm" you waited for Meredith to look at you "I'm going to the bar to get a drink later, want to join me for a bite?"
She opened her mouth, seemingly debating on her answer, then shook her head after a minute "I can't, I have to put the kids to bed I'm sorry-"
"no no it's okay, don't worry" you waved your hand around, lightly swaying in your chair.
Meredith responded to your small smile with one of her own, though her eyes seemed to not want to end it there.
"uh, don't forget to page Maggie when you're done with them" she told Riggs. Then, with a small wave, she got out of the room.
"Yikes" the sound of papers colliding loudly with the table made you turn your neck to the other surgeon.
"what"
"nothing it's just" he shrugged his shoulders at your accusatory tone "I've been in your shoes, it's hard. good luck" he shook his head "I mean I failed so you definitely need it"
"oh fuck off, and focus on the case" you shot him a look and rolled your eyes at his arrogant, amused smile.
Riggs laughed at your comment, ready to respond, but the way you were biting on your lip, visibly lost in the papers in front of you, prevented him from doing so.
"Do you have an idea?"
It took a few more seconds, before you got up from your seat, relieved smile gracing your face "Maggie could be there too. She can take care of the heart and you'll work on the veins around it. How long do you think it'll take?"
Riggs thought it over, before nodding with a smile "I'd say no more than forty minutes"
"That way we won't leave him open for too long"
"we should have Meredith here more often" he joked, pointing a finger in your direction.
- - - -
After figuring the case out with Riggs you had just hoped for a quiet rest of the shift; but the world didn't want that for you, as one of you patients got rushed into surgery, so here you were now, getting out of the hospital two hours after your shift normally ended.
You stopped mid yawn when you heard footsteps quickly approaching. Turning around, you found Meredith standing in front of you, now dressed in her normal clothes, brown jacket around her shoulders, and ragged breaths coming out of her mouth.
"you're still here? I thought you already went home?"
She remained silent for a second to consider her words, covering it up as just catching her breath, then quickly spoke up "you're driving"
"what?"
"to the bar." She started explaining, watching as a smile started to make itself present on your face "I'm too tired to drive and I want to drink so you'll drive me home too"
You were actually about to go home, the day had taken a toll on you so you had decided to just go home to sleep. But Meredith didn't need to know that.
You would withhold that small information since she finally accepted to go out with you.
You weren't even sure you could call it 'going out', you didn't phrase it like that and you don't think she would have agreed to it if you did.
So this was just two friends hanging out. You'd take whatever she was willing to give you.
"okay" you said "my car is that way"
- - - -
The 'friendly hangout' went well, thankfully there was never tension or awkward silence when the two of you were alone.
Sober Meredith ranted to you about her stressful day and how she wanted to ground all three of her children for a whole week so she could get some rest. While tipsy Meredith scolded you for even thinking about work or your personal problems, "we came here to relax" she claimed, completely oblivious to her own hypocrisy.
And just as you promised, you didn't have a single glass of liquor, so you could drive a tipsy Meredith home, safe and sound.
"I left my car at the hospital" when she spoke up again after a quiet car ride - where you suspected she fell asleep - her words weren't slurred anymore, but they were still hard to hear with how her face was squashed against your shoulder. She was trying to keep herself warm, she said, tightening the jacket around her middle.
You were careful with your steps as to not make her lose balance. You were almost at her porch by now.
"I know, I drove us to the bar" You stopped walking and Meredith straightened her back.
You kept quiet, not wanting to disturb the atmosphere of the night, while she turned her body to unlock the door.
All the lights were off and the house seemed to be completely silent, Amelia and Maggie were probably already asleep. You let out a quiet yawn, shaking your head to try and wake yourself up. You couldn't afford to fall asleep on the road.
In the meantime, Meredith was still facing the door, the key was inside the hole but you didn't hear it turn yet. Her head hung low while her hand delicately gripped the door handle.
Before you could question it she turned around, letting her bag fall to the ground. She took a step closer to you, heart beating wildly in her chest paired with a weird ringing in her ears. It was only partially due to the alcohol.
You kept looking at her, a small smile on your lips despite your confusion, and she soon found herself unable to look away.
Your eyes were soft, she noticed, they were darker under this light but she could still catch a glimpse of their natural colour. She took a step closer, wanting to take a better look. You raised your hand along your waist in surprise, and she almost thought you were about to touch her. Almost wished you did.
Yet another step was taken, to the point where your feet were almost touching.
She didn't notice you leaning in.
From this distance Meredith could smell your perfume clearly. She already knew she liked it, she got acquainted with it while her head was resting on your shoulder. You didn't reek of alcohol, if there was any trace of it she knew it was her fault. But you still smelled the same you did hours ago.
Her hand grabbed your forearm to keep you there. She liked your perfume. It was new, it was different. Different from-
She took two steps back. Derek never smelled like that.
You tried taking a step forward, calling after her, but her hand left your forearm and moved in between you two to stop your movements.
"it's late" she shook her head, picking up her bag from the floor "you should go"
You opened your mouth, your defeated look was probably why she avoided your eyes "Mer"
"you should go" she repeated, and her hand was already pushing the door open, quickly disappearing behind it.
You refrained yourself from yelling after her, not wanting to wake up anyone, so you just sighed, heading back to your car.
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when I knew without a shadow of doubt that I am indeed Meredith Grey. 💁
