Not A Cry For Help - Tumblr Posts

So this one time with my ex-wife

Not gonna describe the situation, but we had to rough it and sleep in a tiny room, an I had to sleep on the floor so she could sleep on the bed, my stomach was always hurting on and off cause I didn't have weed, and the anxiety was so bad cause of our situation.

There was this moment she dropped her hand for me to hold on to it, and I grabbed her hand and felt such bliss. So much energy was coming from her body to mine, I felt no pain, I felt so relaxed and happy and loved.

Moral of the story is I wish I could find that again, I wish more then anything I wasn't so lonely and unloved. I have so much love and no one to give it to, no one that will feel my energy the same way. I'm so fucking lost

I understand that she left me cause of my chronic pains, and I wasn't able to take care of her like we dreamed. We was so full of love and it just wasn't enough.

Innnn relation to my last post, more things I need!

- alcohol, a bunch

Honorable mentions:

- some strong shit

Concerning my friends who might see this: this is not a cry for help, it's just crying in general