On Longing - Tumblr Posts
Firstly I am unable to sleep and on top of that I remember you all night long.
Night Shift by Lucy Dacus is for the girls who still reminisce about that one relationship they had with that girl and they can never let go of her thoughts and memories even when the other person has settled into a new life
— Edna St Vincent Millay, Sonnet VII, from Poems (1923)
— Edna St Vincent Millay, Sonnet VII, from Poems (1923)
on love arriving unannounced
she was one of the first friends I made when I moved schools. we didn’t hang out all the time, but I love her company, always laughing. I was nasty. I think I still am horrible to her. I know I'm too sensitive. I am so sorry. I don't think I knew her all that well, and I miss her. I wish I knew her better. I know my life is different from hers. I hope she is angry with me; she should be. I hope she still sees me as a friend, at least some of the time. I don’t want to lose touch. I miss her. I wonder what she thinks. I hope she doesn't miss me. am i too late? did i change for the worse? could you tell me if too much time has passed? am i too late?
me: *wants to become a polyglot, historian, poet, artist, master four instruments, travel the world, have a social life and a romantic relationship*
also me: due to my personal reasons i will now completely detach myself from reality, sit in my bedroom and contemplate existence for four (4) hours straight.
Baie | she/they | unlabled | 18
– currently listening to: 'david melrose theme' by hauschka, smokey eyes by lincoln, along with elias hix, hozier, noah kahan, gang of youths – currently reading: all the light we cannot see by anthony doerr and phosphorecence by julia baird
welcome
hello :> it's general chaos around here. possibly some web weaving of my own floating about. but there's not much else to it
about me: australian!! 2006. lover of love and life. infj 4w5. very in love ᰔᩚ chaotic good! rediscovering and building my faith :) lqbtqia+
academia: graduated '23!! starting my double degree in ‘24! slowly self-teaching japanese ᰔᩚ. chaotic academia by blood
the goal: bachelor criminology and criminal justice + psychological science (and maybe cybercrime in the future?)
master list
(links are broken atm, but the tags are correct)
#poems and quotes
#ineptias loqour (my posts)
#study log
#media
#artwork
#music
#musings (a fav of mine)
#meme
#not a meme but that same category of posts
#on christianity
#letters to myself
#that one type of green
#web weaving
#anderson don’t talk out loud. you lower the iqueue of the whole street. (queue tag)
added this section with the tags i use most often so i can find posts later, everything else is just #on *thing* and frankly i can't be bothered with that.
will possibly add links to fandoms and reads... not sure yet. it would be good to have an active list of all the books i read and enjoyed enough to keep a list of…. here’s a short list of fandomesque things tho: sherlock, rwby, bts/kpop, d20, sk8 the infinity, good omens, epic the musical, lore olympus webtoon, loki series, fnaf,
books would include: archives of despair by caleb finn, hamlet, good omens, throne of glass series, embassy row series, the song of achilles by madeline miller, they both die at the end duology, the inheritance games series, shadow and bone+six of crows, everything by alice oseman
music as well perhaps? hozier, bts, ericdoa, noah kahan, glaive, cage the elephant, lizzy mcalpine, cave town, mccafferty, chase atlantic, brakence, eden, the front bottoms, (it’s all over the place… just not much country music tbh)
here’s the old intro post, haven't decided what to do with it yet
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ik this is a new account, but i’ve been here since july 2020 <3
for what i have done and failed to do i am sorry.
Sue Monk Kidd, The Book of Longings